17/11/2011
10 years
I bet none of us willing to rake this date up right now, since we are far apart each other in the situation now.
I think, it will be better we just put everything deep in heart and stop probing over it anymore.
I.... am trying my best to change it, hoping that I did changed some.
I said, everyone will leave my side.
I always know what will happen, and always spotted on.
I.... never failed to feel alone.
This ain't a day for us to shed, it is a day to cheers for our friendship.
So I can have a ten-years, something that even I found it unbelieveable.
Then, will I have another ten-years ahead?
How long more will it reach that ten-years?
How much more must I put in for that ten-years?
How deep should I go to fulfil that ten-years?
I try, tried, trying.
I cry, cried, crying.
I run, ran, running.
But as usual, none pull me back, none accompany me, none understand me.
Therefore, I kept it to myself.
I kept everything in my heart.
So that no one can hurt me or heal me.
It is the first tenth!
I hope the second tenth will not be alone. =)
HAPPY TENTH ANNIVERSARY~
Mr.Nod guy,
it has been some time since I last mentioned you, but still so what or not I mentioned? Because you won't get a chance to see it.
I miss you almost every moment, but you didn't seems to know or rather, I didn't want you to know.
I have been trying, as always.
If you can know, please praise me. Because I can already got you out of my dictionary whenever people asked if I like anyone.
I knew very well, no matter how much I changed, how hard I tried, you will never change, so I decided to change me.
I will try not to love you anymore.
