My first post in this December 2009, but will be a emo one..

I hate to do this too, but I am still doing it, dunno for what??

I have two diaries to let me vent my anger or sorrows, but I still prefer doing it here too,

why??

Maybe I attracting attention, maybe I hope someone out there will read my post and pity me??

Till the end, I still need to handle all those stuffs by myself,

therefore, I seriously HATE it!!!!!!!

I joke around and ki siao this few days too often,

therefore when there is something that tackle my entire heart, I got depressed..

So this might be the true reason behind why I keep joking around and gone crazy this few days,

wanted to regain my strength in order to endure through this kind of crisis again??

Then I will just say "STOP IT",

because I myself dun even know if I have the energy finish handling all stuffs..

Now then pop out all such problems,

pray hard didnt work, live decently also didnt work,

I guess, bad people seriously live longer than good people,

because their retribution will not fall on them, instead falls on others that are related to them..

Maybe I can consider to become a bad person..

Like this, I might live a bit longer..

I just wrote one whole chunk of rubbish into my diaries,

even the one that is suppose to be a gift for someone if there is a chance,

but now, it became my own diary..

Surprisingly, I didnt shed a single tears,

I can cried over small matters but such serious matter my tears is nowhere found..

Proud of myself man..

Everything clashed together, made me super fucked* up and tensed up..

So this a route to the adult journey??

Or a stepping stone to my destiny??

Then I will realised, nothing came into my eyes flawlessly..

Because I grumble alot..

As usual, I am still contented with my life,

because there is nothing to grumble for anyway,

but, I just hope there will be lesser things for me to handle or endure through..

Or maybe, dun all come in one shot,

not drinking liquor or what, why must it be in one shot???????

I trying to make myself stay happy..

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PROBLEM SOLVED..

Frankly, totally relieved!!!!!

THANKS, Yi Qiang.. =DDD

THANKS, Xiujing.. =DDDD

*muacks*