OK,

I LOVE YOU!!!

AND WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY MIND..

I must admit, that freaking part is so hurtful,

one day when the person I loved most come back to my side and actually say : "you're the one in my mind, I just realised how much I love you when I cant you, when you are not by my side.."

Should I tell him "FUCK OFF!!!!", or should I reconsider???

It didnt applies on Jacob's case, and never will that happen..

I have been taught that 'impossible' is the forbidden word found in relationship, but I am just clear about my heart, NO means NO..

I always give second chances, however no one seems to be grateful so when I dun give any chances people think me differently..

I never care about others' view, at least not those I think can ignore..

So even till now, I wont hear any opinion,

love me the way I am, hate me the way I act..

My life lead in the way I want, I chosen the way, so I bear every consequence..

YQ's friends are friendly and kind but selective people,

not to those ladies???!!!

I always think I can click well with gangster, and it is true..

It is not the position/education level that is scary, is the personality and character of one that is never able to be caution of..

在我转身那瞬间，请不要抓住我。

因为我最不想让你看到的，就是我偷偷落下的眼泪！

One day, I will screw that girl upside down!!!!!

OK, even though I know I dun hold any rights to say her, but make it clear that who holds a higher position in YQ's heart..

If you or your friends are stalking my blog then I can tell you, it is all pointless!!!!

I dun make my blog private because I got nothing to hide, but I guess every single one of you have something to hide from???

I also hope to be a nice girlfriend at the time being now, so when you start the argument I try to stay quiet if not you will walk off and give me time to cool down..

But I dunno how long can my temper get controlled, especially if I accompany you to that chalet, to your secondary school's party..

You keep saying I wont do so, and ask me just ignore them,

just imagine a bunch of strangers keep mugging at you saying things that are irrelevant,

seriously WTF!!!!!

OK, till now I still not sure if I am going with him, but I guess till the end I will still agree..

Please control my own temper, I might be young but at least I have manners..

That stupid TYQ praised me and trust me that I wont do anything overboard,

but if I really do, he will also side me..

女孩：“如果我和他们吵架，你会帮谁？”

男孩想了想才说：“废话！当然是妳咯！”

女孩：“那如果我翻桌，你也不介意？”

男孩摸着女孩的头：“我知道妳不会的！”

Got no time to write my story, maybe no inspiration keep stuck halfway..

And read finished all my story books, need to restock soon..

UT 3 approaching but I haven touch a single thing!!!!

I got the motivation to lose weight but lost the determination to study.. =.=

冥冥之中，上天注定了某些事，但对我而言上天还想考验我，所以才没有成全我。

而我现在只能，静静地等着上天的安排。

I DID HAVE A GOOD DAY ON THE 22ND, ALL THANKS TO HIS CONSIDERATE AND CARING, ALSO THE MIND OF SWITCHING OFF HIS PHONE TO ENSURE NO INTERUPTION FOR THAT DAY..

THANKS~~~~~

He has been asking, shall he wait till his birthday then leave??

At least can let me celebrate his birthday one last time, and so we quarrelled over this issue once again..

Haix!!!!

Seriously dunno what is in his mind, ok I know, because he cant bear to leave here despite I had told him nothing will change my decision..

Am I too evil??

I guess I really are..

If not how can I say those cruel words to him, when I know his intention is for my good..

If not why will I reject a man like him, a 99% boyfriend..

I guess, not only evil I am also crazy..

Ok, he happily just ignored whatever I told him, whatever we quarrelled and went for his basketball or tennis,

so people keep saying it take two hands to clap,

when he walk off how can I quarrel alone??

Not that I am what fighting fish.. =.=

如果一开始就知道会分开，那是不是就不该在一起呢？

我曾经也问过自己这个问题，可是至今尚未有答案。

不过，我所走的每一步都在告诉我，

其实。。。我早已经知道了那答案，只是忘了怎么说罢了！

I can smile for a minor thing, but only cry for major issue,

however till now, I am not taught how to react..

Follow my heart or instincts??

Then I think there wont be any smile found at the time being, because I forgotten how to cry in the first place, how can I smile then??

*FATE or DESTINED*

HAPPY 37TH...

This is really the last 22nd we can spend together, no JOKE anymore..

So the both of us will cherish the day, a special day that only belongs the two of us..

When everyone keep asking if I am attached, I guess I really do,

however after this day passed, I can only say I am out of love..

Baby, we said too much to each other till now we dunno what more we missed,

no matter how sweet our words said it still unable to change the reality..

The fact that we are apart..

At the end, I still cant hold onto my happiness fully or tightly..

I really blame for my cowardliness, I really do!!!!

How can I push you towards another girl????

How can I ignore your plead and insist on my decision???

When I realised, you had already step out of my world..

If those are what you want from me, if those can amend a little pain in your heart,

I am willing to do so..

Because, I really owe you alot..

From the day we met, till David left us, then Calvin married, now is your leaving..

In my life now, you participated most..

You were there whenever I need you,

you seen me grown up from a kid to a young lady now,

you accompanied me, been through thick and thin,

I really loved you, but...........not the same anymore..

A person who really love you, will love your weakness and proud of your strength, I met a person like this before, but I still pushed him away.. Because I cant afford to see him suffer or heart broken again..

男孩：“如果。。。那年我没答应妳离开帮会，妳想我们会在一起吗？”

女孩：“就算你没离开，也不会改变我们的身份，只要你还是‘陈毅镪’，我还是‘黄婉婷’。我们就会在一起，但。。。不会长久！”

男孩：“可是对我而言，不听妳的话，我办不到！”

So I am the one who forget, cant remember who is the one stay by my side and even keep thinking about the one whom never put his eyes on me..

That is why, I always cant get what I want..

As what I yearn are all greedy thoughts..

OK, lets plan where we going for tomorrow..

I hope it will be a long day for us, may the time just goes slowly..

我只能爱你

当你握紧我的手
我决定和你走
近来再多的挫折
也绝对不退缩

当河流，都倒流
我还在你左右
一直陪伴你到时间的尽头

就算有一天
天和地都会分离
也永远不离也不弃
要和你在一起

为了你
我可以
因为爱你我只能爱你

生命交际轮回里
你是唯一不忘的回忆
真正的爱过
才算真正的活过

爱你
从此绝不放手

不曾退色的春暮
比永久还要久
痛过哭过也恨过
从未想放弃过

莫问我，要理由
爱就是我所有
就算来世你是不变的守候

就算全世界
都要来与你为敌
也还要紧紧抱着你
泪不会掉一滴

为了你
我可以
因为爱你我只能爱你

生命交际轮回里
你是唯一不忘的回忆
真正的爱过
才算真正的活过

爱你
从此再无他所求

Fall in love onto this song, super nice~~~~~

那是错觉！！！

我一定能够克服心里的诱惑，让他离开我的心！

Hey, Daphne finally woke her mind up and realised everything is a fantasy dream..

However, Daphne also successfully pissed those guys up and make her life goes hay wire..

So till now, Daphne can only keep her mouth and heart shut..

I heard lots of things,

but I cant make myself to get over or stay as usual..

Because that was a huge impact..

男孩：“原来。。。妳第一个想到的人，是他？不是我？”

女孩：“对不起！不要让我在这时候作选择，我不知道！！！”

男孩：“我想。。。我可以知道妳为什么会这样想着他了。”

女孩：“可是我答应你，我会让他走出我的心中的！”

Luckily Jessica is busy about her own love life and wont hold grudges on me,

even though I know she will never blame me in fact helping me instead..

A real friend say things that hurt the most but it is the most truly words too,

I guess I have friends like this, so I should hear their advices..

Heading down to NIE for our application next year,

then rebond my hair cause I really cant tolerate my hair so messy and almost bad hair day every single day!!!!

Ok, I guess my mind calm down alot..

Please feel grateful over my own life, leading the way I should be..

*Baby, I am sorry*

Firstly, just because of that FUCKING NEW YORK SKIN SOLUTIONS products, I cannot even go out enjoy freely, must super care about my face!!!!!

I am going to screw the outlet tomorrow, turn it upside down without fail!!!!!!

NEW YORK SKIN SOLUTIONS is a CON~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I should be enjoying my times with YQ, ended up can only go his house watch shows, if not accompany him go play basketball,

WTF is this???

We have already so little time together, something still keep drifting us apart??

Such a punishment man!!!!!!

Yesterday, I saw something and it seriously screwed my mind..

I thought everything have gone, at that day..

But I guess more or less it still affect my mind, dunno how much more efforts I should put in then can get rid totally??

Just when I changed the status then I saw it, what a joke??

YEAH, I told most of the people I am attached till the end of this month..

Even changed my relationship status, if this can make YQ happier, I guess I did it..

Right, YQ??

Finally the time came and there goes our love..

How about our promises to those places??

I must fulfil it before he left, nothing comes before those!!!!

OK, HOLIDAYS is here!!!!!

Going to have fun in this holiday,

CLUBBING?? DINNER?? KBOX?? SENTOSA??

Without failed, STUDY!!!!!

One more semester to graduation then we proceed to NIE~~~~~

Of course, TAIWAN trip!!!!!!!!!!!

*Baby, I really LOVE you*

GOODBYE, MY LOVE..

I WILL KEEP THE MEMORIES DEEP INSIDE MY HEART, NO ONE IS GOING TO SNATCH IT AWAY, NEITHER WILL I FORSAKE IT..

PLEASE JUST REMEMBER, THIS IS A CHOICE I PICKED,

NOT YOUR FAULT IS MINE..

Everything back to square one, and I know the consequences of choosing this path,

no one to blame only myself..

Dun need to console anyone, you know the story behind it..

We always have the courage to say goodbye, but not the courage to face the facts after whatever had happened..

I can smile and sent you off again..

Because I hate crying, but I guess tears will drop down at the moment I lost my sight on you,

just like before..

Bye, Baby..

我害怕自己连抓住幸福的勇气都没有，

所以我让幸福溜走我身边。

不是不爱你，

而是我们的相爱不被允许。

笑着送你走，

是想让我们的回忆保留那一点甜蜜。

对不起，

我还是办不到。

原谅我吧！

还有。。。忘记吧！

POWERHOUSE 2010

I am going PowerHouse again again, love PH lots and lots~~~~

We ruled the dance stage!!!!!

Professional clubber might be my next term in dictionary.. Like what Jessica said, 20 is a BIG number not like a 15 or 16 years old little girl~~~~

或许打从一开始你就不应该顺着我的意，回来。

你看到现在的我们变成怎样了吗？

还能像当初一样吗？

我想，连你也迷惑了，不是吗？

没错！

可能是我太过于自私，一昧地要求你接受我无理的条件，

我们那看似完美，但其实已经补上很多缺口的爱情，

现在还完美吗？

还完好无缺吗？

你的提醒，你的反悔，你的隐瞒，

你希望我原谅你，但是你忘记了，其实是我要乞求你的原谅。

应该是我和你道歉，而不是你对我说对不起。

可是，你却永远不会怪我，

这点让我连最后一点的自信都夺走了。

I didnt leave our promises in vain, but neither can I hold onto it for long,

your words might sounds convincing, but spare a thought for me like you always are..

I know what you are worrying about,

and you know what I am going to answer you,

so dun make this an issue that will hurt the both of us at the time being..

Let everything stop..

Our destiny meant to stop..

So dun force, dun struggle..

Lets face it..

*Baby, you should be aware of it, something that we were reminded few years ago.. It didnt leave us, still haunting us till now..*