15th April 2011
My 21st,
no grand celebration only went to meet Jessica darling.. =D
Thanks to your friends, whom came to fetch me out for supper,
thanks to your email, which allowed me to stop thinking too much,
thanks to the postage, that made me knew I am not forgotten..
Jordan didnt even give me a message or greeting on FB,
Sikai didnt do anything too..
HAH! Must I always get affected by guys??
Or will I always hold back by guys??
So, even I keep telling myself that I am able to wait,
when reality strike me down, I still got face it..
I took my dream and relationship on risk,
I vowed..
So please grant me, never take anything away.. Seven years ago, you took away someone, seven years later, please dun..
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Friday, April 1, 2011
1st of April 2011
Because if I have a chance, I always want time return back to that year, with all of you beside me.. These few days I am thinking, maybe it was because the first person left me so there will be second one then third one.. Which left me with no choice and stay alone..
I promised I wont blame myself over the incident anymore, but everytime I will think that I bring bad luck to others.. First was David, then Calvin followed by Yi Qiang now?? I bring troubles to Jessica's family and also my family, I am really a jinx no matter what should be the way I try to convince myself I am not one!
So April started, which makes 2011 four months lesser.. How should I feel turning 21?? I guess nothing changed, because I am still that rational, that logical.. Of course, the age of 21 shouldnt be any childish, at the same time I do lack of the courage..
I told myself, why will I decided to plan a celebration and invite him when he dun even has any idea when is my birthday?? So I dun want a celebration.. Or maybe I dun need a celebration..
This post I wanted to reminisces the past, when I first known David and Calvin's birthday is on April Fool, when my birthday was the day of David's death, when I cant find the present I thinking of the past few years, when........ there is no one by my side anymore..
每年，我都特别感伤。
今年，我却特别痛苦。
以后，我会怎样呢？
Because if I have a chance, I always want time return back to that year, with all of you beside me.. These few days I am thinking, maybe it was because the first person left me so there will be second one then third one.. Which left me with no choice and stay alone..
I promised I wont blame myself over the incident anymore, but everytime I will think that I bring bad luck to others.. First was David, then Calvin followed by Yi Qiang now?? I bring troubles to Jessica's family and also my family, I am really a jinx no matter what should be the way I try to convince myself I am not one!
So April started, which makes 2011 four months lesser.. How should I feel turning 21?? I guess nothing changed, because I am still that rational, that logical.. Of course, the age of 21 shouldnt be any childish, at the same time I do lack of the courage..
I told myself, why will I decided to plan a celebration and invite him when he dun even has any idea when is my birthday?? So I dun want a celebration.. Or maybe I dun need a celebration..
This post I wanted to reminisces the past, when I first known David and Calvin's birthday is on April Fool, when my birthday was the day of David's death, when I cant find the present I thinking of the past few years, when........ there is no one by my side anymore..
每年，我都特别感伤。
今年，我却特别痛苦。
以后，我会怎样呢？
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