ii m given a chance...
a chance tat able to stay beside calvin again....
but ii rejected....
he come from a rich family,
father is a businessman
mother is a designer....
becos is the eldest, so he need to take up his father business....
ii thought ii m able to walk on,
but ii realize tis was hard...
we belongs to two different worlds....
u might walk out of ur world but ii m unable to walk in to ur world...
tis is reality.... ii faced it...

a answer u wanted was given....
"NO"....
ii did ask myself time and time....
m ii suitable for u???
bad character, not pretty, poor.... ii haf so manii bad points!!!
wat make u insist on mii???
ur mother words was too harsh but real....
u can sae tis was a excuse...
but do u noe how much effort ii put in order to forgot the pain???
真的要爱过，才知道痛吗？？？

another changes happened...
juv after calvin went to italy....
11~06~08
ii was confused abt my feelings durin tat time bein....
finally when ii play a prank on jacob, ii found the feelings....
however... he dun believe....
got a serious reject on 22~06~08....
ii was wif yi qiang the previous day, so ii stay over at his hse....
ii woke up becos of jacob msg...
he asked mii to call him when ii called he sae talk later, so ii waited...
*msg*
jacob: "i just wan to tell you let be good fren can cause i dont wan to hurt someone tat is good i scare so sorry ya."
mii: "but ii cannot lehx... ii can tel u tat last time ii dunno wat is like de feelin but when ii play a prank tat time den ii haf tis kind feelin... quite funnii but is true... ii oso dunn wan to get hurt too..."
no reply from him.... until ii msg him again tellin him ii was onlii kiddin....
he reply back in tat moment sae "its okay"....
ridiculous!!!
a hug and console was given by yi qiang....
ii haf been cryin for him...

finally a day, yi qiang got frustrated, he mentioned jacob again...
yi qiang: " u haf been 'cold-blooded' recently..."
mii: "did ii?? ii dun tink so, are u too sensitive??"
yi qiang: "u haf not been like tis, even becos of calvin... but nw becos of a guy tat dun like u, do u tink is worth it??"
mii: "can u dun mention him??"
yi qiang: "stay happii and ii will not sae anii thin..."
mii: "ii dun wish to see myself like tat too!! but wat can ii do???" (screamed wif tears)
yi qiang: "okiie!!! ii stop sayin!!! sorrii!!"

everii one leave mii...
first was david nw is calvin.... will yi qiang leave mii too???
a weddin was held at xxxx(ii dunno where)...
a confession was told...
ii afraid even u will leave mii....
so ii avoid....
a choice tat u wan mii to make... can anii one tell mii wat to do???

sorrii... ii decided to stay!!
a promise was made by u... Tan Yi Qiang!!!!
be back on 29~02~2012
in the meanwhile, u wont come back to find mii....
a puinshment tat given to mii...
这是我的选择！对不起！！

*ii would like to tell u, the story tat ii writin nw, the title is mention abt u...爱你的话都在这里...
因为想爱，却不能爱！所以，就让我们停止吧*