How I hope someone can pass me the answer sheet to all my questions, I seriously hate to think of such things at this timing..

So what if the period come back??

Does that means I gonna torture every moment from now on??

Does that even make any sense??

I dun see the need, so what the fuck happened on me??

There is always a time I miss the man so much till I need to drink or cry so that I can feel relieved, and I guess thanks to the man I can really cry or drink a lot when the times come..

Tonight, I chosen to be awake and face the reality, and how I hope facing reality in a more effective way..

Maybe even I lost my way,

what should be the right way, what should I do next,

I have no ideas too..

The story, I stopped..

I had the thought to continue, but I have no thoughts how to continue..

If the way I face this relationship can be like the way I quarrel, it might be easier..

20 years old

it shouldnt be the age to grumble or complain over singlehood,

indeed it is the time to think of future, think of money..

But I guess I still stand at the point and turning around, thinking that the world is moving while I am moving, but the fact is even if I stop moving, the world will also never stop for me..

Maybe life will be easier when we graduate,

but I know I rather face the saddness attack than facing the truth that I will get lesser chances to see him after graduate..

I really cant bear it..

哭了，

痛了，

恨了，

但。。。也爱了