The first thing ii did in Valentine Day will be..

Brought my sister down to tuition den head back home..

Where is Shawn??

Whom was supposed to be the one with mii in Valentine Day??

He was waiting for mii downstairs my house,

with a bouquet of red roses in his hand..

(he dunno ii LOVE blue rose)

Beforehand, ii told my dad ii wont going out,

so ii decided to wait for my dad come home den accompany him go eat dinner..

Shawn followed too..

Luckily, my dad came home at around 6plus..

So go to have dinner den separate with my family,

Shawn brought mii to somewhere..

He brought mii down to Singapore River,

as we had eaten so took a walk around the River first..

He shouldnt had brought mii there..

Becos, everii thing start to happen!!

My Valentine Day was ruined by "her"!!

She called and said she got into some troubles,

wanted Shawn to go over..

Obviously, Shawn's face changed!!

He had a deal with mii tat his phone will not ring for the day..

At least, he wont rush down to get involve to anii trouble,

However.. things will change..

He felt verii verii Sorrii,

but he still left..

Leaving mii alone,

loitering around Singapore River!

ii am wearing a blue jumper type tube,

just cover my shoulders with tat pathetic, thin white shawl!!!

The wind were pretty cold but cozy..

It made my mind calm down and thought of lots and lots of things..

ii guess no girl will think of their ex,

in their occuppied Valentine Day??

However.. ii did!!

All my dears are going to screw mii up!!!!!!

The whole day my memories just flowed back to last year..

My most perfect and beautiful moments!!

Jessica was much more pathetic than mii!!

Her dear wasnt by her side in their verii first Valentine Day!

Got lover but unable to celebrate with him,

such a poor girl!!

Den she called and we had a short chat..

At tat moment, ii still told Jessica tat maybe Shawn is trying to give mii a surprise..

However, high expectation come with higher disappointment..

Apparently, he disappointed mii..

Shawn claim to be back at about an hour time..

But he didnt!!

ii waited for him at least more than an hour,

but not even his shadow appear!!

ii tried to cool myself down, telling myself

"he is not your whoever, but place you in his heart even after knowing,

you didnt do the same to him!"

So ii manage to get him on phone and asked if ii will still need to wait for him to come back..

ii muz be realii a BAD GIRL!!

Just making use of him to empty my loneliness..

Wat did he got back??

My thousands and hundreds of unwillingness??

He muz be suffering alot from mii!!

Should learn how to stop all my unreasonable actions and let him go..

You got my mind for the whole particular day..

Compare with this year,

you spent more time with mii than Shawn did..

We did went to Singapore River last year too..

So Shawn realii shouldnt had put mii alone over there!!

(pushing all the blame onto Shawn now..)

However.. he realii rushed down to mii when he knew tat "her" wasnt in big trouble..

Honestly, ii had a little happii..

(ii should be angrii, dont ii?)

Actually, 'contented' will be a better word to replace 'happii'..

We had a drink at Clarke Quay,

where we speak out all our feelings..

At the time of, 1234am.. (such a memorable time, so ii remember it)

Of cos.. wat could we talked about with the both of us are packed with secrets!!

At tat time, den ii realize..

ii should believe in the phrase, "life is like a stage"..

Everii minute we are acting..

Therefore, everii situation and scenario seems like a drama..

Shawn told mii tat actually, "her" is cousin of Joanna..

So, Shawn thinks tat he can take care of "her" on behalf for Joanna..

Dramatic, isnt it??

ii couldnt deny!!

Cos ii oso cant get over it..

We had a peaceful agreement,

fulfilled our promise too..

We will be best friend in the rest of our life!!

Whenever either of us need help or console,

the other one will need to rush down and support..

Suprisingly, ii didnt shed a single tear for this issue..

(ii thought ii will!! when ii had images of this day..)

Shawn didnt blame mii..

He seems to expect my answer when ii come out with this promise..

Like wat ii said,

it was a peaceful agreement..

Xiujing dear..

Sorrii to disappoint you!!!

ii muz be crazy to make all this decisions..

But trust mii, happiness wont leave mii too far..

It is just a matter of time..

Whether do ii meet him now or a couple of years later..

Frankly speaking, Shawn realii treat mii verii nice..

But if we will to continue this kind of relationship,

it will just hurt him more..

He is still not far enough for mii to forget..someone!!

A new relationship can help to place down those unnecessary memories,

but not to an extend of being substitution..

A good start tat ii received a best friend tat know all my happenings well..

*I MISS YOU!! MISSING YOU, TERRIBLELY..*