Baby told me he is leaving soon,

maybe the same date as the previous time he left,

the 22nd..

So I felt the pain, felt the sadness, felt the loneliness, felt the guilt..

Baby, must you really pick that date??

I dun see the need to pick the date, but why must you insist??

Hoping to see the history repeat, or just it is a must??

I dunno, seriously I am confused..

Looking through those past posts, I realized I am actually talking about him everytime,

and everytime I thought I given him up, but it ended up to be a NO, therefore I even give up hopes to believe if I am really still in love with him..

Anyway, he wont be coming to me and tell me, he is actually in love with me??

So what's the point for me to holding onto those foolish thoughts and hurt the person whom loved me the most??

I dunno, really NOT SURE!!!!

Please whoever give me an answer, so that I can give it to Baby too..

I felt that I owe Baby alot, more and more, increasing everyday, each day when we are together..

I cant repay back to Baby, never ever able to repay back..

Because my heart now also dunno fly to where already, but definitely not with Baby??!!

Mr.Nod guy,

why are you still around my mind??

I never once give you away that's why I keep thinking about you??

Then could you please give me some hints??

How should I chase you away??

So that I wont pester you again and I will be relieve from the memories of yours??

I am the one who make the decision??

But why could I still see your presence??

I seriously dunno what to do right now, say GOODBYE is the first step followed by TEARS then what??

Alighten me then..

*my heart : it hurts*