I hope to leave a post before 2010 end, and ya....

What have I done in 2010??

Think through lots of things,

been through farewell, grown up, tears, laughter, anger, surprises,

but what I got back??

TYQ leave my world,

Mr.Nod guy never will be by my side,

my dearest friend gotten negative result of her health,

should I been through all this??

I swore,

if my chances of getting a new relationship can exchange for a good health for her, I am willing to change,

and so the chances got taking away faster than I gotten it..

I spent years for this chance, but it taken away within hours..

GOOD JOB ar??!!!

I always never learn my mistake,

I always know how to console others,

I always hoping for things that never fulfil on me,

I always failed..

Never for once in my 20 years' life, never..

Can I exchange my life for hers??

Seeing her with so many friends, I thinking how many friends will really shed for me if I exchanged with her??

I will rather let her see my pain than I suffering from her trauma still need to face the reality of his rejection..

I am not as brave as before..

Hey,

I have this thought..

I gonna go beach for countdown, by my own if I cant find a person to accompany me..

How cool can it be??

Mr.Nod guy,
you win again..
Trampled my faith once again and tear it into pieces which even harder for me to join it back, I must thanks you..
Because the hurtful I fell, the more I will escape from it, the more I wont touch it,
the more.... I wont trust it..
There wont be a person to hold for me when I fall, so I choose to be careful my own..
That night, that answer, that stubborness,
I cant find it back, I guess it buried together with the answer..
As friend, I will try my best to refrain, this time it is for my sake..

是不是我太幸福了，所以得让我失去些什么？

是不是我离快乐不远了，所以得面对些什么？

是不是我成熟了，所以要能看得开？

Please, I am willing to exchange Mr.Nod guy for her health,

I can forsake the efforts, just purely wait for the miracle to come,

and if I do so, please bless for her health..

Mr.Nod guy,

I am afraid..

I really hope that you can be there for me,

and this point of time, stay by my side and console me..

But even if I typed the message, even if I keep telling myself the next minute I will send the message, but......

I cant get over myself..

Please, 2011 can you be good??

I beg you, please.......

我虽然会舍不得，

但你一定能理解我的，对吗？

So it was another time..
Same like 2009, and welcoming 2011..
I hope this tradition will carry on even after we graduate..
=DDDD

Sweetest moment,
contented feelings,
uncertain answer,
everything started from last night..

The person who say love always lose a hand,
and I always reveal my real heart..
That's why,
I lost every battle..

I pray for new beginning, aim for goal, hope for love

Everything remain the same as last year,

nothing changed, not me and not you..

I asked someone the same question,

I thought if he can give me a different answer maybe I can figure out something,

and ya.. He really gave me a different answer..

If you ever remember, I asked you this question before

"if I tell you I drunk will you come and pick me up??"

your answer was: "if I am there I dun mind, but confirm you have friends around that can send you home.."

But today I gotten another different answer: "if you need me to pick you home, just give me a call.."

So which is better??

I am confused too..

When everything started to return the past, I realized I haven learn my mistake always make the same mistake..

When I thought everything can at least be hidden, then I realized the more I hide, the more I feel the pain..

When you chose the path at that night, I realized we finally cant be together..

原来，对爱你的人幽默，其实是在对他残忍

时间，在我们不经意时已经过了一年，

而我们，也同样过了三年。。。

How I hope someone can pass me the answer sheet to all my questions, I seriously hate to think of such things at this timing..

So what if the period come back??

Does that means I gonna torture every moment from now on??

Does that even make any sense??

I dun see the need, so what the fuck happened on me??

There is always a time I miss the man so much till I need to drink or cry so that I can feel relieved, and I guess thanks to the man I can really cry or drink a lot when the times come..

Tonight, I chosen to be awake and face the reality, and how I hope facing reality in a more effective way..

Maybe even I lost my way,

what should be the right way, what should I do next,

I have no ideas too..

The story, I stopped..

I had the thought to continue, but I have no thoughts how to continue..

If the way I face this relationship can be like the way I quarrel, it might be easier..

20 years old

it shouldnt be the age to grumble or complain over singlehood,

indeed it is the time to think of future, think of money..

But I guess I still stand at the point and turning around, thinking that the world is moving while I am moving, but the fact is even if I stop moving, the world will also never stop for me..

Maybe life will be easier when we graduate,

but I know I rather face the saddness attack than facing the truth that I will get lesser chances to see him after graduate..

I really cant bear it..

哭了，

痛了，

恨了，

但。。。也爱了

I just wanna update my blog, because TWITTER is the new blogger~~~~

2010 coming to the end soon,

recall what have I done in this entire year??

I guess nothing but studies, FYP, figuring out who I walked towards too..

And so once again, I failed to get myself attached in 2010..

Let's wait for 2011 and see if I am going to be single again??

Christmas wishes, New Year wishes, Birthday wishes

every year wished for the same things, but always one that left unfulfil..

However, I wont give up hopes,

if not I am going to left with nothing..

Good things worth the wait,

good person worth the love too,

I will wait for the person I loved,

since there is no one like him appear in my life right now..

我向天起誓，

我会快快乐乐的。