Family Day to Singapore ZOO.. (sudden)

All because I had a dream yesterday morning about Zoo and animals, so suggested to my father to bring us there..(random)

Took the Carousel Ride with my sister,

OK, finally get a chance to ride that, even though it is kinda short time..

=DDDD

I am trying to hide the true self aside, because I wanted to show you,

by loving you it wont change my life..

*60th day*

Why do I still feel the time is like so SLOW??

女孩在乎的是男孩是否记得和自己的种种，

不过她也很清楚，男孩并没有忘记。

他只是在用自己的方式关心着女孩，心疼着女孩。

所以，女孩很欣慰。。。

When I am happily awaiting for a new start, your face flashed into my mind..

When everyone said I am just stubborn over my decision, your words make it firmer..

When I choose this pathway at the beginning, I never will regret about it..

No matter how many days of cooling down, it seems didnt help much in changing my mind,

still think in such a way that I am not fit to be somewhere I am not suppose to be..

I dun wish to use this method to escape away from my pain, because it wont help me at all,

instead it pull me further away from him whereas I couldnt forget him..

YES, you are right..

Every reason I gave is an excuse,

an excuse to escape your consideration and kindness..

So never choose to forgive me, as I am not going to beg for your forgiveness too..

每个人都会埋怨幸福离他们遥远，

其实幸福从没离开过他们身边，

只是他们是否能抓到幸福的模样。

I saw the symbols of my happiness, but I never will raise my hand and grab it,

because it is a visible appearance of an invisible meaning..

Sing like no one's listening, love like you're never been hurt,

dance like nobody's watching, and live like its heaven on earth..

As usual yesterday went to Orchard with Jordan again,

Christmas decoration filled Orchard street..

After that, went to meet Jason and gang without Jessica.. =PP

Manyu and Jacob shocked to saw me when I walked down to meet them,

because Manyu just got to know something and the next moment I appeared..

And then I know, my words werent said clearly, because "he" interpreted it wrongly,

but I am not going to explain anymore, just let this matter rest..

Since I knew what I want the most, since I had said whatever I should said,

it is up to "him" to listen it or not..

I stopped eating supper for more than a week, but yesterday drank BEER while playing games..

Fun games introduced by Ryan..

And I feel like going to ARMY, because they say until like can get lots of money..

$_$ $_$ $_$ $_$

My PP assessment date is out, it falls on the last slot which is 5th December,

can meet up with Jessica and Jordan after that to celebrate Jordan's birthday,

since Jordan has lesson.. =DDDD

懂得让步，才能进步。。

就算真的有能忘记痛苦的药水也没有用，

因为，爱得深就能记起曾经的种种。

它如果被我们握得紧紧的，就不会让它跑掉，

因为，我们会舍不得。。

*Today is the 59th day, it is hitting to the second month*

Never throw my faith away when I choose to believe you over and over again..

Because of your over-protection, I couldnt resolve my problems and just relying on you,

I know you are just not bear to see me turning into another person whenever you mention his name,

but could you just believe, I am still rational enough to make the decision??

I didnt interfere about your problems, even didnt blame you of breaking our promises time and time,

and yet now you came over to interfere mine??

The first sentence of your reply, reflected your heart..

Despite I am fully proud of my rational, I still did misused it sometimes,

dun say you kept those words for so long..

However, you often failed to express what you really mean,

but I can heard the story behind your every word..

爱神要女孩把她的天真交易给恶魔，

以便换回永久的沉睡，好忘记痛彻心扉的那段爱恋。

而拥有天真的恶魔，幻化成女孩的面目出现在男孩眼前。

男孩以为女孩再次回到他身边，而不曾发觉女孩的虚荣，

恶魔一步步地让男孩忘记原来女孩的一切，

当他和她的交际就此停摆时，

爱神抽走了属于女孩的天真，叫醒了沉睡的女孩。

可是迎接他们的，却是没有记忆的两人，

是否能够在仅剩的日子里，唤醒曾经的点点滴滴呢？

Poster is 90% done, can be print soon and waiting for the presentation date..

Restricting my diet recently, in order to retrieve my previous weight,

and I want to turn back to vegetarian diet, trying my best to stop eating MEAT and FISH..

=DDDD

17th November is coming, our 7th anniversary..

AND AND, my next god-son/daughter is coming to this world soon!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA..

I will be a great nanny once again...

=DDDDDDD

I am working on my PP poster right now, while that stupid Yi Qiang pestering me throughout..

Outside is full of mahjong sounds, heavy metal musics, screaming, television background,

I thought hiding in the room will be better with only my music and having my own world,

who knows that KUKU keep disturbing me!!!!!

LOL.. =DDDDDD

I cant sit TAXI!!!!!

I will carsick, and dunno why only for public transport,

for own cars or motobike, no such problem..

Found myself so weird.. =P

I had been thinking over and over again,

but I still got the same answer, am I too stubborn to change my mind or I am just forcing myself to believe this entire fact??

So when is it coming to an end??

Till the day I gotten my real gift or till I finally realise how silly am I??

Yesterday really totally breakdown, out of no way cried like nobody business,

until Yi Qiang called and heard my different then I stop crying..

Ultimately, when he asked what happen to me I turn speechless, I also dunno what happen to me, maybe my tears too much need some place to shed out, and yesterday was the best time for it..

Thanks Yi Qiang, is your accompany that keep me strong enough to handle my own stuffs in my own way..

Your support is my best antidote over such matters and I am grateful for it.. =DDD

And and, my novels read till the last two books,

going to Xiujing's book store soon to look for other books..

I am very interested to Rome Myth nowadays, but couldnt find the related in Kinokuniya, must visit the library again..

I miss the days without worries and simply just chiong for O levels and skipping school,

a blink of eye, I am soon to my 20 and still uncertain on my future??

I am afraid when I cross over the road and a car just bumped onto me, I guess by that time I will not need to stress myself about my future and those unhappy issues..

OK, not trying to kill myself in this way, just thinking about it,

because accidents are unpredictable..

女孩明白了，只有放手才能握住。

而她也知道，当握着越紧只会让自己伤痕累累。

女孩只想开开心心地过着失去男孩的日子，

因为她认清了，男孩不会回来的事实。

When I decided to say the truth, what will your reaction be??

When I am upset over what you have said, will you change your words??

When I get the wrong intention, will you be untrue to your sentence??

Till the very end, whatever I hope to get wont be what you can give me..

Thanks for whatever were given to me, it seriously made me grown up within a night,

insist of holding onto one is tiring, but I dun see the point for me to give up that..

But I know, rather than giving up I chosen a better way to forget..

HAHAAHAHAHA..

Done with my grumble session, comes to my recent busy stuffs..

The other friend of mine, getting married soon and she is more blur than me,

till now then start trying her bride gowns..

Luckily, she not that fussy after trying five suits she finally made a decision for three suits..

Who knows maybe this time round the bride's bouquet will not fall on me again,

however I will still pin hopes on it.. =P

Another SINGLE night party coming up, but I am weak in drinking WINE,

just hope wont embarrass myself and drunk again.. =P

It will be a special party, because guys and girls will be in the same venue celebrating together,

which is so different like normal SINGLE night party..

OK, it is been days for me to stop counting over the time..

But I just couldnt stop to think of it..

My 300th post... \(^O^)/ \(^O^)/

Tan Yi Qiang said, he will share with me the secret when the time is ripe,
and at the time being, he hope I wont think much and distrust him..
He apologized, because he dunno the secret he kept will let me notice so fast,
he gave me at least till Christmas then can notice his stranges behaviours,
who knows, I noticed it so soon..

Tan Yi Qiang, please remember you added another promise,
and this promise is meant for you, not me..
Either you did it or break it, your choice..
I will just wait and see what is your secret, but I hope my senses failed for this time..

Sometime, the most I refuse to think of, it will just throw on me,
but when I feel like thinking about it, the feelings are not that anymore..
If I am seeking for an answer, who should I turn to??
Then I know, even though I am full of hurts and tears, I still dun feel like giving up,
because once I give up, all my effort and beliefs will be dump into the drain and no way to be found..
However, how long can I still maintain this kind of thoughts??

他的镜框留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我 有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一(如果还有)遗憾 是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢

伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀 如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢

伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

What to do??
Just like this song, I am holding onto those beliefs or maybe silly thinking,
trying to deceive myself, one day my pain will recover by itself,
and I will not shed tears in front of him..

Tan Yi Qiang, dun forgive me..
Because I finally realised, the pain I given you is far too much than what you gave me..

My sixth sense seldom failed,
my methods of tricking words are up to standard too,
but the only thing I couldnt get the answer will be..
YOU ARE HIDING THINGS FROM ME!!!!

One of the promises we set before,
never gonna hide any secrets to each other..
But you didnt made it!!!!
I remember whenever I say this to you, your answer will always be..
"What you want to know again??"
So once I ask, you will tell me the answer I want..
However, you didnt do it this time round..

OK, I wont pester you over the thing but please,
if you need my help, please tell me!!!!
TAN YI QIANG, I am talking about you..
It is really hurting to see you so terrible and yet I couldnt do anything..