谢谢你！

容忍了我的任性，

即使你心里有千百个不愿意，

但是因为是我要求的，所以你还是点头答应了。

谢谢你！

在这样敏感的时间点上，还是不畏惧地跑到我身边，

即便只能见我一面，你还是心甘情愿的接受了。

谢谢你！

就算将来的路不能够如我们所愿，

请你一定要记住，我们的相识是上天赐予我们最大的恩惠。

就算没有彼此在身旁，但是依然还有回忆相伴。

TYQ said, I deserved it..

Despite praying so hard for my health to recover before Friday, who knows Friday evening complication worsen..

I didnt know menes can be that painful till last night I finally felt the cramp and painfulness..

And finally got diagnosis that I had low blood pressure, NICE ONE,

which make my parents bought alot of herbs back home, decided to cook herb soup for me..

Feeling better right now,

this must be the worst illness I ever had..

No joke!!!!

One time and it wanted my life, I almost bang my head onto the wall to stop the pain..

OK, cancelled trip to Butter Factory..

T.T

I am utterly sad!!!!!!

No matter what, I will go for clubbing again, before my body defy me again..

*i am waiting for a reply*

3 months ago, I fallen sick..

3 months later, I am sick again..

T.T

TYQ begged me to move over to his house, because ever since I moved to Toa Payoh already started to fall sick twice, he dun bear to see me so miserable..

If only I can do so..

But no matter where am I, if I really will fall sick means will fall sick, so TYQ dun think your house is that safe..

Please let me recover by tomorrow, I wanna go and have FUN, PLAY!!!!!

I am just afraid cannot drink much alcohol, then complain here pain there pain.. =(

At first, YQ still disallow me to go for clubbing, some more I am still sick,

but I want to GO!!!!!!

So even though how miserable am I, must still go, DUN CARE!!!!

亲爱的，

你永远会在我身边的，对吗？

I cant put my mind down, couldnt make my heart follow yours and let you lead the way of my life, I am just the kind of girls that hardly able to stable my heart unless I am the one who fall in love to someone first..

Thanks for your reminding, I think that can really trigger me to think through again..

But please I cant promise anything, the same mindset you thought as well,

if I cant fulfil that promise, I rather disappoint you..

Sometime I wonder why am I such a kind of girl??

Unlike those girls whom devoted to their partner instead of caring more about own feelings,

despite I know how worse this kind of character can lead me to, but I still got no intention to change..

So I betray you, and can only hurt you..

---------------------RANDOM THOUGHTS-----------------------

BUTTER FACTORY next Saturday!!!!!!!

And FYP part one finally ENDED, WOO~~~~~~

Super HAPPY, like need to say!!!!!

=DDDDDD

OK, going to write my new story..

BYE BYE~~~

22nd July 2010

3rd year, 3rd year, 3rd year

156 weeks

1095 days

WOW~~~~~

When calculating the days then realised it had been so long already,

what have we done so far??

I guess still stuck at the same position, before everything vanished or turned different..

THANKS for whatever you had given me, in these three years of relationship, eight years of friendship..

I missed the days where I leave my mind blank and waiting for you to fill up,

without worrying anything whether if you will leave me or I will say goodbye to you..

However, I know time wont turn back..

男孩说：“我知道，不过还是对不起！”

女孩回应：“那么你就继续让对不起折磨我们吧！”

男孩：“除了这个，什么我都能答应妳！”

People only remember those bad things the other party did but never think of those good things of what they did for you..

When I realized it, is always too late..

Not on time to amend everything, therefore I told myself dun do anything that cant turned back, I rather keep everything in heart than saying or mention it and hurt the both of us..

面对不一定可怕

逃跑不见得有用

放弃不代表懦弱

离开不表示停止

爱情可以是一个人的事，

但相爱却需要两个人来衡量。

Baby, lets work harder together..

I am not going to let you suffer or tolerate my temper,

I hope we can just stay side by side as long as we can,

then we will have no regrets when we leave each other again in the future..

~~~~~~~HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY~~~~~~~

Out of a sudden, realised that my blog didnt update so come to update..

TYQ said because of him, I no need blog also can release my stress, so he rather I dun blog, if not normally I blog means something couldnt tell him or let him know..

OK, YOU know me very well, enough???

If I say we never quarrel for quite some time, the next argument will be here soon,

so better dun mention anything, it is like a curse!!!

But we are like pretty fine nowadays, excluded his randomly temper,

I guess he is taking revenge on me, treating me back like how I treated him in the past..

What to do??

Just give in to him, prevent any serious argument..

Can we start fulfilling those promises you made before World Cup??

The first place, lets go to Sungei Buloh!!!!

I miss the view there seriously!!!!!

OK??

(if you say NO, see what you get from me!!!)

I am a girl with no confidence on loving a person for long, therefore I chosen not to love, stay away from then I wont get hurt or hurt anyone.. I am not selfish, if not I wont care about others feelings, I can ignore them and continue hurting them, but I dun bear..

倒数计时，

它似乎离我们很近，却是我们怎样都触摸不到的。

15^th July 2010

THANKS, felt so grateful to myself that I had actually endured through this 3 months despite some minor drama filmed out in between, but still I guess it didn’t bothered me much or anymore..

Maybe the situation just turned back to the past, the year that I supposed to face another relationship and forgo this one..

Never for once I regretted, but I guess I am sadded..

Of course, who won’t get upset over such things??

After all I am just human being, needed care and concern and most importantly LOVE..

However, after such scenario happened it turned me less courageous, ‘lost interest’ was what Jessica gave for herself, but I am just not ready for any one of the kind..

There is only one way road and no turning back..

I dun intend to turn back too, because the person I most hoped to appear will never be there..

So I looked forward and found out that the one who actually cherished me is waiting for me in front, waiting for me to walk towards him..

I walked, but never did I noticed he is actually drifting apart from me..

I won’t stop searching for the one but neither will I put my entire heart onto it..

Because I lost faith, lost courage, lost time and even lost my heart..

The day I found back all I had lost will be the day I found the one that opened my heart..

我把我们的故事从头想了一遍，

但是想到最后，都是以伤痛来收场。

所以，我决定不再去想了。

因为。。。我舍不得让自己难过。

Till the end, you still leave me..

And I dun have the courage to hold you back..

When the both of us realised, we had already separated..

Fall in love is easy, how to trust it is hard..

You given me your great trust, while I rejected it and thought of myself..

I apologized but you smiled and said its okay..

Was it really fine??

Or you dun want me to feel guilty??

I said nothing..

But you nodded..

I hugged you..

But you cried..

I leave you..

But you stayed..

SORRY

I meant nothing..

Just not sure how should I decide..

I am selfish, not as thoughtful like you are..

So I let you down..

在这段时间里，我懂了。

转身离开是不想让你看到我的眼泪，

而你轻轻地挥手要我走，是不想让我内疚。

我们在两条平行线上，往未来出发。

就算爱你，还是要让你走，因为我还不能过自己这关。

I know even if 10 years, 20 years down the road,

our friendship/relationship will never fade off..

All because everything is FATED~~~~~

---------------PARTY TIME--------------

Jessica with Jordan's artistic hat, even Jordan hardly get the chance to wear it..

She was the MahJong QUEEN of the night, be banker in a row..

The both of them snapping my picture~~~

GUYS, video watching was FUN!!!!!

=DDDDDD

在我的爱情观里，

只有爱或不爱。

别的可能性就照着事情的发展而定夺。

给彼此一个从新开始的机会，

努力看看是否会成功。

就算不成功，至少我们努力过了，

曾经握着紧紧的幸福，现在变成了回忆。

When a person is willing to been through thick and thin with you, please at least cherish the person despite you might not love him/her..

How long can a person stay beside you, with your ignorance, unwillingness, rejection??

As long as that person still love you and treat you as the only one in their life, please think through it, what are the best ways to treat the person well and better..

After that day, YQ super afraid of missing my calls, so almost few hours he will message or call me, check whether I am fine..

PLEASE!!!!

I am always fine, maybe only sometime??

=DDDDDDD

Whatever I prayed it came true for some, which make me believe that I am still me, no need to struggle too much over problems that hardly able to settle..

Or maybe some just not fated to be mine, so it resulted to my contented heart,

if contented life is the best way for me..

My hair is growing!!!!

Erm, at least I can see the length!!!!!

GOOD!!!! I LOVE IT~~~~~~

Not going to cut the spilt ends anymore, also not much spilt ends to be cut off,

just wait for the time of reborn only..

BLOGSHOP~~~

After a few years of reluctant against blogshop, today finally bought two rings which are cheaper than other places and and products mainly from KOREA!!!!

LOVE IT again!!!!!

SPAIN fighting towards the Finals!!!!

And I am going to bet for SPAIN, it will get the CHAMPION for this WORLD CUP!!!!

LOVE IT once again!!!!!

ECLIPSE today!!!!

I am going to catch it with my sister tomorrow and Cathay has yet update the page, so couldnt check for time slots..

Anyway, can watch it will be better than anything!!!!

So, LOVE IT!!!!!

TYQ said, I loved so many things there will be no position for him anymore..

=DDDDD

YEAH, if he still ignore my calls, argue with me, I cried, I shouted,

I will then dun LOVE him anymore..

=DDDDDD

一段不用言语的爱情，

往往才是最单纯、最平静的恋情。