school reopen.....

how did ii spent my 3 weeks holiday???

first week was spending my time in Shawn's house,

den agruments, patch back, accompany mii to shopping.....

however, his promises with always hardly to fulfil...

second week, was christmas and chalet....

as usual, started to quarrel with Shawn again,

and made mii stop socialize with his friends unless ii am willingly agree....

third week, welcome 2009 and bury my feelings of 2008....

mahjong, stay overnight, countdown....

this 3 weeks ii am packed,

and also, *sick*....

wat did ii receive during this 3weeks????

lots and lots of thanks to Shawn,

his changes made mii realii feel like ii am needed....

however, his changes threatened my position in his heart,

wat if he realii pin too much hopes in mii,

and ii couldnt repay him????

both of us said, wait till we put down our feelings,

den accept each other....

he is trying verii hard now,

but ii am trapped in my past.....

human eyes are build looking the front,

was meant to ask us look forward,

however, ii am just walking backward.....

ii never wan to let myself forget,

of cos, Shawn oso wont force mii to forget....

but to be loved, is just using others correct method to punish ownself....

because ii lost the chance of loving someone,

so ii take others' love to punish myself.....

Tan YiQiang is one, Shawn Tan is another....

ii am just a bad girl keep harming others,

and ii will feel happii for it.....

ii am the JOKER, in girl version.....

saw others hurt, ii will be happii....

*LOL*

ii thought ii am giving in to others,

but overall....it is not....

just finish reading this novel,

the male lead killed the female lead's father,

as her father wanted to rape her....

and the guy was sentenced to jail for 6 years,

and the girl will in the mental hospital and grown fat....

"who is the one tat kiss the princess in order to wake her up?"

"is it the prince or the knight?"

won my allowance for school yesterday.....

around $30plus.... =DDDD

mahjong for the past two days,

with the accompany of Shawn this few days,

and ii am in bad sore throat.....

Shawn passed the diseases to mii!!!!! =(

*LOL*

but he so sweet, cook herbal tea for mii.... =DDD

even though it is verii bitter.... =PP

我喜欢坦白，却害怕诚实背后带来的伤害。。

所以，逃避是我的强项。。

*女孩向天祈祷，如果男孩笑了她就不哭*

*男孩笑了，因为女孩叫不出他的名字*