我只是想知道，
为什么那个人不能是我？
能让妳开心的笑，难过得哭的人，
为什么不是我？

Sometime, I feel all those words so stressful for me,
why couldnt it be simpler??
Once again, I am proud of my mind..
I didnt made myself getting into another world,
in the other hand, I lost something important..

I just realize, not everytime the 'kiss' method works!!!
I tried to shut his mouth, but he can still continue after that,
and he still choose those places that I couldnt do anything overboard,
take the chance to scold me!!!!
ARGH!!!!!

Anyway, his company is awesome!!!
All his workers seems young, then I really went to ask him about the ages,
scared me sia!!!
The youngest is only 22 years old, his secretary..
The oldest is 28 years old, one of the department head,
of course the cleaner auntie is the oldest, but I excluded it..
Then I go disturb him and said, if I will to work under him,
I will be the youngest in the whole company, because I am only 19!!!!
HAHAHHAHA.. =DD

Everyone treat me very nice, and I bought cakes and drinks for them,
and I really can see how busy a company can be when they reached the crisis period!!
People running here and there, shouting across the place,
whereas I just stay inside the office, playing my laptop.. =P
The serious face of his is so freaking handsome,
even though I had been starving since 5 plus, I still waited for him to finish his work first..

And he told me a good news, finally his company come out with the newest business plan,
and going to execute after the final plan is out,
so he seems relieved and happy!!!
Of course, his eyebrows finally straighten, so I will also feel happy for him,
no more overtime for him,
no more hot-tempered,
and maybe he can leave earlier too..

I guess that is no point for me to say anything,
because every word I said, will cause unpleasant to the both of us..
To him, I know I have given my very best,
no matter is it my love or heart, I gave him what should be given,
but end up, the only thing I couldnt give, is just leaving with him..
How long will I take to forget this relationship??
But I know, I am trying hard to do so,
however, the other guy didnt grant me..

Maybe I learned how to control my emotions better than before,
because I never wanted to show out every single expressions,
I dun want my friends or parents got to guess my feelings,
just keep everything secretive..
Considering to keep my blog private,
not to let him read so freely, but he has my password for it,
even if I private it, he can still log in and read whenever he want..
Therefore, I drop this idea..

He will be reaching my house 2 hours later,
going to have dinner with my parents, his treat??
But can see, my parents gave me their best support,
regardless of whatever decision I made,
despite my father wanted me to stay away from relationship at the time being,
he didnt show anything different against him..
Anyway, my parents quite easy-going,
so even if we do not have 7 years of foundation,
my parents also will not treat him badly..

I suddenly remember,
yesterday he called me and told me that he going to do something that will make me angry,
but he refused to tell what is it, known as a surprise but I will be furious over it..
Totally curiosity biting me, what is it???
My sweet voice failed, and he said will tell me when it is done..
So, if he will to see this post before coming over my house,
then I want tell him, better tell me what are you doing, I hate guessing!!!

*因为在我还没想通之前，他就填满了我的脑海了*