Friday, November 30, 2012

想太多



真的是我想太多嗎?
我真的就因爲很年輕所以就不用怕嗎?
不肯 | 不要 | 不想 | 不屑
永遠都連爭取的機會都沒有!
永遠是要徹底的崩潰!
永遠只能一個人

我是真的很想從頭開始的!
我真的、真的、真的渴望著的!
但。。。還是沒能成功,不是嗎?
你會站在誰那邊呢?
一定不是我,對嗎?
因爲,我從來沒有資格。。。

我轉身離開,心裏頭默念著被留下的話,
可就算我已經能看見路的盡頭,我依舊只能往前走。
我也想找個人好好疼我、顧我,
讓我知道即使我再強悍、再倔強,
依然有個他陪著我。
想 | 夢

我一定能實現自己的夢想,
一定能去得了!
到時,請別讓我被牽絆著了!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

My Place~

爲什麽沒人來愛我?
我永遠尋不到這問題的答案。
原來不是因爲我一直放不下對他的感情,
而是我本來就不是別人會看上眼的那種女人,
原來。。。真的是我所以不可行!

I put in all my efforts, looking for the right partner, right friend, right companion,
but at last everything just don't goes by my way, and I really mean everything.
I can't find a place that I can escape from, I am stucked here, 
like a bird missing the wide, big sky. 
I would rather break my wings than being trapped in a cage, 
however when my wings regrown again, I lost my way in the sky.
I have been saying that I am still young to worry over this issue, but when time is clocking there is no such thing of young forever. 

一個人,都是一個人
那些說過會陪伴我的人,每每在我崩潰時卻尋不到他們的身影
我不是想逃避,只是想學會面對
面對這殘忍的現實,面對這不用明説的待遇,面對這幼稚可笑的説法
我走了,遠離了
就連自己都快消失在這黑暗裏,連自己都希望心臟不再跳動
所以。。。我打算遠走了


Hey, Mr.Nod Guy
I have just realized myself few days back, you're still existing in my heart. Just when your name was mentioned by a stranger whom barely knows you, when my existence was put together with you. Or should I be happier people remembered me together with you? But do you know, I can't smile over it. I wanted to run away from that, just like how you escaped from me few years back, few years back. I guess I can understand why I ain't your first choice not even a back-up, I guess it's really my problem, mine. You will be fine, happy, blessed. Because I passed all my lucks to people whom I loved the most, cared the most. Then when you, Jessica, Xiujing, Jordan, my family, my colleagues are all blessed, I guess that should be the time I left everyone. I have to find a place for myself as well, but I know that place isn't beside anyone whom I loved or cared, that place will only accept me, alone. I will wish for everyone, every single one.