from the beginnin of the day...
ii alreadii dun feel good le....
the whole day in sch even more siianx....
ii wish to go home... =(
is so tiring and is like a torture to mii....
take a bus home today...
got the chance to tink things clearly... =(

den juv reached home....
my brother question mii wat happen to my hp???
den ii sae no batt...
so ii charged my hp and receive his msg....
keep sayin ii playin fun of him den called mii faster reply!!!!!!!
everii day come back and put my laptop for him....
den he still haf the face to rush mii back!!!!!!!!!!!

ii start to HATE myself!!!!!!!!!!
ii HATE myself of being so timid!!!!!!!!!!!!
ii HATE myself of doin things ii dislike and cannot haf anii grumbles!!!!!!!!!!
ii HATE myself of being a CLOWN always!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ii HATE myself of not contributing anii thing to my family!!!!!!!!!!!
ii HATE myself of being so healthy but too emotional!!!!!!!!!
more serious is tat ii even thought of harming myself!!!!!!!
so jia lat ba???
since when was the last time ii hurt myself????
dun worrii!!!!!
ii didnt do anii silly things..... =P

"I AM SORRII"
ii noe u wont like to hear these three words,
but other than sorrii... ii dunno wat can ii sae to you.....
ii was given a chance over and over again...
but ii hesitated....
becos ii hesitated, so ii need to suffer it by myself....
ii cant blame anii one for the outcome...
becos tis is wat ii muz face....

我很想成为能让你骄傲的伴侣，一个门当户对的对象。。
可是，以我的身世背景，我根本就是高攀不上。。
我很想自私地把你留在我身边。。
可是，拥有美好前途的你，我根本不能那么自私。。
我很想把自己的胡思乱想给抛开。。。
可是，问题还是会出现在我眼前。。

ii onlii noe the meanin without applyin it...
ii noe we shld cherish my loved ones before they leave....
or else ii will regret....
ii had regretted it before so ii dun to haf anii regret anii more...
ii can onlii console others, but not using on myself....
so ii noe the best way to get myself out...
is to take everii thing easy....
ii m too overestimate myself...
ii thought ii wont haf tears to cry....
but ii still manage to cry wif tears...

*ii juv wan to be ordinary gal... leading a simple and happii life... ii will tried my best to achieve wat ii wan...*