If you are able to think the matter in a simpler way, it will naturally turn simple,

if you want the matter to be easier, all you need is just do in a easy way..

How I hope I can think and do in a simple and easy way, maybe by the time I wont be so depressed or upset over certain matters..

Firstly, just now I am not fully awake so my post is pretty short, now I want to shout!!!!

My dearest "HUBBY" is disfigured!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I couldnt imagine I had treat "him" so badly and let "him" hurt right in front of me,

tears about to roll down my cheeks, but I keep forcing it to stay within my eyes..

I seriously tried my best to save "him", using all sort of ways wanting to keep "him" alive, but "he" was still not saved.. *sob sob*

Even though I fall in love on the other "HUBBY" when I first saw "him", but there are plenty of memories with my current "HUBBY"!!!!!

I know miracles wont fall on me in this current status, but I hope there is other alternative..

My "HUBBY", my "LIFE", I can sacrifice everything to change the facts that "he" is disfigured..

Actually, this "HUBBY" is talking about my HANDPHONE!!!!!!!!!

My W980 is disfigured!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG, this handphone is part of DAPHNE NG's life, and it just gone case in front of me..

And yet I couldnt do anything to it, because I dun want to change a new phone,

there are so many precious memories inside for me to think of,

yesterday just place the SIM card over to Jessica's phone, both of us jitao emo lo!!!!

Cause our call list become empty, which means the calls we made, those calls we wanted to keep all gone!!!!!!!

How can I change my handphone when I have so many things inside??

And I decided to copy down all those messages I wanna keep, just in case any accidents will to happen again..

Then Jessica said, she not that hardworking like me to write down all the messages because she had over hundreds of messages, whereas I only had about 60plus..

But I know even though I have hundreds over messages, I will still copy everything down, because those were too important to me..

Secondly, I just dunno how to describe my feelings well enough like the past,

is like for now, I will get paranoid easily if there is any changes around him, in his life,

of course he has his circle of friends, I have no rights or status to ask him anything,

if one day, I got to know he agreed to be with other girls, I think my 'Happy-Go-Lucky' character will completely breakdown and looks like a zombie..

HAHHAHAHHAHHAHA..

Please scold me, say that I am too over-sensitive!!!!

I said before I will believe whatever he said, because this is the only way I can make my life be better, I dun want to lead my life with guessing or doubting,

therefore I got no choice but to believe him..

I didnt want to hope he will be with me as time goes by, because this is the most hurting part when the ending isnt what I desired or hoped..

Ultimately, I dunno how to work on it now, I know should continue since I had started it long ago, some more I must learn to face my heart sincerely instead letting my brain to conquer my heart and feelings..

If there is one day, I gotten better result I will further studies,

or if I have the ability to afford my expenses overseas, I will go overseas to study,

which this two dreams are really dreams when I am sleeping, despite I hate this kind of uselessness feelings but this are all the FACTS..

OK, I finished my post and going to write my diaries, because I haven write about yesterday..

And I am going to KBOX tomorrow!!!!!

HEHEHHEHEHEHE..

=DDDD

女孩终于发现自己和从前的不同，可是一切都来得太迟、太没意义了。

即便这样子的改变是好的，可是女孩已经失去了继续改变的原因，

所以她也就姑且放弃了改变的打算。

她曾经希望，敲开她心扉的男孩能带她离开可怕的黑暗世界，

可是她却忘记了祈祷，让这个男孩拥有足够的勇气，打败黑暗天使，再把她求出来。

所以到最后，男孩只能忍痛地看着女孩一点一滴埋没在黑暗里。。。