If only you meet the right one, or you assume is the right one..

Then you are willing to do anything for the one..

Not everyone is the same, therefore no one is perfect..

Another friend told me that the other girl should let go,

just yesterday went out with Jessica, Jason, Manyu, Qiuling, Ryan and Jacob..

As Jason is going in to camp this friday,

our JOKER friend is finally in and I guess we will miss him!!!

Through some talk with Jessica,

I realized, next month, July 22 is known as the prediction date of the Tsunami warning,

and is also my 2 years anniversary!!!

ARGH!!!!

Even though I know he wont have enough time to stay here till that day,

but I still hope the prediction is wrong..

Who will I rather want to be??

A silly girl that secretly wait for the guy, or,

become a "third party" and destroy other people's family??

I know I am doing both now,

waiting for a chance to get the guy,

as well as holding back him and dun want him to leave,

thus become a "third party" offically..

Of course, I know my limit..

Never will get over it, even if I want it will never success too..

I can still do whatever I want now,

so please forgive me of doing all these..

I promised, after this month, after he leave,

whatever punishment I will accept..

At least for now, dun blame me, please!!!

Anyway, should be going down to Clarke Quay with him today,

but since Sunday to yesterday I haven been at home,

and I came to library with Jessica now, so I didnt go Clarke Quay..

So, he was damn ANGRY!!!

I just remember it when I am bathing halfway,

so rush to bath finish and gave him a call..

Of course, raise voice here and there,

end up, I hung up the phone..

However, until 5 plus just now I called him..

And that idiot, actually booked the table for tomorrow le!!!

Just wanna see how I beg for his forgiveness,

but failed, because I heard his giggling through the phone..

USELESS!!!!

=DDD

“妳到底是要‘陈’还是‘周’？？”

“我要不起‘陈’了！”

是啊！我要不起你了！！

无论你怎么努力，我还是无法过自己这一关。

男孩跨过了海洋，来到女孩身边，

可是女孩还是不改当初的决定，

即使男孩带来了好消息，女孩还是没有心动。

执着的是男孩还是女孩呢？

残忍的是女孩还是命运呢？

不舍的是爱情还是名分呢？

该来的是等待还是放下呢？

就连他们两个，也都糊涂了。。

*wonder how it feels*

COOL COOL COOL!!!
I am now using the vodafone plug in to the laptop and blogging,
and I am still sitting in car, typing all along!!!!
=DDD
Suddenly feel very excited, also not sure why..
Anyway, I am heading to my "boyfriend" company,
he need to deal with something first, then off we go to visit his grandmother..

I can only said, he is the best son-in-law candidates I have seen so far,
should be reaching my house at around 6pm yesterday for dinner with my parents,
he came at 5pm sharp, and so coincidence my father asked me to go bath earlier,
I still thought of calling him to rush him down,
but there he is after I finish bathing..
First stage, 70 marks for him.. >_<

At first, I thought at least my father might bring us to somewhere better for dinner,
end up, went to Chinatown!!!
OMG!!!
Not saying there isnt a good place,
but I cannot tahan the 'china' feel there sia!!!
End up, the foods suck, the atmosphere suck, the people also suck!!!
Luckily, finish eating jiu head back home,
if not my face will turn even darker!!!

Reached my home, around 8plus at the night,
of course, I stay inside room with him,
until 9plus, went down to help my mother buy newspaper,
then Xiujing called..
She thought can meet me but I got someone with me,
I sat outside my house talking on phone while he said need go buy something..
Xiujing said maybe he wanna give me flowers,
but end up, he went to buy painkiller..
Cos my mens come and his house dun have any painkiller,
so he scared later I too painful then can eat..
Second stage, 80 marks for him..

Leave my house at 10pm, then take cab down to his house,
throughout the journey, we both fell asleep..
Luckily, the taxi driver isnt those bad guys,
if not maybe we will kanna kidnapped.. =P
Actually, I shouldnt have went over to his place,
because mens come, scared overflow will kanna his bed,
but since he dun mind, then I also dun care so much..

Overnight at his house,
and I realized his wardrobe have a few sets of ladies suits!!!
HAHAHAHHA..
He bought for my purpose de la!!!
Cos that few days, I went to his house bath then wore away all my clothes that put in his wardrobe beforehand,
so he know I lazy wont bring back, then he may as well go buy some for me..
If I say, including my undergarments, will readers think he is a pervert???
OHOHOH!!!!
Third stage, 90 marks..

This morning, Zex's crying wake me up,
then my "boyfriend" is nowhere found,
cos he is preparing breakfast..
YUMMY!!
Fourth stage, 95 marks..

Just now went to read Xiujing's blog,
then she and her boyboy together 6 months,
so I turned my head and tell the guy beside me,
I wanna celebrate our anniversary too!!!

If we will to calculate the dates, excluding the time he not beside me,
next month, July 22 will be our 2 years anniversary!!!!
That means, this month 22 will be our 23 months..
However, if only he will stay until that time,
anyway, I just want a belated anniversary..
Then he nodded his head and said, "我去安排!"
YEAH!!!
Fifth stage, 99 marks..

Actually, I have been blogging for an hour plus,
as halfway, I still leave laptop aside and helped him for the paperwork..
So now, we are heading down to Bukit Timah,
visit his grandmother..
Just hope his grandmother still recognize me,
due to the past, I wore dress or skirt when I came to visit her,
but today I wearing jeans..

OK..
He nagging at me le, ask me faster finish blogging cos we are reaching in 10 mins time..
And he wanted me to add something in this post,
that is the mushy three words!!!
So, I must listen to him,
Tan Yi Qiang, "I HATE YOU"..
HAHAHHAHA.. >_<

我只是想知道，
为什么那个人不能是我？
能让妳开心的笑，难过得哭的人，
为什么不是我？

Sometime, I feel all those words so stressful for me,
why couldnt it be simpler??
Once again, I am proud of my mind..
I didnt made myself getting into another world,
in the other hand, I lost something important..

I just realize, not everytime the 'kiss' method works!!!
I tried to shut his mouth, but he can still continue after that,
and he still choose those places that I couldnt do anything overboard,
take the chance to scold me!!!!
ARGH!!!!!

Anyway, his company is awesome!!!
All his workers seems young, then I really went to ask him about the ages,
scared me sia!!!
The youngest is only 22 years old, his secretary..
The oldest is 28 years old, one of the department head,
of course the cleaner auntie is the oldest, but I excluded it..
Then I go disturb him and said, if I will to work under him,
I will be the youngest in the whole company, because I am only 19!!!!
HAHAHHAHA.. =DD

Everyone treat me very nice, and I bought cakes and drinks for them,
and I really can see how busy a company can be when they reached the crisis period!!
People running here and there, shouting across the place,
whereas I just stay inside the office, playing my laptop.. =P
The serious face of his is so freaking handsome,
even though I had been starving since 5 plus, I still waited for him to finish his work first..

And he told me a good news, finally his company come out with the newest business plan,
and going to execute after the final plan is out,
so he seems relieved and happy!!!
Of course, his eyebrows finally straighten, so I will also feel happy for him,
no more overtime for him,
no more hot-tempered,
and maybe he can leave earlier too..

I guess that is no point for me to say anything,
because every word I said, will cause unpleasant to the both of us..
To him, I know I have given my very best,
no matter is it my love or heart, I gave him what should be given,
but end up, the only thing I couldnt give, is just leaving with him..
How long will I take to forget this relationship??
But I know, I am trying hard to do so,
however, the other guy didnt grant me..

Maybe I learned how to control my emotions better than before,
because I never wanted to show out every single expressions,
I dun want my friends or parents got to guess my feelings,
just keep everything secretive..
Considering to keep my blog private,
not to let him read so freely, but he has my password for it,
even if I private it, he can still log in and read whenever he want..
Therefore, I drop this idea..

He will be reaching my house 2 hours later,
going to have dinner with my parents, his treat??
But can see, my parents gave me their best support,
regardless of whatever decision I made,
despite my father wanted me to stay away from relationship at the time being,
he didnt show anything different against him..
Anyway, my parents quite easy-going,
so even if we do not have 7 years of foundation,
my parents also will not treat him badly..

I suddenly remember,
yesterday he called me and told me that he going to do something that will make me angry,
but he refused to tell what is it, known as a surprise but I will be furious over it..
Totally curiosity biting me, what is it???
My sweet voice failed, and he said will tell me when it is done..
So, if he will to see this post before coming over my house,
then I want tell him, better tell me what are you doing, I hate guessing!!!

*因为在我还没想通之前，他就填满了我的脑海了*

YUP!!

Library again, because common test is around the corner for Jessica,

and in order to plug for my laptop, we changed from the cafe to other place..

And Jessica is so STRESS!!!

Keep playing over her hair, as if she is a witch like that,

in the meanwhile we also waiting for Jordan,

cos we are going for movie!!!

HAHAHHAHA..

Jordan doesnt want to watch the movie I wanted to watch,

but at last I insist of watching, so he give in!!!!

BLOOD: THE LAST VAMPIRE..

Seriously, this movie is really very bloody,

the lead will 'chop' the vampire into two sides then blood just splash out!!!

And the ending, puzzled the three of us,

and we came out of our own ending too!!!

Reached home, go have a bath and blogging now..

Anyway, msg-ing HIM now too..

Feel satisfied already, hope wont lead to greediness soon..

OK!!

I need to sleep early today,

but I guess msg-ing with him might take some time,

even though I need wake up early tomorrow..

HAHAHAHHA..

I started to turn back to crazy mode le!!!!

Something shocked me up yesterday,

and I only had one sentence to describe it,

第三者的第三者..

I still fall in love on this song few days back,

and now my turn to become like this song..

Totally speechless..

Guess what??

My second time went to meet up people's fiancee,

completely blank and nervous once I saw her,

I can even feel my legs trembling and the surroundings is so cold at of a sudden..

She is so pretty, elegant, high-class,

the first impression she given me is SWEET..

She wore a red tube dress, half-tied long hair some perm on the bottom,

while I wore a white top tube with jeans..

The whole dinner, I am in shock and stared to the blank space,

she was the one who talk, while I sit back and listen..

HAHHAHAHAHHA!!!!!

This was only a DREAM!!!!!

=DDDDD

I never went to meet any people fiancee,

it only happened in my dream, or should say is a nightmare???

Maybe Xiujing passed her virus to me,

she dreamt of her boyfriend break up with her,

now my turn to dream of Yi Qiang's fiancee come over to find me..

Therefore, the moment I woke up called Yi Qiang,

same reaction that every guy will give..

"aiyo, you think too much.. this wont happen de la.."

Sometime, I really hope it will happen then he will realize how serious the matter is,

if he still stay over here and didnt go back..

I couldnt say he dun belongs here, because here is his home too,

but he had a 'family' far away from here,

I couldnt hold him back and make him a heartless guy..

Then his reply, "without you, means no happiness family"

sweet talk to me again, and I didnt fall into his trap..

However, why this dream make me feel so realistic??

Seems that it will happen anytime,

so if my handphone will to ring and appear a strange number,

I must be full prepared..

Because, it might be from the girl..

OK..

Yi Qiang scared I think too much, so asked me to go find him,

and now I am going to bath and head to his office..

Should buy some cakes or whatsoever??

As his workers must be very hard working,

anyway he is typical boss, a perfection fully guy..

Bathing time, what should I wear??

And I still not sure if I will appear at someone house downstair tomorrow,

because my fears still present, super afraid!!!!

*A board listed: I LOVE YOU*

Currently at library,
YUP!!
I am in the library, because Jessica wanna come over to study,
and my job is to use my laptop in front of her to distract her..
=DDD
But, she brought her laptop too..
Of course she did study, so may she pass her common test well!!!

Mr. Tan did something for me yesterday,
he found the song I wanted from long ago,
and download for me.. =DDD
The lyrics also very meaningful,
I keep grumble to him that I couldnt download this song but yet I want it very much,
yesterday also dunno what happen to him, start help me search for it..
And he actually download inside his laptop but waited till I got back his house after supper,
then he tell me and sent me.. =DD
THANKS, TYQ!!!

Beforehand, I still 'quarrel' with him about his long-term staying in Singapore,
he decided to stay here until his current company get over the crisis,
estimate time of him staying here, until July..
Actually, should blame myself too!!
If I didnt want him to take charge his company,
he might just wind up this company..
But, I think this action kinda too cruel,
rich also not to use this way to show off ma!!
Therefore, nowadays he overtime until 7plus at night,
whereas his working time only until 5pm..

I can see he take my words seriously,
and I thanks him for doing it..
But whenever I thought of this,
I will think the way I treat him back isnt enough,
not even one-tenth of whatever he given me..
I still keep pushing him away from my world,
just not to get hurt again,
but I forgotten, he is the one who hurt the most..

ARGH!!!
I start to grumble again!!!
It shouldnt be the way, must learn to stop it le..
If not it will like never ending, once I started..

Work hard, Play hard..
Yi Qiang, if you really think wind up is the best solution,
please just go ahead, I dun hope to see you stressing yourself,
just for my words..
I not sure about your problem, but I know your stress face is not what I to see,
but remember, I am always there for you..
=DDD

OK..
I am going to write my story, hope to complete it soon..
=DD

Outing to SENTOSA!!!

We are the planner again, so tried to plan surprises,

but when go to Sentosa, none of the surprises are done..

Except Hongkai, because he thought we only celebrating for Sikai and Joshua,

end up we put his name on the cake too..

=DDD

I brought Jessica along to this outing,

and she seriously had fun too!!!

Not only in Sentosa, when she played Sikai's PSP, she was proud to break his record too,

also DDR, Jessica said Sikai is a PRO!!

Hahahaha..

=DDD

Jessica dear, said I picked the right guy..

She said HE is really a nice guy,

but she dun believe HE is those kind that will neglect girlfriend for games..

However, HE is!!

But I started to get used to it,

if he will to realize my presence, I am willing to wait..

I know the outcome might not be what I hoped,

but since I decided to do it,

I will face the consequences too..

Firstly, I dun hope to have any regrets because I know the feel..

Second, I hope HE is the one who made me believe the word, LOVE again..

Thirdly, I am willing to place down my memories for HIM..

However, I isnt those kind of girl who will pester guys and get him to be with me,

I believe if he will to be destined for me, he will take the first move not me..

HOW??

I still thinking about my silly thought for that day,

even though I know things will not happen for what I have thought of,

but I hope miracles can happen, at least for once!!

Imagination always are opposite from reality,

if I will to think in this way, it will never happen for the way..

However, believe might be my only strength to pull off for now..

I remember every single action HE did,

and almost your words too..

I treat it as a great affinity, I dunno will HE feel it too??

Tan Yi Qiang,

he pretty afraid that I will get hurt again..

So my job today is, accompany him while he facing one laptop,

and I am facing another..

*SOULMATE*

This is the term I gave to him,

and I love this term too..

I tried not to feel any saddness,

because I dun want my memories with tears but with smile..

如果前世我们是恋人，

今世我们一定是灵魂伴侣，

那么下一世我们一定能成为夫妻吧？

我们是不是应该为了下一世而努力呢？

*I will never want to forget you*