KBOX KBOX KBOX..

Went for KBOX yesterday, with Yi Qiang,

and yeah!!! Just the both of us.. =DDD

Before that went to shop Bugis, clothes in SALE,

and if the salesgirl's attitude can be better, I confirm will buy the bag!!!!

Bought novels at Bras Basah,

those that I had been looking for in the library finally let me found at the bookstore..

First time buy those books, jiu bought 6 of it,

go meet Yi Qiang then asked him to take my bag for me..

Went to the KBOX with the handsome guy,

as usual he came in for one time only, the rest were other people..

Yi Qiang sang most of the songs for me to hear,

until 9plus we left the place, because I am freaking tired..

Luckily he drove his car here, so reached home very fast too..

=DDDDD

At night, when I am going to sleep that kuku called and wanted me to chat with him till he sleep,

but I no other choice still chat until I very tired,

then want him to sing lullaby and make me sleep..

Dunno what time I fell asleep, but in the morning saw his last message that was around 12am..

This few days, I thought I wont think of 'him', still feel so proud of myself,

who knows, today listening to musics, heard those songs,

every flashback just came into my mind, so I failed to stop thinking of 'him'..

All thanks to Yi Qiang and his group of friends,

maybe is their help so I can stop thinking for few days,

but then 'he' is just in my mind,

is not I dun want to think about it, means 'he' not around..

The course of true love never did run smooth..

So I am still wondering, wandering around..

if there isnt a way for today, there will another for tomorrow..

If I failed again, I will never going to stop,

because the chances of success will still be 50-50..

I miss what I most want to forget..

I love what I most afraid to lost..

STUPID VIVIAN, you want save money also no need this way ma!!!!

My souvenirs is the couple cups, and one is for me the other one for Yi Qiang??

Where you heard that me and him still couple de??

Crazy liao la you!!!!!

I dun care, I want another present of my own..

HAHAHAHHHA..

This bride came back from honeymoon, the other counting down her marriage date..

I guess if the next one is I get married, see got how many people help me out..

TAN YI QIANG is currently in his crazy mode,

he thought I dunno but yet all his brothers now so scared I ignore them, so all come and tell me what he going to do..

Then made him feel as though he kenna betrayed, and lots of eyes spying over him..

HAHHAHAHAHHA..

He came and grumble to me, begged me to give him 'freedom',

OIE, Tan Yi Qiang,

not I ask them to do de hor, is they willing to do themselves de!!!!

=DDDDDD

You scared, then dun break the promise again!!!!!!

Nowadays, my mood quite good..

'O' Level yesterday was pretty fine, kuku waiting for me outside the school,

and off I go to have a small gathering..

Alice's tummy is growing bigger, and if she will to give birth naturally,

it will be on the December, WOO..

My next god-daughter or god-son is coming to the world in less than two months..

=DDDDD

TESTS coming next week!!!!!!

And I haven study for anything, but I must at least score well in TEST 1,

cause I have no confident to do well in the other two tests.. =P

There is no beginning without an end,

if you can see, I am trying my best now..

YOO HOO~~~~~

Accompany Yi Qiang down to have a belated birthday celebration organized by his friends,

KBOX and opened three bottles of Martell and two bottles of Chivas.. (alot)

In the end, the worker still need to help on carrying a few of friends out,

HAHAHHAHHA..

That scene was super funny, whereas I seh seh walked out cause I didnt even touch a sip of liquor,

played games also Yi Qiang or other friends helped me CHEERS..

Ended up, I most sober and almost the whole gang drunk..

So got them up on cab, then sent Yi Qiang home,

luckily reached his house around morning le, so I took the first train home after settled him down..

The whole night, Yi Qiang was like keep apologizing,

and then his actions, his words, finally let me realised how stupid am I now..

'O' Level ENGLISH tomorrow,

wish me LUCKS man..

I am freaking nervous..

What to do????

I deleted off a long post and replaced it..

I wanted to say or explain everything out here, but I just remember what Jessica told me before, so I didnt do it..

It might be hard for me to do this now, but I know when time drag longer, the right feelings is then all gone..

If it will to maintain the same, then that will be the time for me to speak aloud..

If this is what I can get in return, I have no other choices but to face it,

despite I fought so hard for it, but it is not meant for me..

When I walked to you, could you tell me what your heart is telling now??

When I asked again the question, could you tell me the answer I want??

However, for now I will just close my eyes and try to forget everything you have given me,

maybe till the day I failed to forget you, I will then know how important you are in my heart..

This is the only thing I can do now, in order to let everything back to square one again..

我也不想放弃，可是老天每次都狠狠地践踏我的信心。

就像你一样，不也就是因为没有信心，所以才不敢往前吗？

而现在的我，也决定和你一样，

失去信心的DAPHNE NG，只能继续挂着面具的过日子。。。

This is a story involved a GIRL and a BOY, how their story started and how it ended..

Both of them were childhood partners ever since the BOY's mother moved over to the same district as the GIRL..

They became the most best neighbours, as the BOY's mother was always sick so the GIRL's mother was too friendly and help in taking care of her..

They attended the same school, studied together, played together, everything were done together..

The GIRL's mother love the BOY alot even treated him better than her own daughter, so the GIRL was always jealous over the BOY, accusing him of snatching the love from her mother..

Of course everyone thinks they should be together, all included themselves,

and YES, they were together.. (didnt disappoint anyone)

The BOY listened to every request the GIRL's said, did everything in the GIRL's way,

the GIRL is demanding, spoilt, violent??

However, it didnt make the BOY love her any lesser, in opposite the BOY's love grew deeper as time goes by..

One fine day, the BOY went to fetch the GIRL for school, as usual the GIRL's mother asked the BOY to call her down for breakfast..

Reached the GIRL's room, he just opened the door without knocking, and saw the GIRL wrapped her body with a thin short towel..

As shocked and panicked, the shower towel slipped down the GIRL's body and so..

The GIRL was fully naked in front of the BOY..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~

The BOY quickly dashed out the room and closed up the door, he keep claiming that he didnt see anything,

suddenly the GIRL opened the door, and give the BOY a punch..

Not long later, a contract appeared in front of the BOY,

no other choice, the BOY signed the contract unwillingly..

They still lead life as normal, until the health condition of the BOY's mother worsen and passed away..

The BOY fell sick and the GIRL accompanied him throughout,

cracked jokes to make the BOY laugh, not to keep him alone..

When the BOY turning better, he suddenly miss the food the GIRL's mother,

so in order to fulfil his cravings, the GIRL went back to her house and packed the foods..

A track crossed, *BOMB*

Few days later, at the cemetery there is a guy fully naked and crying in front a tomb,

he held on a paper, and take a good look on it, there stated..

"Party A (GIRL) want Party B (BOY) to promise
1.) never left her unless she is DEAD,
2.) if she is DEAD, Party B (BOY) must be naked and stand in front her tomb.."

Ending..

The BOY brought with him a bottle of wine and sleeping pills, gazed the smile once again, and he lie beside the tomb,

the empty bottle slipped down his hand, and there goes a tragic ending..

I found this story interesting ar, even though a bit unrealistic, admire the devotion of the BOY,

he dun mind being shameless just to fulfil the promise he made with the GIRL..

It might be silly of commit suicide, but when someone actually lost every single important person in their life, they will also lost their soul of own life..

原来爱情从来都没有离开过，

只是我记得，你却忘记了。。。

So the promises made with me are totally WORTHLESS??

And yet YOU have the face to tell me remember OUR PROMISES??

What is this???????

Now then I see it clearly..

I still wondering why didnt you call me, when I have off day from school today,

keep thinking you might be busy, then I knew you are really busy, busy over settling stuffs which are not suitable for me to know!!!!

YOU are so awesome, consider of my feelings right??

Dun want me to worried right???

Why do everyone keep assuming that I am too good to be hurted???

Why cant ask me straight in face, what I really want?????

However, despite I said whatever I want, no one intend to do or agree of what I want..

Why did YOU make the decision for me??

Why dun YOU give me an option to choose??

Why cant YOU let the promise made be fulfilled??

I AM FREAKING PISSED!!!!!!

DUN ASK FOR MY FORGIVENESS ONLY WHEN YOU HURT ME SO DEEPLY..

All your brothers whom bucked you up, maybe is their support or accomapny, that allow you to have strength to continue whatever you want..

For that one moment, you forgot about my existence only worried about your brothers,

GOOD!!!!!!

You are such a good buddy right??

So I have nothing much to say, just go ahead and do whatever you like then..

Once again, I lost faith..

Next time dun make any promises with me, I HATE THIS!!!!!

Everything come and goes so easily, when I keep the promise deep inside my heart, no one CARE!!!!!!!

Please, stop crushing my heart over and over again..

I know I wont ignore you, because I know you are hurted too..

But dun ever treat me like a 13-years-old girl, whom can believe your words once again,

there is always a harsh reality, you made me see that clearer now..

TAN YI QIANG, you praised me did a good job of pushing you away,

I wanted to say, you did a better job on breaking OUR promises..

OK, finished venting my anger, with my handphone now 74 missed calls and 97 messages..

You must have asked all your brothers to call me, but it become a scar on my heart again,

while the previous one had not fully heal, the second one came..

*If you even remember, today is the 22nd*

NO HANDPHONE, NO LIQUOR, NO ARGUMENTS, NO DISTURBANCE..

A day when the both me and Yi Qiang turned off our handphone,

simply wanted to spend our day without any disturbance, spending time with laughter and joys..

Of course, we did it..

Not only because it was his birthday, I give in to him,

also I wanted to see his smile which I found out recently, he seldom smile..

Yesterday he waited for me at my house downstairs, while I just board the train,

took public transport, because he didnt drove his car down.. (I insist of taking public transport)

It was too early for dinner after I am done with my bathing and finally got down to meet him,

so he wanted to shop ION, then he made fun of me saying,

"I give you my supplementary card, you just go in one shop and swap la.."

His expression was like super classic, despite I wore heels yesterday, he is always taller than me almost 20cm?? (he said, shorter than 24cm with heels, 27cm without heels)

Guess what he did to his handphone??

He actually changed his phone, and has the same model of handphone like mine,

just that his is black and mine is sliver..

Kuku TAN YI QIANG, keep change your handphone you thought you very rich ar??

Had our dinner at Clarke Quay,

then I went off to buy cake for him, totally no need give surprise,

but still I asked the waiter to bring it in..

Actually wanna go ride Singapore Flyer, but it was too late so changed mind..

Went back to his house, as Calvin wanted to pass him present also..

His present are filling one side of his room,

I especially like the jacket his friend gave, from FOSSIL, damn smooth and damn warm!!!

His friends all rich kids lo,

ARMANI, LV, CONVERSE, FOSSIL..

RICH~~~~~~

It came to the end of a memorable date, the 6th year we celebrated together..

Now going to plan how to celebrate our Christmas,

he suggested go overseas, cause he want to let me have a WHITE CHRISTMAS..

THANKS, Yi Qiang..

But you know, I fear of cold..

=DDD

HAPPY 23th BIRTHDAY TO TAN YI QIANG
WOW!!!!!!
So old already, elder than me 4 years old!!!!!
HAHAHHAHAHHAHA..
=DDDDD
(He want me to put it BIG BIG)


Last year we didnt had the chance to celebrate together,
and it became the first year I wasnt with you celebrating your birthday,
therefore this year, despite we celebrated yesterday, today still need to celebrate, as it is the actual day..
TAN YI QIANG, wish your dreams can be granted,
and hope you like the present I gave..
=DDDDDD

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!