This might be just another old grandmother story, but how I hope it wasnt be told, I rather dunno anything it just screwed up my minor new year's feel..

It wasnt meant to be mine, but when everything linked together it ended up to be my business, nice linkage..

I faked a smile in the conversation, because I am not supposed to speak a word..

If it is really pre-destined, why couldnt it appear earlier??

Just two years earlier, and everything can be changed..

For now, my mentality keep telling me this

"DAPHNE, regardless how long you waited the ending still remains the same, it wont change as time goes by.. Just face the facts that it is YOU the one that dislike those people and STOP taking HIM as your excuse!!!!"

The uncertain feelings just turned my life upside down,

who to blame??

I know it must be me..

DAPHNE NG, no longer sensitive and smart enough to handle the matter well,

couldnt be as impulsive as I am a 12 years old girl..

YQ, I dun want this matter to be one of the reasons that you gave,

everything as per normal, are you sure you can do it too??

I am not confident on it, and I know you feels the same too..

What I asking for is just normal life, but nothing can be normal when we are trapped in such situation again and again..

When can it all stop and return my innocent??

SORRY~~~

I shouldnt choose such day to grumble, but I know after I typed out I must stop mentioning it anymore in real life..

I am afraid in my entire life I will live in a fantasy world and forget that I belong to reality,

however, I know reality wont let me go so easily,

I get hurt and pain before my happiness can come, but how much pain are there waiting for me??

YI QIANG,

I had stopped believing myself already, so I guess you can stop putting your trust on me too..

Because it will end up hurting more deeper..

You know the answer well, but please choose to blame me and not yourself..

Anyway, I hope at least just for another few more days, let us deceive ourselves and stop thinking of anything in these few days..

I dun want our emotions get tensed up..

=DDDD

*Did you feel the same way as me?*