Maybe it is really two different things seen by a guy's eyes or a girl's eyes,

but I thought it will be better if there is someone to give you some opinion instead of facing or deciding everything all alone??

This is not just one matter only, isnt that simple anymore..

I thought I have did enough to amend the guiltiness in your heart,

I thought my words still hold some power/impact to you,

I thought once again you will let things go by my way,

but all ended up, you broke my faith again..

Should I blame you??

I am confused too..

The bus journey really let me think through every single thing,

you want me to put myself in your shoes,

maybe I come from a normal family, couldnt understand what had you been suffering since young, so I am willing to understand what makes you turn till like this..

If whatever I said still cant change your mind,

then I choose to use other ways..

When everyone started to ask if you are my boyfriend, how should I explain??

I dun hope that one year come too soon, but after this incident I pray to let one year flies faster, if everything can return to normal after a year..

You said decision falls on me after all,

if I nod my head you will fly to the sky,

if I shake my head you will drag to the hell..

HEAVEN or HELL

我一直在想我到底是哪里做得不够好？

不止是你一直想填补那两年的空缺，我也在努力弥补所有对你的伤害。

可是，我似乎还是做得不够！

不够让你只想一心待在我身边，不去理会任何事。

所以，我决定让你去做你想做的事，

这是我唯一能支持你的方法。

"I PROMISE, one year later regardless what is your decision I will leave the place.. TRUST ME"

YEAH, if only I can convince myself to believe him again..

*bye-bye*