ytd didnt update cos nothin much to sae...
verii normal... go sch, go home den watch tv... too general le... =)
but tis few days got chat wif manyu...
she haven get over from tat bad guy...
ii tink ii haf no right to criticize him even though ii cant tolerate his behaviours...
but tis is not wat ii wan to mention abt...


wat happen on manyu was somehow similar to my situation...
when manyu sae she cant get over and cant forget tat bad guy,
ii noe we shld ask her dun be silly and wake up fast...
but if realii tat easy to forget den no point to fall in love in the beginnin....
always onlii noe how to sae but when we realii want to do it,
we cant pull ourselves out and do it as wat we tink...


bear wif mii of usin chinese... =P
我很想相信，人定胜天！
可是，当我每次不想埋怨时，绝望又把我丢进泥沼。。
只要不埋怨，满足地过生活，就能更快乐吗？
但是，我尝试过了。。
最后，还是失败啊！！
所以，我不相信了！！

ii start thinkin of the problem le...
but the more ii tink,
the more negative thoughts ii haf...
ii tried to tink of the positive things...
but ii cant confirm how far can ii go now...
ii juv hope tat everii thing can end soon prefectly...


ii actually able to sort out some thoughts...
jacob is not the one anii more...
ii admit he was like fightin wif yi qiang in my mind nowadays la...
yi qiang was there for mii whenever ii need him...
however, becos ii didnt notice him much,
so ii ii didnt realize he was the same as calvin and david...
ii finally remember and figure out why ii and jacob wont get together...
he did asked mii out for movie but ii miss the chance...
can ii sae becos of tis opportunity we unable to walk together???
can tis consider FATE?? or was juv a COINCIDENCE???
2002~11~17
calculate from the date to now,
now is the 6th year....
TIME realii take place....
ii will remember ur onlii sweet words tat said to mii...
"我们认识这么久了，就算你对自己的外表没有信心，
但是我们都在一起这么久了。你美的时候，我也看过，你没自信时我也看过。
所以，对我来说。你的外表一点都不重要！！
在我眼里，你一直都很好看"
ii told manyu not to kanna sweet talk by tat bad guy anii more...
but now... ii actually happii of listenin those sweet words and remember it so well...
ii muz be realii crazy.... ;'(

nowadays ii told everii one u are my finace, my boyfriend...
but those tat noe will sae...
since ii treat u as my finace subconsciously den why dun ii juv treat u as my finace reality??
you treat mii so nice,
nice untill ii cant feel the reality....
ii noe ii haf been thinkin too much...
why ii start thinkin the lost when ii actually dunno if ii can haf it???

淡水7度C。。。
a nice book tat ii had read over and over again...
the story juv seems exactly the same as mii now...
is the endin tat made mii puzzled or confused again...
go read it if u happen to see tis book...

*yi qiang... ii noe how it feel when the person u like didnt treat u back the same...
自己的心上人，心里却是住着另一个人。。这很辛苦。。而当自己的心上人，其实和自己一样，都得不到心上人的心时。。这个时候，是最无奈也是最痛苦的。。*

ii dun wanna see the person beside mii sufferin the same as mii....
but ii m the one tat let him suffer!!!!
how EVIL can ii m??? ;'(