I am glad to think of the matter, because must really force myself then I will realized how hurting the memories had brought me to..

A different method of forgetting, my own style of forgetting,

I guess it is little cruel but effective, at least it happened on me..

Maybe there is few more months ahead, but will it change the facts??

I know the answer is NO, therefore I rather forget it right now, in this day..

Couldnt see why the differences affected me that much,

after all I guess I still lost to the word "feeling"..

YQ said I just let my rational turn emotional, then turn emotional to rational again,

that is why I keep changing, keep thinking things that wont happen..

Maybe it is true, this is why I am like this..

I want my life in peaceful mode,

therefore I am working hard for it, despite I know sometime efforts will be in vain,

but I need the beliefs to push me forward..

I love my life now, at least I am able to think through things, wont bottle it up all times..

I decided to have a great talk with YQ today,

at least let him know what I am feelings right now, and those things I wanted him to know..

OK, today I will be going over to his place myself,

must learn to be grateful to him too..

=DDDDDD

爱情，

拥有严重的爱情洁癖，

让我决定一个人地等下去。