When I had decided which path I should go on, please tell me it will be the right one..

Never push me down the deep pit hole and leave me alone there, because I am afraid..

At least, give me a belief that keep me accompany throughout the dark then I might survive..

I just mentioned it once, and it had been repeated for times, as though I had make my decision already, then why do I still consider so much??

One fine day, those sadness I got from the past two years actually vanished, when I thought I could continue leading normal life, the fears came back to me again..

It should be something to be happy for, but now I am actually worried over all these..

OK, I think should stop thinking of all these..

Because till the end it still do not have an answer..

TYQ, I think better put it a stop on our conversation, if not we might end up quarrel again which I hate it seriously..

Whatever it can developed to, just let time show us what is our destiny,

remember I said before??

Everything is pre-destined..

Do you miss me??

YES, I DO..

Will you miss me??

YES, I WILL..

说一百句对不起，也比不上做一件对得起的事。

虽然我没有对她说“我喜欢你”，但是做了一百件喜欢她的事。

Heard from YQ, one of his friends is getting married soon and again he is invited that means I need to attend the wedding with him which like AGAIN..

Maybe I keep going for wedding make myself remains SINGLE till now??
HAHAHAHAHAHHA..

Bullshit only..

Today, I finally figured out that my stubbornness really turned out to be a burden..

I started to know how hurt can it be when I thought speaking out will be great,

not only it hurt me but others too..

SORRY..

I guess I found back the courage I lost,

it didnt leave me behind, I just kept it up for my selfishness,

I brought it out now, hope everything is still not late..

=DDDDDD

THANKS, TYQ..

Your suggestion looked to be beautiful, but I am still not prepared yet..

Give me some more time to figure it out again..

^_^

簡單的一句話，我再説一次就好。

“不想放下，因爲愛你”

我有好多好多話想要和你說，

可是你永遠都只讓我看你的背影，

所以我把所有的話都埋在心裏，

你聼不見也看不到。

告訴我，我的要求是不是太過分了？

會不會有一天，讓我嘗到‘後悔’的滋味？

那我，該怎麽辦呢？

I become more and more lady-like this few days, or maybe more considerate towards TYQ,

felt like grown up in a night, however the never stop thoughts flowing still occur..

-----至少還有你-----

我怕來不及 我要抱著你

直到感覺你的皺紋 有了歲月的痕跡

直到肯定你是真的 直到失去力氣

為了你 我願意

動也不能動 也要看著你

直到感覺你的髮線 有了白雪的痕跡

直到視線變得模糊 直到不能呼吸

讓我們 形影不離如果

全世界我也可以放棄

至少還有你 值得我去珍惜

而你在這裡 就是生命的奇蹟

也許 全世界我也可以忘記

就是不願意 失去你的消息

你掌心的痣 我總記得在那裡

我怕來不及 我要抱著你

直到感覺你的髮線 有了白雪的痕跡

直到視線變得模糊 直到不能呼吸

讓我們 形影不離我們

好不容易 我們身不由己

我怕時間太快 不夠將你看仔細

我怕時間太慢 日夜擔心失去你

在那裡

It is a course to grown up, despite I hate to remind myself I am growing up, but I still love the mature thinking of mine..

Because it do helps me throughout the journey,

learnt, endure, happiness with bitter..

Never for once I started to love my growing up..

=DDDDDDD

TYQ said I over sensitive, keep bugging over age matter..

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA..

Last year, I am praying for a miracle to happen, this year I guess it still wont happen therefore I shouldnt rely on it anymore..

*The 'me' you looking for will only appear when you treat 'me' well*

I had been telling myself, since nothing can stop me then no point searching for support anymore, because friends whom know me well will give me their great support without asking if or not I like the decision..

When a boy willing to eat your terrible cooking, still smile and say "It tastes nice", please believe you mean alot in his heart..

When a boy willing to shield you in a fighting, act strong and say "I am fine", please believe he just want to protect you..

When a boy willing to say lies in order to make you less guilty, please believe your smile is all he want to see..

When a boy willing to wait for you without rushing you through, please believe he dote you alot..

When a boy is talking about his future and it involve you, please believe he is actually hinting something special..

All relationship need communication and mutal trust to maintain it through,

those reasons of breaking off are common, but the reason to stay together always is the same..

OK, because that Tan Yi Qiang had been telling me all such of stories this few days and those shows that we had watched also involved all these,

seriously made the both of us started to think if there is anything to change our decision..

He had been keeping his promise, and I feel being loved..

=DDDDDD

Despite I know he will feel sandwiched, but he choose to keep his promise instead of breaking it..

I will try not to be so demanding, since I dun have the rights too..

就差那麽一點點，我就抓到了幸福，但是最後我還是失去了它。

並沒有後悔放棄，因爲他教會了我，幸福不是遙不可及的。

當一心只執著于結果，當然也就看不見過程的快樂，

可是如果往另一個角度去看，也就會明白什麽是幸福、快樂。

所以，一定得學會，‘知足常樂’。。

Just chosen my modules for Year 3, and surprisingly I took Physics..

All because my friend going to take this, then we HOPE to be in the same class and since it is a Year 2 module I guess it wont be too stress..

Today is 22nd, 30 months..

1 year = 12 months

So we had been in such a funny relationship for more than 2 years, and never thought of how to say goodbye to it..

I decided not to interfere on his problems anymore, either he gonna fight or quarrel with me over the same matter, I wont stop him..

I just want to live the same as 2 years ago, maybe I couldnt find myself back, but I can fixed it..

The DAPHNE 2 years ago had the courage I lacked now, maybe after I fix it the courage will be back too..

Today, he going to give the funeral a miss and we are going for a celebration..

=DDDDDDD

Since we had did pretty much for that funeral I guess we did our job, something that we shouldnt be doing even for now..

Therefore, I think I wont sacrifice my sleep anymore and he promised wont bring me there also, but I wanted him not to go also..

*DEMANDING*

TAN YI QIANG, you gave me another promise..

So hope you wont break it again..

I am willing to be naive another time, so dun break my faith..

Things changed, people changed..
I wanted to believe that both of us wont change, but everytime the reality pull me back..

It seems so hard for me to keep trying non stop, when the thought had been following me whenever I started to defy my heart..
One's wont betray itself, but one day I will know actually I do betrayed myself,
choose to do something I most dun bear to do,
choose to sacrifice whatever just to turn back the situation..

Maybe subconsciously I treated him as my other half,
choose to let him walk in my world wont any permission but till the end then I realised, he is actually not the one..
Everything is chosen by me, so please blame me then..

*random thought, read and let it go*