MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS..

Yesterday, went to meet Jordan first, passed him those souvenirs bought from HONGKONG,

and and the gift I finally found that suit him, of course he MUST like it..

HAHAHHAHAHHAHA..

Then meet out with Xiujing and clique for Christmas party at BEDS..

COUNTDOWN party!!!!!!!

And I couldnt stand the Martell smell, or maybe I couldnt drink le..

OMG, that means I gonna drunk easier??

HAHHAHAHHAHAHA..

Time in BEDS was great, at least I am contented easily, therefore I dun ask for much or I couldnt ask much..

A dream I had yesterday morning, David appeared in my dream and told me that I am going to shed tears when I am in the pub and Yi Qiang is gonna quarrel with me again..

It made me the entire day dun dare to msg or call him, till in the night time he msg and asked where am I..

Overall, till the end I didnt shed a single tear, I walked home alone thinking if the dream is real or a warning for me??

Therefore I got a prepared first then I didnt do anything overboard??

Hope so..

Today is the 100th day, starting from 17/09/2009..

I also not sure why am I counting this days, keeping the diary as my own, hoping the smiling face can appeared in the diaries..

However I am going to buy the second diary le, still nothing been granted..

Christmas and soon a new year starting, those wishes I have been wishing for years and still not granted, I guess not only I lack of luck also I am not sincere enough..

Going off to Yi Qiang's house for party soon, waiting for him to pick me up..

Maybe his proposal isnt a bad idea too, despite I know it is so bad to accept the idea,

but what can I do by staying here??

When all those things or people I willing to stay for support my decision,

when the person I most dun bear to leave actually didnt know the whole story..

I should follow my heart, but when my heart betrayed me too??

So what should be my choice in the end??

當你對我說的話連你自己都忘記時，我還要相信你會遵守嗎？

還是否定一切發生過的事情，然後告訴自己就算等到天荒地老，你也不會轉過頭，改變你的決定？

我相信等待能得到我想要的，因爲我身邊的朋友也是如此，

不過可能那個人是你，所以我連最後一點的相信都被你摧毀了。

當一段段動人的愛情出現在我眼前，我渴望的愛情卻是一步步離我更遙遠。

也許這一段愛情原本就不屬於我，可是爲什麽不是由我自己斷定它是否屬於我而是別人來告訴我，‘對不起，我不適合你！’

如果放手是爲了握得更多，讓你自由，那我決定放手，只因爲我太愛你了。。。