I hope to leave a post before 2010 end, and ya....

What have I done in 2010??

Think through lots of things,

been through farewell, grown up, tears, laughter, anger, surprises,

but what I got back??

TYQ leave my world,

Mr.Nod guy never will be by my side,

my dearest friend gotten negative result of her health,

should I been through all this??

I swore,

if my chances of getting a new relationship can exchange for a good health for her, I am willing to change,

and so the chances got taking away faster than I gotten it..

I spent years for this chance, but it taken away within hours..

GOOD JOB ar??!!!

I always never learn my mistake,

I always know how to console others,

I always hoping for things that never fulfil on me,

I always failed..

Never for once in my 20 years' life, never..

Can I exchange my life for hers??

Seeing her with so many friends, I thinking how many friends will really shed for me if I exchanged with her??

I will rather let her see my pain than I suffering from her trauma still need to face the reality of his rejection..

I am not as brave as before..

Hey,

I have this thought..

I gonna go beach for countdown, by my own if I cant find a person to accompany me..

How cool can it be??

Mr.Nod guy,
you win again..
Trampled my faith once again and tear it into pieces which even harder for me to join it back, I must thanks you..
Because the hurtful I fell, the more I will escape from it, the more I wont touch it,
the more.... I wont trust it..
There wont be a person to hold for me when I fall, so I choose to be careful my own..
That night, that answer, that stubborness,
I cant find it back, I guess it buried together with the answer..
As friend, I will try my best to refrain, this time it is for my sake..