YO HOO~~~~~~

Holiday had started, and I am busy over friends' birthday..

Finally, it is time to be my turn lo!!!!!!

Heading off the next morning, and I will be back on the 21st..

=DDDDDD

Yi Qiang said he gonna miss me for this few days,

HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA..

I also know, all my friends will sure miss me ba????

Anyway, whoever dun miss me is not my friend lo!!!!!

Just kidding la..

=DDDDDD

Update more when I am back..

AND, I am going to miss a few friends' birthday..

Yi Qiang, I will miss you too..

=DDDDD

當我對你的愛幻化成恨時，請原諒我的不懂事。因爲，我已經愛不起你了。

當我落下心疼的眼淚卻挽回不了我們的感情時，請原諒我的不告而別。因爲，我希望你快樂。

當我獨自一人只能看著你唯一的相片過日時，請原諒我的自私。因爲，我來不及了。

Currently working hard on my another story, neglected it after I finished the one for Yi Qiang..

Despite I am still thinking of the ending for this story, and the middle content of this story, because I not sure if I should stick to my own style, or trying to change it..

Then I going to proceed on writing the story that belonged to me, not long ago..

I am leading my life unplanned, seriously lifelessly, aimlessly..

So what if I have dreams or hopes, so what if I trying my best to make those come true??

End up, I am still stucked here!!!!

Stucked in the life I couldnt fight through, a life that regardless how much hard work I put it there is no perfect outcome..

I judged it myself, I choose this path myself, I thought those things are important to me,

but who knows, whatever I THOUGHT doesnt seems to be mine, doesnt meant the same as what I think..

THANKS, friends..

You guys know what I really need at the point of time, CRAZINESS..

So you guys put in all your effort, in order to make me high, stay crazy..

*muacks*

It is my pleasure to know you guys, I will cherish this friendship we are holding on now,

but if one day all of you have girlfriend, do tell your girlfriend I am just a CLOSE friend of yours, if not they will get JEALOUS..

HAHAHHAHAHHAHA..

I knew the truth behind that story, but how I hope I dunno everything..

Because that was a tragedy, a tragic ending..

A man can kept his promise for 30years, the other two can hate each other for 30years,

what had gone wrong???

Destiny again??

And it sacrificed a precious life, what in return then??

It seriously made me deep in thoughts again..

Because I never thought it will really happen in real life, even after I had heard it..

However, they are all who I known, whom I respected,

therefore, I choose to believe it..

-----------------end of emo----------------

OK, what name should I give to my god-daughter??

She is currently in the incubator due to the lack of nutrients when she was in mother's tummy,

despite Alice ate alot of nutritious stuff during her pregnancy but I think her health more or less affected it..

PLEASE, I am praying hard for the health of my precious god-daughter!!!!!

Dun disappoint me again, please..

Yi Qiang came out of many names, but he said should let the father choose it,

so I got no other choice but trying to give many options for Calvin to choose..

=DDDDDDDDDD

But I picked the Chinese name, because my Chinese is better them..

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHA..

*You said, you are giving me one more year*

GoodBye emo, GoodBye the dream, Welcome my FIRST god-daughter in this day..

THANKS, at least I am not totally abandoned,

because a tiny life came into my world, let me feel responsible and alive..

=DDDDDD

Alice finally gave birth to her precious baby girl,

Calvin was completely crazy, Yi Qiang still has the mood to trick me out,

and me??

Extremely HAPPY!!!!!!

=DDDDDD

I got a chance to choose the name for my god-daughter,

so the entire night I was discussing with Yi Qiang whether which name suit her..

All sort of names came out from us, until I think each one can also be my daughter's name in the future..

Alice did a pretty good job, and thanks god she didnt undergo much suffering,

her daughter must has know how tough her mother was, so she came out to this world smoothly and healthy..

=DDDDDD

So now, I have got a god-son and a god-daughter..

Watched New Moon with Jessica,

with her keep mentioning how handsome the two male leads are,

and if only, the guy name is not JACOB..

HAHAHHAHAHHAHA..

At night time, met with Yi Qiang and once again only the two of us in such a big flat,

watching the drama I bought not long ago,

and comment all the way..

Currently using his VAIO laptop blogging and I love this slim laptop..

No school tomorrow, and I prepared for a long holiday too,

therefore not going to school next Monday.. =P

Remember we set our promise in four years time??

29.02.2012..

And you can see, how much we changed in just a year..

Scary changes, destined fate..

*I am smiling, with all my heart..*

THANKS, "BOY"..

Your praises, your effort, your everything are keeping me back to normal,

at least for a night, my eyes, my mind is filled with only you and not that person..

THANKS..

In conversation, (I am super proud of myself of remembering the whole convo.. =P)

YQ : "Bought your charger??"

ME : "YEAH, now I walking home le.."

YQ : "Wanna join me??"

ME : "But my leg aching le.."

YQ : "I ask someone go pick you up, wait for him ok??"

ME : "Why not you come fetch me le??"
YQ : "I go and buy drinks for you?? Here only have liquor.. What drinks you want??"

ME : "I cannot drink liquor meh??"
YQ : "You tomorrow still got school, so dun drink better la!!"

ME : "OH.. You just buy lo.. I anything de.."

YQ : "OK.. Go prepare, he leave the place le.."

He was super sweet the entire night, and I didnt ki siao for the entire night too..

We were like bickering around, from I start doing my work till I completed, then head back home, took us more than two hours of bickering.. =DDDD

THANKS, you seen through me again..

So you put so much effort into it, just to exchange my smile and normal..

And I didnt disappoint you too??

I did a great job, right??

You taught me well, using your style of threatening which only I understand your intention..

With the entire sealed box of cigarettes, and varieties of brand,

I am still not tempted..

All because, you said this is a exchange promise with me,

I will keep this promise as far as I can go, so that I wont disappoint you and make you in a dilemma..

=DDDD

儅一個浪子肯爲了個女人而回頭，這也意味著那個女人將會是這浪子的最後歸宿。

Remember this sentence??

"Gan-die" told me this in front of you, after you leave him and we were together..

Yesterday just remember it and even told Xiujing about it,

does it come true??
YES, it does..

At least we had our two years in peace.. =DDDD

Holiday coming, my vacation, my Christmas celebration, my New Year hopes..

Every year I will wish of the same things, but till now none come true,

however my age keep increasing and time really files SOOOOOOOOOOOOO fast!!!!!

HAIX..

I am going to grumble that I am OLD again..

Then Yi Qiang gonna say that I am scaring myself, while he is older than me four years and he didnt even talk about or worrying about his age..

*IT'S YOU?? ONLY YOU?? I doubt so..*

*Tell me, what is so great about the person who makes you shed so much tears?

Tell me, if the person can LOVE you more than I do?

Then, I will let you go to see your smile instead of tears..*

PP assessment finally came to an end,

had been working for more than two months, and I am contented of the outcome too..

My mind screwed up in three straight days, just recovered a little and getting better now..

=DDDDDD

Dinner with Yi Qiang, and his questions seriously impacted me deeply, keep wanting to get an answer to his questions, but I am still clueless..

YEAH, what is so great about him??

Why can I shed or think of him so much??

Of course it is impossible for him to LOVE me too..

So Yi Qiang, what answers you wanna hear from me??

How am I going to clear our doubts then??

*The person you LOVE leave and go, however I will take you home..

Because I dun bear to see you keep crying..

So let's go, since the sky you seeing now no longer belongs to you..*

I never blame the person, not even for once..

Because I chose this path, despite the person told me not to do so,

I still insist..

That is no point for the person to know anything, because it wont change the facts..

Yi Qiang, stop asking such questions..

Not only making me deep in thoughts, also started affecting my decision..

There are really many things that I couldnt leave behind till now,

so please dun try to waver my mind again..

=DDDDDD

*The person I am loving, I guess he knows..

Because I am still a friend..*

我很想讓那個人知道，可是我已經失去了原本屬於我的權利。

現在唯一能做的，就是希望自己的感覺能隨著時間，慢慢流逝掉！

因爲，那個人現在過得很快樂，我不願再一次地造成困擾。

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO~~~~~~ JORDAN..

Finally even him also passed his birthday,

then looking forward to mine and Jessica again..

The video we spent most of our time on it,

Jordan found it NEW, and he do appreciate our effort.. =DDDD

We trying to be funny, do all such of stupid themes,

and great THANKS to Jessica's brother,

he ran back with Jordan's birthday cake and he even bought drinks for us..

THANKS..

OK, we wore so nice and go Jessica house nearby to eat zi char,

OMG, we were like animals escaped from ZOO..

Reached home pretty late, and my mind screwed up again..

Think of this, think of that..

I seriously picked the wrong time to think of stuffs like these..

HAIX..

My first post in this December 2009, but will be a emo one..

I hate to do this too, but I am still doing it, dunno for what??

I have two diaries to let me vent my anger or sorrows, but I still prefer doing it here too,

why??

Maybe I attracting attention, maybe I hope someone out there will read my post and pity me??

Till the end, I still need to handle all those stuffs by myself,

therefore, I seriously HATE it!!!!!!!

I joke around and ki siao this few days too often,

therefore when there is something that tackle my entire heart, I got depressed..

So this might be the true reason behind why I keep joking around and gone crazy this few days,

wanted to regain my strength in order to endure through this kind of crisis again??

Then I will just say "STOP IT",

because I myself dun even know if I have the energy finish handling all stuffs..

Now then pop out all such problems,

pray hard didnt work, live decently also didnt work,

I guess, bad people seriously live longer than good people,

because their retribution will not fall on them, instead falls on others that are related to them..

Maybe I can consider to become a bad person..

Like this, I might live a bit longer..

I just wrote one whole chunk of rubbish into my diaries,

even the one that is suppose to be a gift for someone if there is a chance,

but now, it became my own diary..

Surprisingly, I didnt shed a single tears,

I can cried over small matters but such serious matter my tears is nowhere found..

Proud of myself man..

Everything clashed together, made me super fucked* up and tensed up..

So this a route to the adult journey??

Or a stepping stone to my destiny??

Then I will realised, nothing came into my eyes flawlessly..

Because I grumble alot..

As usual, I am still contented with my life,

because there is nothing to grumble for anyway,

but, I just hope there will be lesser things for me to handle or endure through..

Or maybe, dun all come in one shot,

not drinking liquor or what, why must it be in one shot???????

I trying to make myself stay happy..

-------------edited-----------------

PROBLEM SOLVED..

Frankly, totally relieved!!!!!

THANKS, Yi Qiang.. =DDD

THANKS, Xiujing.. =DDDD

*muacks*