DAMN THE PHOBIA!!!

Even though my main reason is I have no feelings against him,

but till now I still couldnt get myself over to start anew,

not really because of Mr.Nod guy, ever since I made up my decision,

however..

Somehow he changed me into like this..

I dun trust about "relationship",

I cant get myself to accept a guy that loved me instead of me loving him, not even having any touched feelings..

At least if I can develop some feelings then I wont feel bad for the guy,

but the worst part is, NO chemistry spank the tension..

If I will to accept a guy whom loved me, in the first place I wont be here Singapore, I will be far away at Vancouver already..

Nine years arent short, another year it make up 10 years,

but I cant persevere, I changed heart, I bear the consequences..

I dun blame anyone, because I know it isnt something to be regretted,

because.. I know myself well..

If I chosen the path myself, I will bear all the responsibilities..

I dun need any help, it will only show my weakness..

What I need, is just support or beliefs..

It will make me firmer and braver to fight against all the negative thoughts,

then I will win the battle..

真爱之路，从不平顺

我。。。依然寻找着。。。真爱