I lost again,

"never lose hopes"

it never fall on me, because I always need to face the reality..

I thought just at least like me look at him from far, I will be contented over such minor action but now, even such minor action cant be done..

It is my punishment??

Then I guess it is a little too harsh for me,

why cant even grant my little wish??

In the other hand, I should be happy for him..

He is moving on to his dream, he know what he wants, he hope to grab his dream,

the only thing I cant get over, is he might leave beyond my sight..

I have already difficulties seeing him often, if he really decided how much more can I see him??

I am not as courageous as I think of,

cant really handle things like that right now, how will I settle things in the past??

Out of a sudden, I missed him..

Miss him deeper than normal, wanting to talk to him even more,

but I cant get myself to do all those..

I guess this is the only way to finally cut off each piece of contact with him,

which means I finally should give up on him already..

OK,

end of this topic..

I dun wish to continue thinking about it..

原来，每个人真的都会离开我。

我爱的，爱我的，

一直到最后，他们都会离我而去。