yesterday oso dunno why....
moody again...
if start to countdown from today...
still got 14 more days he will come back for reservice...
tat oso means ii still got around 5 weeks to think through...
but is five weeks enough for mii???

jessica...
wan to noe wat happen iziit???
now roughly tell u lo...
rmb my previous post ii sae ii overheard his conversation wif calvin...
somehow his father want him to do somethin...
but he didnt mention it to calvin so ii dunno wat his father wan him to do....
when ii ask him anii thin happened in canada he sae nothin much onlii business deals all tis...
ii realii hate my sensitiviness tat time...
everii time sae ii verii clever de, so clever until nw mii so puzzled...
haiix...

ii noe u hope to get at least a definite answer from mii...
"ii love u"
wat does love means??
ii m so confused tat ii even dun dare to boost my courage and admit it...
everii one tell mii, my love is beside mii...
grab it before it leave mii again...
but do they noe???
not ii choose not to grab the chance...
is ii dun haf the courage and ii cant...
ii can onlii wait till my mind is not tat clear and clever to tink all those stupid thoughts...

tears drop for u or for my useless???
becos ii m confused of my own feelin so ii dun even haf the courage to accept anii thin...
the onlii thin u gave mii was the ring....
u ask mii to keep it...
either return if ii realii sort out my feelin or
accept it and ask u to put on for mii....

ii juv wan a simple relationship...
wif no other obstacles in front of mii....
why can u be a normal guy??
u told mii u oso hope to be a ordinary person...
but life is fated cant be hated....
ii dun trust fate too!!!!
当我越不相信时，命运好像都会把我拉回现实。。