Firstly, I should say this week is not my week!!!
Finally recovered, but got a big "BAO" on my head!!!
AHHHHHH~~~~
Yesterday morning, when I woke up and preparing to go for bath,
I tripped over my mother's leg, and...
My head KISSED the floor, "KOCK"!!!!
Till now the 'lump' still exist!!!!

Secondly, I am pleased to see my those HYPOCRITE relatives faces changed again!!!!
Out of nowhere, yesterday my father's elder sister daughter's birthday,
who is my cousin and we are invited to her celebration..
And because Yi Qiang came to look for me, after I complaining to him my incident,
so he followed us along to the celebration..
If everyone still remember he once accompanied me to the wedding dinner,
and my relatives actually saw him before, now history repeat again..

The venue is a KARAOKE lounge, and we reached there kinda of late..
Guess what my dearest "boyfriend" did??
He went to take foods for me and actually shouted over,
"Baby, do you want chilli??"
OMG!!!
In between, there are like ten over people,
and I blushed and nodded my head..

After that, when he heard people singing songs,
he turned his head to me and said, "I go sing a song for you, ok??"
Without waiting for my reply, he went and wrote down the song he wanted..
Of course, all my relatives started to chat with my father,
where they wont do so in the past..

And there is this girl that almost in my age,
keep giving out 'electricity' to Yi Qiang!!!
HAHAHAHA..
When Yi Qiang leave me to the toilet, she followed him to the back,
then when he came back, he told me this..
"那个女的很烦人咯！长的不错，BUT还会主动搭讪的。"
HAHAHAHA..

When we are about to leave, this son of my uncle came with his wife,
and I recognized that he is the one who got married but didnt invite my father there..
He still got the face to address my parents,
but guess what is his reaction when he saw Yi Qiang??
"eh, are you Mr. Tan??"
OMG!!!!
How does my cousin know him??

Then I know,
my cousin worked in one of the company that have some connection with his company,
and one big round, even my uncle started to praise Yi Qiang..
The most funniest issue is still not this,
my uncle actually invited my parents over to their house for dinner one day!!!!
Which is like didnt happen before ever since my grandparents passed away!!!!

Second time he made my family shines,
and he think this is something he need to do..
However, you know how irritating he is???
He actually intend to book the air ticket and fly off,
this coming Sunday!!!
HATE YOU!!!!

OK..
I spent a awesome day,
excluding my fell down and my sick last few days..

*If could, I would turn back time*

NOTICE

1.) NO junk foods for the next ONE week..

2.) WATER is a MUST in every moment, in each meal I eat..

3.) JACKET in every NIGHT time, no sleeveless clothes to be wore..

4.) DIET must be take noted, NO fussy mind..

5.) ONCE fever is back, HOSPITAL will be my next home..

HEY~~~

I had recovered!!!!!!

No more fever, no more headache, no more gastric pain!!!

Totally turn back to the crazy DAPHNE!!!

=DDDD

Fever just gone away this afternoon,

from the temperature of 38.7 dropped to 38.1 then finally to 37.2..

Please pardon me of drinking cold water yesterday night,

because I drank half a glasses, and caused my fever gone up again!!

*oops*

What did I got at last???

Scoldings and restriction on my diet.. =(

Anyway, must be grateful because I didnt passed my virus to my family,

as I stayed at his house for the past three days..

Luckily, my little god-son isnt around if not I will rather stay elsewhere than at his house..

And guess what my beloved "boyfriend" did during this past three days??

He actually ate whatever I couldnt finish, and used my spoon and glasses,

reason??

He thought virus can be passed like this, he want to sick too!!

SILLY GUY!!!

By the way, I also dunno how I got infected..

That Tuesday, I still feel nothing,

go home as usual, until at night then got slight headache,

vomitted after midnight and called him..

We still planned to go ZOO next day, end up when I reached his house,

suddenly vision turned blur, then lie down on his bed..

Went to see his private doctor, and I got to eat 6 packets of medicine!!!

Shouldnt it be losing weight when sick??

In fact, my weight still remains the same,

no gain, no lose..

Due to the high standard of his caring skills,

every meal I can see various of dishes on the table,

however, I only able to eat few mouthful for each dish..

I should really THANKS for his care and concern this few days,

if I will to handle everything by myself,

for sure my fever will not gone in sort a short time..

And in order to let me sleep, he still helped me reply messages,

then blog for me, to tell my friends..

THANK, Tan Yi Qiang!!!

I am always proud of my immune system,

never had been sick for 6 years??

I visit the doctor only when I had swollen eyes and gastric pain,

other than that, I didnt see doctor for flu or fever..

Heard before that if never sick for quite sometime,

once sick will be a worse and long one,

luckily this time isnt a bad one for me..

I dunno if there are enough strength for me to endure the pain again,

but what shouldnt be forgotten, will never leave my mind..

Our love will remains eternally, do you believe??

OK..

I spent too much on blogging and forgotten that it is time for me to go home,

back to my real home.. =D

Bye Bye..

I am not the owner of this blog, because she is currently sick so I post this on behalf of her.
She say, I type.
Fever at 38.7 degree, but it is not H1N1, don't worry.
My private doctor wanted her to stay at home before the fever is gone,
so I am taking care of her now.
Friends of hers, please do not worry!
After medication, she looks better even though her temperature still haven't decrease.

Ok, this post is just to let her friends know about this matter, especially to Xiujing.
Because she said tomorrow need to meet her cliques and discuss about Xiujing's birthday celebration, but since yesterday night she wasn't feeling well.
Firstly, tomorrow Xiujing will need to go home alone,
secondly, need to postpone the meeting time for the discussion.
So, she feel a bit gulity towards it.

Ok, I should end this post and wake her up for medicine.
I will ask her to update when she feel better.

My happy moments came to an end,
and needed to keep it as my perfect memories..
Few more days to my sad day again,
he never failed to make me smile, and also my tears..
He must be the first guy I shed most of tears on,
and the first one that make my life brighten up..

Why need those significant item to prove that we are together??

I think are the actions and thoughts that counts..

The item just stand as a token of the relationship..

At least, we dun need any at the time being..

Will he come back specially for me on next month??

That become my question to him and for myself..

I know just a second can change people's mind,

dun say now is a month..

It will have enough time to change thousands or millions of thoughts,

without fail, mine and his too..

The only thing I can do now is just keeping the memories fresh and clear,

before everything actually faded away by time..

I always said, since I have nothing to do now,

why dun put those time on recalling our past,

memorize every single you said before,

remember every thoughtful action you did to me..

I guess it will never be enough with just these few,

but I know greediness will cause failure to anything,

therefore, I choose to be contented..

Even though those were just sweet talks,

but I simply felt happy by listening to them..

A promise that left undone,

a sentence that left unsaid..

None of us willing to rake it up,

and even till now, he is still deceiving himself..

I made my stand clear, but contradicting with my actions..

He spoke what he think of, but couldnt get my consent..

What is really wrong with the both of us??

Is it time wise, or we are not destined??

在对的时候，遇上错的人，那是后悔。

在不对的时候，遇上对的人，那是遗憾。

后悔还能重来，遗憾不能弥补。

Just exactly the same as how we undergo last year,

therefore, I had experience but another scar on my heart..

Never mind, because experience is most important..

"Baby Boyfriend", I dunno how long can I address you in this way,

but I hope the line belongs to me, I am over possessive, I know..

But just grant my wish again, another time..

YO HOO~~~~

It is 22 June, and I am super HAPPY!!!!

=DDDDD

Firstly, it is our 23rd month!!!

Secondly, Lee Min Ho's birthday..

Early in the morning, had a bath and hop on to the car,

head down to East Coast Park for sun rise..

Took some time on searching a best location for the best view of sun rise,

and the time of 4.33am..

I simply ignore my beauty sleep and endure the coldness at the beach,

however, the scenery is GREAT!!!

Super nice view, and made me feel contented,

especially with the company of him!!!

Never failed sweet words, never forgettable sight..

And we are going to see the sunset later too,

currently at his house, having our mini lunch..

Anyway, yesterday gotten a slight surprise from him,

not sure how he did it, but it was just done..

Balloons all around his room, with the colour of blue and white only,

he changed his entire bed cover and pillows cover into clouds pattern,

then when I asked him why change, his reply was "it is a new start"..

I am touched, super touched!!!

Actually, we didnt have any sleep from yesterday onwards,

so just woke up from our short nap..

And I keep repeating at asking him,

what if we sleep side by side and desire come,

then then then..*oops*

If I will to pregnant, he must be the happiest,

because I have no choice but to leave with him..

Anyway, we didnt do anything overboard!!!

OK..

Time for bathing and out to see the sunset,

then have our dinner..

Neither of us mention any words,

because smile is what we must see for today..

Hmmm..
Firstly, COTTON ON is having sales now!!!!
Me and Jessica just bought a button shirt and two pairs of slippers there,
spent us only $20, and made us smile like nobody business..
=DDD

My plan for yesterday was actually meet out with Jessica,
went to collect the NDP tickets then I will go to library, then meet out with Yi Qiang,
end up.. both of us take bus here and there,
last stop and Hougang, shop around COTTON ON,
until Jessica need rush back home, and my father coming to fetch me up..

Before my dinner, called Yi Qiang,
and guess what he said??
"expected you unable to make it on time.."
"eat le ma??"
So, he went out and have dinner with Calvin,
and I went to have dinner with my family..

Today, Father Day celebration..
With Yi Qiang coming along, and I will be going over his house later..
Tomorrow, a most memorable date..
Our 23rd month, and I not going to school..
Of course, next month should be more significant,
however, he may not stay until that day..

Ok..
Update what will happen later..
Bye Bye..

For once I regretted..
And because I regretted, I think of all the problems once again..
Therefore, I am emo again..
It is not any thing to proud or publish of too..


I said lots and lots of harsh words to you,
and dun even answer your calls,
saw you standing opposite my house also didnt have much reactions,
throwing tantrums on you,
at last, only sent you a message that wanted you to leave..

I seriously think of your request,
and I realized, only with you I will feel contented..
However, what done cant be undone..
Even though we are like normal now,
but I know never for once you heard my harsh words towards you..

OK..
Movie with Jessica and Jordan,
and I declare here again..
NO NO NO to horror movie!!!!
Even if I will to go and watch, I will find someone that can lent me his/her shoulders,
but not at the time being now..

And when I got home,
watch this Japan drama, Absolute Boyfriend..
SUPER NICE!!!!!
Comparing a human with a robot,
and is like SUPER sweet!!!!

Time to say goodbye to my post,
bathing and going out to library..
Then later meeting Jessica..
See ya..

Do you really think I look that strong that I do not need anyone to care for me?

I am not as strong as you think, but I cant find a retreat for my weakness,

therefore, just leave me alone..

你真的以为我看起来很坚强就不用人保护吗？

我没有你想的那么坚强，却又找不到让懦弱休息的地方，

所以。。。别管我了。。

I just realized, MALE is really single-minded mammals!!!
If girls stay quiet, they will not take the initiative to ask "what happen to you??"
indeed, they will start to lost temper and say "why you suddenly turn emo??"
end up, it might lead to argument.. =.=

Saying out something or showing out emotions,
it consider honesty in a relationship but also a stepping stone to argument..
Not everything can be said out aloud,
because you said, the other will think you are over sensitive,
if not said, the other will think you are hiding something..
So what to say and not to say, are always something to consider in a relationship..

I thought in relationship means,
double of happiness, half of sorrows??
But why is there double happiness and double sorrows too??
Still need to think of the other's feelings before each word can be said,
to consider the consequences when words are said,
dating turned out to be like analysing work, so tiring..

My handphone is currently used by my brother,
so unable to receive any calls, and made my "boyfriend" super worry!!!
He called and message me but no reply, so he is now sitting beside me,
at my house..
And, I didnt attend lesson today..
Due to the heavy rain this morning, and the long time of chatting with him,
end up, I wasnt able to wake up this morning.. =P

OK..
Having lunch with him now,
going over to his company later..
Bye Bye..

-------June, 13--------

I bought my other laptop, and I hate people start saying,
"why you go buy this brand/model?"
"this brand not good one!!"
Totally SUCK sia, the feel!!!
Anyway, the IT fair was so crowded!!
Walked until I so tired and cannot take in oxygen,
and Jessica is good at bargain!!!
She is so proud to see she got so many stuffs for me,
and keep 'hao lian' throughout..
THANKS, JESSICA!!!



-------June 14--------

And, I met his mother!!!
Out of nowhere, when I went over to his house,
then his room got a lady sitting there, totally freak me up!!!
However, his mother didnt mistreated me,
still smile and chit chat with me..

I know she wont blame me of holding her son back,
and she still hope I can follow them back..
Such a great mother of her,
still tell me that if I am willing to go Vancouver,
she will try her very best to disagree the marriage..
OMG!!!
She is seriously another JOKER mother I seen,
and her expression is totally serious de lo!!!

My drama cannot continue le ba??
Cos by right, the mother of the male lead should like disagree,
and use every cruel or heartless ways to separate them,
but now this mother still help her son convince me..
Freaky nice of his mother..
=DDD

Maybe next time, I will saw his fiancee.. =P
And if that time, I guess wont so calm or happy le..
However, he didnt inform me beforehand that his mother is in Singapore..
He can still act so calm and cool when his mother talking with me,
end up, when he sent me home still asked me,
if I feel any different or nervous just now??
Is like so LATE le!!!

He is definitely a good boyfriend,
always do whatever I ask him to do,
give in to me as much as he can,
will try his best not to oppose my way,
understand me very well,
lastly, he love me too..
This kind of guy, I dun bear to give other girls,
but I still give him away..

STUPID, he scolded me this..
Seriously, I know I am stupid..
OK..
I dun want be attention seeker!!

Anyway, my RDNA might flunk??
Cos I got my first D out of all the grade,
OMG!!!
And also dunno if my tests can pass anot,
I think teaching might still be my better career??
Must see how then.. =P

Is it a JOKE or a DREAM??
He finally confessed and told me what the surprise is,
and no doubt, I turned angry!!!

I know he is trying to make me feel better,
make my life better so that I wont worry so much,
but this time round, he is too overboard..
Because, I wont accept this grand present from him..
I cant and never will accept that..

There is a new condominium build up nearby my house here,
and he actually brought me over there yesterday night,
saying that he is going to buy one storey for my family..
Totally CRAZY!!!!
I turned and leave, where he chase after me and stop me..

And again, we quarrelled..
How can he make this decision without discussing with me first??
Why will he want to give me such big present??
He said thousands of sweet words, apologize over thousand times,
but I am still in a furious manner, so I didnt accept too..
End up, I rush back home and can see he waited for me at my house downstair,
so I soft-hearted go down look for him..

----Mushy words and actions in progress----

OK..
At last, his reason of wanted to buy the place is because,
he wanted me to lead a better life,
no need to worry about my family,
he want something that bought by him accompany me when he is not around..

And so, his plan is cancelled..
I wont accept the gift, so he give in to me..
Even though I know his intention is good,
but I just dun think it is right to accept it,
all my friends, dun you guys think so??

Starting on the countdown day,
he most probably will stay till this month end,
in order to give me what I hoped to have..
He seriously is giving me whatever I want to,
no matter how hard or typical the thing is,
he will just satisfy me..

Divorced can remarry again,
break up can patch back again,
failed in confession can change target again,
however, once heart broken the phobia will follows till the end..
It will never recover fully, because it had formed into scars..

谢谢/对不起
当我拒绝时，心里其实在淌血。
你在问我时，心里一定在紧张。
所以，我喜欢你的了解！
喜欢不用我说出口，你就能明白的那个‘默契’！

Therefore, my "boyfriend"..
This is for you,
*I LOVE YOU*
Never will forget and never will recover,
because I know you wont do so too..

-因爱而累-

连声道别也没有
分手的那天
那天就是结束
当时怎么没有明白呢?

为一句梦话也幸福不已的那个人
你怎么到现在还放不下呢
要等多久才会结束
是会有结束的时候吗

为什么要走 为了什么
累了 因爱情而疲惫了
能够再见面吗?
无法靠近的话
再怎么想念 也无法相见

我爱你 虽然爱过
艰难地维持过
即使很想很想你 我也去不了
太累了 来得太远了
要等多久才会结束


有爱过吗 为什么要走 为了什么
累了 因爱情而疲惫了
即使很想很想你 我也去不了
累了 因爱情而疲惫了

I remember I post the lyrics once on my past post too,
but I think that one translate wrongly, so I guess this is the right one..

Anyway, Clarke Quay yesterday was FUN!!!
Even though I am the youngest, but they didnt treat me any different..
Played all sort of games, drinking as the punishment,
but I only drank like 3 glasses of Chivas and 5 glasses of Martell??
The rest, my "boyfriend" drank for me..

Of course, he wont drunk easily too,
and all thanks to him, my drinking skills is so good now..
He was the one who 'open' my stomach for a space for alcohol,
meaning, when my age of 12 he gave me my first glasses of liquor,
taught me bad sia him!!!

And for now, I also wont drunk so easily,
at most couldnt walk properly if I will to drink too much,
but wont fall asleep or vomit..
Only once, cos I mixed Chivas with Vodka.. =P
Then I puked, but continue to drink again..

Reached home at 3am,
should be going to his house and sleep de,
but seriously scared my father will welcome me by a chopper,
and there I am, go to bath and dry my hair,
lie on my bed, I guess only passed 5mins and I am in my dreamland..

So I am staying at home now,
banned myself not to go out until this Saturday then go out to gym..
And I wanted to shout,
TAN YI QIANG, THANKS!!!!!

小煜 - 只要你还记得

那些年里还有没有记得
你说我们会走散了欢乐
这些年我知道你还留着
回忆在身后哼唱着的歌

我把你寄来的信夹着曾经
留在了胸口我却赏识不尽
我怀着所有纪念不肯忘记
才让溜掉的你 依然清晰

只要你还记得 我们都懂了
太多的伤痛会让人变深刻
恨若走干净了 爱会留下来的
而你为何连做朋友都舍不得

只要你还记得 我们都懂了
爱什么让我哽噎唱不出了
原谅是伤人的 我能听到你哭了
爱是一个抓不住的选择

我把你寄来的信夹着曾经
留在了胸口我却赏识不尽
我怀着所有纪念不肯忘记
才让溜掉的你 依然清晰

只要你还记得 我们都懂了
太多的伤痛会让人变深刻
恨若走干净了 爱会留下来的
而你为何连做朋友都舍不得

只要你还记得 我们都懂了
爱什么让我哽噎唱不出了
原谅是伤人的 我能听到你哭了
爱是一个抓不住的选择

Another song that able to make me cry..
Without fail, I fall in love to this song,
just like this song,
恨若走干净了 爱会留下来的
translate: if hatred is gone, love will stay behind
Not sure who should I hate,
but I know love will be the thing I hope to leave in my memories..

The other song will be the one who Yi Qiang found for me,
the chinese lyrics is most meaningful..
Next time then I post it up,
because the lyrics might fit most of my friends around me..

And, I cried yesterday..
No idea how can it happen, but it just happened..
Of course, I post this before going down to meet Yi Qiang,
if he will to know I cried, must have keep nagging at me??

As promised, today will accompany him to Clarke Quay with his colleagues,
even though I know my father will be pissed off,
but since I promised, I must do it..
OK, he coming to pick me up le..
Erm.. My attire is T-shirt with mini-skirt, dunno what will he wear??

*my emotions*

If only you meet the right one, or you assume is the right one..

Then you are willing to do anything for the one..

Not everyone is the same, therefore no one is perfect..

Another friend told me that the other girl should let go,

just yesterday went out with Jessica, Jason, Manyu, Qiuling, Ryan and Jacob..

As Jason is going in to camp this friday,

our JOKER friend is finally in and I guess we will miss him!!!

Through some talk with Jessica,

I realized, next month, July 22 is known as the prediction date of the Tsunami warning,

and is also my 2 years anniversary!!!

ARGH!!!!

Even though I know he wont have enough time to stay here till that day,

but I still hope the prediction is wrong..

Who will I rather want to be??

A silly girl that secretly wait for the guy, or,

become a "third party" and destroy other people's family??

I know I am doing both now,

waiting for a chance to get the guy,

as well as holding back him and dun want him to leave,

thus become a "third party" offically..

Of course, I know my limit..

Never will get over it, even if I want it will never success too..

I can still do whatever I want now,

so please forgive me of doing all these..

I promised, after this month, after he leave,

whatever punishment I will accept..

At least for now, dun blame me, please!!!

Anyway, should be going down to Clarke Quay with him today,

but since Sunday to yesterday I haven been at home,

and I came to library with Jessica now, so I didnt go Clarke Quay..

So, he was damn ANGRY!!!

I just remember it when I am bathing halfway,

so rush to bath finish and gave him a call..

Of course, raise voice here and there,

end up, I hung up the phone..

However, until 5 plus just now I called him..

And that idiot, actually booked the table for tomorrow le!!!

Just wanna see how I beg for his forgiveness,

but failed, because I heard his giggling through the phone..

USELESS!!!!

=DDD

“妳到底是要‘陈’还是‘周’？？”

“我要不起‘陈’了！”

是啊！我要不起你了！！

无论你怎么努力，我还是无法过自己这一关。

男孩跨过了海洋，来到女孩身边，

可是女孩还是不改当初的决定，

即使男孩带来了好消息，女孩还是没有心动。

执着的是男孩还是女孩呢？

残忍的是女孩还是命运呢？

不舍的是爱情还是名分呢？

该来的是等待还是放下呢？

就连他们两个，也都糊涂了。。

*wonder how it feels*

COOL COOL COOL!!!
I am now using the vodafone plug in to the laptop and blogging,
and I am still sitting in car, typing all along!!!!
=DDD
Suddenly feel very excited, also not sure why..
Anyway, I am heading to my "boyfriend" company,
he need to deal with something first, then off we go to visit his grandmother..

I can only said, he is the best son-in-law candidates I have seen so far,
should be reaching my house at around 6pm yesterday for dinner with my parents,
he came at 5pm sharp, and so coincidence my father asked me to go bath earlier,
I still thought of calling him to rush him down,
but there he is after I finish bathing..
First stage, 70 marks for him.. >_<

At first, I thought at least my father might bring us to somewhere better for dinner,
end up, went to Chinatown!!!
OMG!!!
Not saying there isnt a good place,
but I cannot tahan the 'china' feel there sia!!!
End up, the foods suck, the atmosphere suck, the people also suck!!!
Luckily, finish eating jiu head back home,
if not my face will turn even darker!!!

Reached my home, around 8plus at the night,
of course, I stay inside room with him,
until 9plus, went down to help my mother buy newspaper,
then Xiujing called..
She thought can meet me but I got someone with me,
I sat outside my house talking on phone while he said need go buy something..
Xiujing said maybe he wanna give me flowers,
but end up, he went to buy painkiller..
Cos my mens come and his house dun have any painkiller,
so he scared later I too painful then can eat..
Second stage, 80 marks for him..

Leave my house at 10pm, then take cab down to his house,
throughout the journey, we both fell asleep..
Luckily, the taxi driver isnt those bad guys,
if not maybe we will kanna kidnapped.. =P
Actually, I shouldnt have went over to his place,
because mens come, scared overflow will kanna his bed,
but since he dun mind, then I also dun care so much..

Overnight at his house,
and I realized his wardrobe have a few sets of ladies suits!!!
HAHAHAHHA..
He bought for my purpose de la!!!
Cos that few days, I went to his house bath then wore away all my clothes that put in his wardrobe beforehand,
so he know I lazy wont bring back, then he may as well go buy some for me..
If I say, including my undergarments, will readers think he is a pervert???
OHOHOH!!!!
Third stage, 90 marks..

This morning, Zex's crying wake me up,
then my "boyfriend" is nowhere found,
cos he is preparing breakfast..
YUMMY!!
Fourth stage, 95 marks..

Just now went to read Xiujing's blog,
then she and her boyboy together 6 months,
so I turned my head and tell the guy beside me,
I wanna celebrate our anniversary too!!!

If we will to calculate the dates, excluding the time he not beside me,
next month, July 22 will be our 2 years anniversary!!!!
That means, this month 22 will be our 23 months..
However, if only he will stay until that time,
anyway, I just want a belated anniversary..
Then he nodded his head and said, "我去安排!"
YEAH!!!
Fifth stage, 99 marks..

Actually, I have been blogging for an hour plus,
as halfway, I still leave laptop aside and helped him for the paperwork..
So now, we are heading down to Bukit Timah,
visit his grandmother..
Just hope his grandmother still recognize me,
due to the past, I wore dress or skirt when I came to visit her,
but today I wearing jeans..

OK..
He nagging at me le, ask me faster finish blogging cos we are reaching in 10 mins time..
And he wanted me to add something in this post,
that is the mushy three words!!!
So, I must listen to him,
Tan Yi Qiang, "I HATE YOU"..
HAHAHHAHA.. >_<

我只是想知道，
为什么那个人不能是我？
能让妳开心的笑，难过得哭的人，
为什么不是我？

Sometime, I feel all those words so stressful for me,
why couldnt it be simpler??
Once again, I am proud of my mind..
I didnt made myself getting into another world,
in the other hand, I lost something important..

I just realize, not everytime the 'kiss' method works!!!
I tried to shut his mouth, but he can still continue after that,
and he still choose those places that I couldnt do anything overboard,
take the chance to scold me!!!!
ARGH!!!!!

Anyway, his company is awesome!!!
All his workers seems young, then I really went to ask him about the ages,
scared me sia!!!
The youngest is only 22 years old, his secretary..
The oldest is 28 years old, one of the department head,
of course the cleaner auntie is the oldest, but I excluded it..
Then I go disturb him and said, if I will to work under him,
I will be the youngest in the whole company, because I am only 19!!!!
HAHAHHAHA.. =DD

Everyone treat me very nice, and I bought cakes and drinks for them,
and I really can see how busy a company can be when they reached the crisis period!!
People running here and there, shouting across the place,
whereas I just stay inside the office, playing my laptop.. =P
The serious face of his is so freaking handsome,
even though I had been starving since 5 plus, I still waited for him to finish his work first..

And he told me a good news, finally his company come out with the newest business plan,
and going to execute after the final plan is out,
so he seems relieved and happy!!!
Of course, his eyebrows finally straighten, so I will also feel happy for him,
no more overtime for him,
no more hot-tempered,
and maybe he can leave earlier too..

I guess that is no point for me to say anything,
because every word I said, will cause unpleasant to the both of us..
To him, I know I have given my very best,
no matter is it my love or heart, I gave him what should be given,
but end up, the only thing I couldnt give, is just leaving with him..
How long will I take to forget this relationship??
But I know, I am trying hard to do so,
however, the other guy didnt grant me..

Maybe I learned how to control my emotions better than before,
because I never wanted to show out every single expressions,
I dun want my friends or parents got to guess my feelings,
just keep everything secretive..
Considering to keep my blog private,
not to let him read so freely, but he has my password for it,
even if I private it, he can still log in and read whenever he want..
Therefore, I drop this idea..

He will be reaching my house 2 hours later,
going to have dinner with my parents, his treat??
But can see, my parents gave me their best support,
regardless of whatever decision I made,
despite my father wanted me to stay away from relationship at the time being,
he didnt show anything different against him..
Anyway, my parents quite easy-going,
so even if we do not have 7 years of foundation,
my parents also will not treat him badly..

I suddenly remember,
yesterday he called me and told me that he going to do something that will make me angry,
but he refused to tell what is it, known as a surprise but I will be furious over it..
Totally curiosity biting me, what is it???
My sweet voice failed, and he said will tell me when it is done..
So, if he will to see this post before coming over my house,
then I want tell him, better tell me what are you doing, I hate guessing!!!

*因为在我还没想通之前，他就填满了我的脑海了*

YUP!!

Library again, because common test is around the corner for Jessica,

and in order to plug for my laptop, we changed from the cafe to other place..

And Jessica is so STRESS!!!

Keep playing over her hair, as if she is a witch like that,

in the meanwhile we also waiting for Jordan,

cos we are going for movie!!!

HAHAHHAHA..

Jordan doesnt want to watch the movie I wanted to watch,

but at last I insist of watching, so he give in!!!!

BLOOD: THE LAST VAMPIRE..

Seriously, this movie is really very bloody,

the lead will 'chop' the vampire into two sides then blood just splash out!!!

And the ending, puzzled the three of us,

and we came out of our own ending too!!!

Reached home, go have a bath and blogging now..

Anyway, msg-ing HIM now too..

Feel satisfied already, hope wont lead to greediness soon..

OK!!

I need to sleep early today,

but I guess msg-ing with him might take some time,

even though I need wake up early tomorrow..