should be working today,
but DUN HAVE!!!!!
freak.....
cos the change of rules or policies,
hotels hardly hired those unexperience people,
so... ii am one of them.....

ii bought shoes, the skirt, took passport size photo,
$18 + $12 +$8 = $38....
ii had a 'hongbao' on the trainin day, $20,
den ii worked for 8 and 1/2 hours,
$6/hour so ii will earn,
$48 + $3 + $20 = $71.....
end up, ii onlii earned $33....

tis might be the first time ii wanted to work willingly...
however... hope vanish....

ii realii can hope for something,

becos, whenever ii hope for somethin,

the thing will surely not belongs to mii....

ii realii thought everii thing can use hard work to achieve....

however, reality make mii face the crueliness...

it seems to see my failure....

and is true, ii realii face failure....

who makes my life to be like tat???

what makes it so???

overall... the person is mii myself....

ii decided to face the problems myself....

ignored everii one help,

however, ii overestimated myself!!!!

ii am not capable for all tis...

the onlii thing ii can do is....

SAY!!!!!

isnt it wat ii wan???

but why my heart seems so empty???

LIES, LIARS....

pls dun place my trust on the wrong place...

ii believe you,

so ii oso wanted you to believe mii....

oh ya...

yesterday, went to meet jessica and jordan...

ii drank a bottle of 'JIM BEAN' (coke)....

nothing much....

ii seems so alright....

and finally, the day came....

ii dun have the strength to cry or laugh...

walking back home, ii am juv thinking all the matters,

however....not a single tear was shed....

should ii get happii becos tis is wat ii wan DAPHNE to be???

or should ii actually get upset becos DAPHNE become like tat????

我不知道自己的笑容还能撑多久，

可是我知道，

就算我是笑脸迎人，

但是，心里其实并没有笑。。。

okiie...

TAN YIQIANG keep apologizing to mii....

at last, he used threatened....

he is so smart tat know ii will forgive him when he used tat way.....

wat more can ii sae????

YA.... den ii forgive him....

TAN YIQIANG....

ii onlii allow you to use it for few times,

or else, ii will do the same to you...

better watch out!!!!

=PPPPP

maybe is realii him,

tat let mii walk out the darkness step by step....

he is the ray of sunlight,

tat escort mii out my darkness world.....

darkness is not come from the surrounding,

it come from your heart...