9th March 2011

When everyone is talking about their 21st birthday, my dearest darling spending her time in the hospital,

but I know, angels will be there to celebrate her birthday for her..

Because she is working very well and hard for everything,

each breath is an earn, and she made it, all by herself..

Darling, you have been so strong and brave..

We been through so much together, I understand you better than others, I know your character too,

never give up and admit defeat always exist in our dictionary,

this time I got influenced by you,

you fought the battle all by yourself, I guess it marks another meaningful issue in your life story and also to me..

I should have convince myself earlier,

I should have know that waiting hurt myself,

I should have realized, everything is too late,

I should have...... say GOODBYE earlier..

Darling, you gave up everything to exchange your health..

It is probably my turn to give up something to return the vow,

because, I rather grab you than insist on the person whom dun belongs to me..

Mr.Nod guy,
bye..
I will keep everything deep inside my heart from now, even though I know it wont happen but if there is any mircale that strike it to happen, I guess the answer will not change..
You are the reason I rejected each one, but you arent the person that will hold me tightly,
I am just not ready for another one..
The last time I shed my tears was on 31st December 2010,
when I walked along the path, when I lost the bet, when I woke up my senses, when I vowed..
I hope, the next time I saw my tears it is not for you..
Bye, Mr.Nod guy..
You know who am I, but I changed because you knew it..