Everii thing will need to restart again..
ii should STOP whatever ii am doing now,
and get a replay again..
Not sure when time came, will ii hold anii chances again..
Am ii scared??
YES..
Am ii alone??
YES..

ii couldnt have think of how to solve it,
becos ii am avoiding the matter..
ii remember alot of people telling mii,
"dun give up, you shouldnt give up so easily"
YA..
ii shouldnt give up easily,
but ii am so sick and tired of my life now!!!!
Everii day, the moment ii open my eyes,
ii will need to think, "wat will ii need to do today??"
This kind of empty, even ii am shocked to heard myself asking this question..

ii am always hard to coax..
When happiness is just a step away from mii, ii rejected..
When it is time for mii to cry, ii chose to stay calm..
When ii could chose for myself, ii think of others..
If there is someone could stay by my side,
tell mii how should ii react,
will it be better??
At least there is someone to tell mii wat to do,
rather than facing problems alone..

This time round, if ii will to fall,
no one will hold mii from the back anii more..
Neither will YiQiang be by my side,
nor Shawn standing beside mii..
Pull mii up, when ii am in "hell"..

By the way, ii am verii fine with Shawn..
We were still out yesterday.. =DD
Even though he will busy over those New Year matters,
cos he need to have dinner with his 'zhang ben'..
But he so nice, still will think of mii..=PP

生不如死。。
我不会白痴地结束，
可是却不想辛苦地走下去。。
Anii way, ii wont do foolish things..
Cos, to someone who realii want to end their life,
they wont go publish around to "attract attention"..
If ii want to end, ii will do it quietly too..
*LOL*..
Kidding onlii la..(not funnii, ii know)

Guess what is Shawn's reaction when ii crack this joke??
He realii knocked my head, and *&*^&&^(*)%^$@##^..
Okiie..
Who will have this kind of reaction??
Unless that person dislike mii, whom will be???
This New Year, ii seems to be troubled..
ii thought the field of STARS ii saw in Jordan's house on the first day of 2009,
represent a good and shining year,
however.. the STARS were just for mii to view,
but not to pin anii hopes for it..

*If the person is YOU, will you have this kind of reaction??
ii doubt so.. Becos you understand tat, ii wont do it..
And why will ii have this kind of thinking..*