I am still not strong or courageous enough to be alone at Pasir Ris park,

the only thing I did well was I came home and countdown with my family instead,

I never know it is so dark at that pathway, I never know it is so cold at that time,

I really thought I can bring myself over to there, but indeed no..

So this is how it should feels??

After decided to put down everything, felt that nothing stucked within my heart felt relieved,

therefore, I did the good move??

After 3 years, after the time I step closer to you, after I finally feel tired,

I made this decision..

2009,

should had make up my mind at that time, shouldnt have continue, insisted on my sentence,

after all I am the only that remember it..

2010,

I kept the feelings clear, wishing or praying over the same wish,

but still... never granted..

Then now 2011,

I chose to stop everything here,

I really put all my efforts, really love you as much as I can, really waited as long as I can,

but the answer also following me for the past two years,

so it is time for me to wake up my senses..

Xiujing said, if only I can forget,

but she forgotten, my dearest friend changed me alot..

My friend made me realized that,

life is unpredictable..

Whatever we wished might not come true, always get wrong at the final lap,

then I should be more realistic..

It is painful,

but if I continue it will hurt more..

It is tearful,

but if I continue it will tears more..

It is beautiful,

but if I continue it will turn different..

So..... I give up

我输了，你赢了

我输给你，而你赢了我

我不相信爱情会再回到我身边，

因为现在的我，视爱情为奇迹。

但这奇迹，我选择拿来换我朋友的健康，

至于我，等待一个爱我的人来找寻我。