So it finally announced that I had graduated from RP, a school where I had been in three years, a place where changed me from a little girl to a young lady, a corner where I found my friends, a path which I see myself clearer and understand myself better.
In RP, I known people who walked in and out of my life, I recognized those who will stay, and for those who do not stayed behind, I am still grateful of meeting you.
I am already pursuing my dream I have ever since young,
but nevertheless after studying in RP, I intend to think of applying my knowledge or maybe familiar stuffs on the same field. However, I couldn't make it.
Just like I couldn't make it for NIE neither will I able to make it for SIM - Environmental Studies
Today, when I am sitting on the seat of graduand, I suddenly thinking of the first time I stepped into RP, the first day of school, the first person I met, the first crush I had, the first tear I shed, the first joy I gained, the first obstacle I faced, the first thing I learnt. Everything all FIRST, but in that moment I finally realized, everything had came to an end.
No more FIRST, only CONTINUE.
I am always a step further than you, or rather I always make myself step further away from you, so that I wont make any mistakes again, and so I wont feel any pain anymore.
I am working hard on it, just like what you wanted me to do so. Despite giving up ain't in my dictionary, unless I call the shots. Now, I guess I am ready to say "bye" firmly and without any hesitation.
I let my happiness fly, because if I can't find a reason to make myself feel happy of, I dun think I can hold any happiness.
It is either too difficult or too simple.
In my world, YES is YES, NO is NO
There shouldn't be something dangling over, waver my heart, change my mind.
Mr.Nod guy,
now I know it isn't I changed, neither did you changed me,
I am always like this. None able to change me, unless I take the move.
I await for a relationship, but awaiting a person whom understand me well is hard. Because I intend to lost control of myself too.
All the hardship finally came to an end, even though I know you won't be reading it but I still must say the last time.
I felt the pain every moment I look at you, but the pain indeed reduce much now, so I concluded I am doing well in forgetting everything.
:D
