Labour Day, out with Jessica and Jordan..
The three of us are like LATE king and queens,
should be meeting at 11am but we leave home at 11am,
then end up until 12pm, all of us met..
Jordan thinks that I am fussy, because I complain hungry but dun want eat this, dun want eat that..
At last, went to Food Republic in AMK hub.. =P

OK!!
I must say, Jessica is a pro in the fighting game!!
She is even better than Jordan and she won Jordan for the match, KO!!
Should be beginner luck, her combo attacks is so CLEAR and fought till the last two stages..
Spent our time in walking around AMK hub, despite we know the place so much,
however, Jessica was finding one of the shop but there is nowhere found..
Therefore, went up to arcade again and saw Jordan's relatives,
head down to Vivo City as we decided to watch movie..

Public Holiday = CROWD..
OMG!!
The queue in the cinema was going to wants our life for waiting,
therefore, we didnt bought any tickets and went to look for our dinner..
Buffet at $13.90++, a poster we saw right on the pillar,
so we went in to the restaurant..
Is a China restaurant and hired all those China workers,
I am not here to say bad things about them just that their attitude simply 'SUCKS'..

There are pictures for the day, but I am too lazy to wait for it loading,
therefore.. see my mood then.. =PP
Went home with Jordan as Jessica got her boyfriend sent her home,
and I reached home at 10.57pm, not yet 11.59pm lo..
Of course was because Jordan need to 'work' the next day thus we going home early..

A long weekend for students, and I dunno if I am going tomorrow,
Swine flu is around the world now, and I forbid Mr. Tan to go back Vancouver..
OK!! I know it is for my own sake, but I am doing it for his sake too.. =PP
End of my post, as I am going to bath.. =DD

相爱容易相处难，

知情简单假装难。

Got some ideas from Xiujing's blog and wanted to write something similar like hers..

How could I know what happen on you and act as though nothing happen??

Just because I think of your situation doesnt means I need to act that I dunno..

Anyway, I guess you know better than me what kind of character I am,

venting all this out here, and expect you will come and confront me soon or later..

(Mr. Tan Yi Qiang, dun HIDE!!)

笑容挂在脸上，

眼泪往肚里吞。

LUCKS didnt follow me for long, it makes me disappointed time and time,
I guess time really makes the different..

I can fall in LOVE so easily, but couldnt remains the feelings that long,

I wish to forget my past, but there is a invisible lock holding on my legs..

Walking forward doesnt means I get out of my past,

and frankly speaking, why could I see through LIFE and DEATH so easily??

*silly*

天下无不散的宴席，

尽管不舍还是会离别。

True and real friends do not need daily contact in order to keep their relationship firm,

since TIME able to prove everything, it will shows whose are/is your friends..

I believe by the time I get married, those who I invited over will be friends that stay for me very long..

Can I forseen the future now??

I guess it might be a tough job..

生命里的一首小插曲，

改变了主曲的旋律。

Every single thing or person that walk in or out of my world, plays their role..

He/She might be my best memories or did something unmemorable to me,

He/She might be my enemy or hurt in a certain way that I dislike so much,

however, I guess the only one that can make me feel so up and down,

will be myself..

Jordan gave me a scenario just now, and my answer irritate him??

But, this is the most definite reply I gave, and I really feel in this way..

有始有终，时间嘀嗒嘀嗒地走着，

你的背影也随着远去，

迎接我的是黎明前的黑暗，

还是黄昏后的夜晚呢？

EMO-daphne appeared again..

Please bear with this post and allow me to get over the my mood soon,

a sleep later will turn my mood over again..

*just LOVE you*

I lack of sleep from yesterday till now,
get on bed at 4.35am on the morning and woke up at 11.25am,
combo calls from Mr. Tan until my daddy answered my call and told him I am still sleeping..
End up, my daddy talking to him on my phone and my mummy woke me up..
=PP
He was then invited up to my house and waited for me to finish bathing,
at first intend to bring my parents along to go out, but rejected at last,
because they said should let the both of us go shopping and not get disturbed..
=DD

Headed down to a place I LIKE the most, Fullerton Hotel!!
Dim Sum buffet there at $28++ per person, from 11.30am-2.30pm..
Luckily my attire was presentable, if not 'pai seh' till hell lo!!
I guess the next time I going there to eat will be 6 months later??
So expensive and the servings are so pathetically SMALL,
it was a buffet therefore should be eat till turn fat then worthy,
but I think ten plates of dim sum were my limit..
Whereas my Mr. Tan ate more than 20 plates,
he was going to gain weight by 5kg!!
(curse him..)

That was our high-tea, after that head back his house,
how is he able to book out, because his reservice is OVER!!!
Therefore, I will start to MISS him again..
I must be the one who gain weight and not Mr. Tan,
our dinner was at 'Chong Pang' which is a buffet again!!
If I will to gain weight, Mr. Tan will need pay for my fitness courses fee..

Mr. Tan advised me not to be serious over the guy in my class,
because he expected an outcome which I will feel sad over it,
anyway, I didnt intend to moved on as Mr. Tan is still inside my deep heart,
and the other guy is still getting my attention..

OK!!
One of my dear dear's turn,
she mentioned something to me just now, in the beginning of today,
therefore I wanted to help her keep a record!!
She felt abit wasted to be attached in this time, as she is noticed by cute guys NOW!!
Of course she still LOVE her boyfriend ALOT,
but this is something irresistible and feel happy for..
Dear (you know who you are),
eye-candy is meant to look, anyway I know you wont 'dong xin' wan!!

*I learnt to accept facts*

Staring from the "outing" with friends,

meet at Jason's house first and waited for Qiuling and Jacob,

head down to AMK hub to search for Ryan's birthday present,

and we got him a suit of top and bottom..

Movie at 11.45pm, while we bought the tickets at 9.30pm,

therefore went down to Mos Burger to sit and play poker..

"Police & Murder", whatever the game named by people,

and I am a lousy murder, I am so scared of 'killing' victims,

so almost everytime, I guess who is the 'police'..

17 Again,

the movie is pretty nice, storyline isnt too bad,

if everyone is given another to replay their life again, are there anything wanted to change??

History will never repeat, so once changed there is no turning back..

I always wanted time to return, back to the time I wasnt too 'clear-minded',

able to solve or keep everything deep inside my heart,

however.. I just hope things goes smoothly for me now..

I wont request for any over-board hopes,

a simple, sweet and assurance one will do..

After movie, cabbed home and planned surprise for Ryan by his girlfriend,

we just stall his time by strolling around the area..

And we succeed, as Ryan's face changed when he saw his girlfriend,

ate the cake which was 'Oreo Cheese Cake',

even though I dislike cheese but I finish the slice as Jessica just had a mouth..

Ryan cried, too touched for him to handle maybe,

therefore his girlfriend keep hugging him..

I think the atomsphere was so super right and I felt their sense of happiness!!

Went back home at around 3.05am,

blogging now after having my bath,

tomorrow might have dinner with Yi Qiang, see if he is able to book out..

*how to love when I feel disappointments over and over again*

STOP TELLING ME RUBBISH!!

IT IS IMPOSSIBLE!!

If I am able to forget, why will I fall in love at the first place??

If time can fade away all this, why will I still able to thought of it everytime??

I guess I am turning unreasonable again,

how could I blame others when I know it is my fault??

Someone please wake me up from this fantasy dream,

I seriously HATE this dream like hell!!

You wont know how much I endured after hurts and pains were formed,

this isnt what I said out can help, it depends on whether am I able to place down..

No HOPE = No DISAPPOINTMENTS

My heart soften again, just after I stop having wishful thinking on him, I fall into another trap again..

Another trap that make myself fell into it and got hurts again,

which means those paths in front of me are full with traps..

Why I couldnt feel the fear of facing the traps and yet scared of facing disappointments??

I should learn how to stay away from disappointments, because I am not suitable in this kind of position..

Whenever I start to believe, it will just make me face the reality,

not sure it is my luck or destiny,

see things I dun hope to seen but not seen things I hope to see..

However, all grumbles started from yesterday and not now..

Therefore, I used a day to make myself get over the matter,

which is kinda of 'fast'??

Even though I know this wont be totally get over, but I am trying bit by bit,

isnt it a good try anyway??

=DD

Clarke Quay tonight, and tomorrow advance celebration for Ryan..

Going wild after my one week schooling,

which is pretty COOL!!!

The first week in school, already start missing all my cliques!!

XINYI, ZIKUAN, LOIS..

Of course my W25F too, but we meet almost every breakout 2,

therefore I will miss my W47C a little more.. =PP

I guess I am immune from the all those pain and hurts,
still willing to wait and see how it goes despite I knew the outcome long ago..
However, he just simply "dump" me out his mind beside as a friend,
can I assume that after 'plenty plenty of time' given, we might change the status we are holding now??
OK, it maybe is my wishful thinking..
Everyone is caring about me therefore I must get over soon,
however.. get over doesnt means placing down..

Tan Yi Qiang is extending his time in Singapore,
he must be the first person that objected me to 'wait' foolishly..
He must has forgotten that, he made me wait too,
so why cant I do it now?? (he will say, he is different)
He always has the ways to defend himself but I know he wont win at last,
because his skills is still not up to standard.. =DD
He is slack-ing in his camp from the past two days,
as I received his phone calls and claim that I didnt update my blog..
My answer was totally no link from his question,
"You have the time but didnt ring me up, still go read my blog!!"
hahaha..
He stunt-ed and promise will call me whenever he is free,
I guess this promise will be left said and not done, which is like "AGAIN"..

*mushy words*

*A BROKEN HEART WILL NEVER EVER RECOVER FULLY*


I know everything will be faded away as time goes by,
however, when those things happen on myself I unable to act so bravely..
The most sweet words I ever heard again,
even though it might be fake or just cheating me in his particular way..
It is stupid when you know that is a lie but still believe it again and again,
I guess he didnt meant to lie or cheat me after all..
He waited for 6 years and I only waited for 1 year,
do I need to wait for another 6 years in order for him to walk in my heart again??
Or I should use 6 years time to place down the feelings and memories,
妳只是在用别人做对的事，来惩罚自己罢了。。

Is it possible to love many people by only one heart??
Treated everyone the same and with same level of love,
is it called as "FILRT" or too much love to share??
I still 'LOVE' him but in the same time couldnt forget how I fell in love on you,
am I a 'slut' in some ways??
宁可要一生一世的爱情，还是永永远远的回忆？？

Today, first day of school..
Classmates are fine, and I think I did a good job,
topic is about mircoorganism..

It might be the first time I confessed straight to Jessica about my feelings,
I guess I got over the matter but the feelings are not fade away..
"Give him plenty plenty of time", this was what Jessica told me,
but I know, time wont change his decision..
I am trying to stay rational and act as though nothing happen,
which I did it, but feeling the pain deep inside my heart..
Of course it is impossible for him to know it,
as my real friends whom reading this post will never betray me..
你没看到，就是我最软弱的一面，也是我掩饰最好的。。


*和他在一起一天，我就能感觉到一天的欢乐*