My 300th post... \(^O^)/ \(^O^)/

Tan Yi Qiang said, he will share with me the secret when the time is ripe,
and at the time being, he hope I wont think much and distrust him..
He apologized, because he dunno the secret he kept will let me notice so fast,
he gave me at least till Christmas then can notice his stranges behaviours,
who knows, I noticed it so soon..

Tan Yi Qiang, please remember you added another promise,
and this promise is meant for you, not me..
Either you did it or break it, your choice..
I will just wait and see what is your secret, but I hope my senses failed for this time..

Sometime, the most I refuse to think of, it will just throw on me,
but when I feel like thinking about it, the feelings are not that anymore..
If I am seeking for an answer, who should I turn to??
Then I know, even though I am full of hurts and tears, I still dun feel like giving up,
because once I give up, all my effort and beliefs will be dump into the drain and no way to be found..
However, how long can I still maintain this kind of thoughts??

他的镜框留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我 有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一(如果还有)遗憾 是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢

伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀 如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢

伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

What to do??
Just like this song, I am holding onto those beliefs or maybe silly thinking,
trying to deceive myself, one day my pain will recover by itself,
and I will not shed tears in front of him..

Tan Yi Qiang, dun forgive me..
Because I finally realised, the pain I given you is far too much than what you gave me..