FRIDAY....
went back to secondary school for the teachers' day celebration...
no teachers for us to look lo....
so loiter around the school,
den decided to go amk play pool...
wait for janice at point,
den proceed to amk....

we should be meetin jordan after playin and catch up wif old friends....
so we rejected invitation and waited for jordan at amk....
around 7plus, jordan called and said he is verii tired and wanted to go home rest....
of cos at first ii thought was becos of ii told him tat,
yilik might join us and ii might be meetin manyu at late niitex...
of cos, tis were wat ii thought...
so ii asked jordan, but he said 'no' cos he was realii tired....
okiie....
ii and jessica had nothin much to sae....
we tink tat jordan got somethin on or happened,
but since he insisted tat nothin, den we haf no point chasing him for anii unreal answer....
however.... we were still furious!!!!!

这是我的一次被‘放飞机’，
最过分的，也只是让我等而已。。。
真的被‘放飞机’，应该是这一次吧？？？
从前都是我让人等我，
我也不介意等人，
可是现在却‘放飞机’！！！

ii keep on saying tat he might be realii tired,
tis was oso how ii comfort jessica...
however....
we felt tat we are FOOL again!!!!!
we even skipped our meal wif the reason of,
meetin jordan later, den eat wif him lo....
both mii and jessica haf gastric problem,
not blaming jordan, but blamin ourselves!!!!!!
since we decided not to eat and wait for jordan,
den we haf no rights to put the blame on him!!!!
‘我又没有叫你等我，你们可以吃的吗！’
correct!!!!
we were not told to wait for him,
so wat for wait for him????

‘因为我们了解你吗！知道你会这样讲。’
但是，既然我们了解你，
为什么我们分不清楚，
你是真的累了，还是不想来呢？？

ii dun wan to be a HYPOCRITE anii more....
it is so FAKE!!!!!
act if ii like you, but actually gossipin or thinkin differently behind ur back....
so ii wan everii thing to be CLEAR!!!!
dun wan anii LIES!!!

called and ask manyu comin out anot???
at last she able to sneak out....
and ii saw the guy tat jio her....
and coincidencely, he is at my brother's secondary school,
and he oso noe my brother.....
he said past time will eat together durin recess time.....
can ask my brother about it,
see my brother still remember ma....=D

and ryan came down to find us....=P
so play cards, chit chat....
den manyu called anson,
and ii decided to ask anson wat ii intend to ask when ii saw him....
plannin to ask face toface de,
but cant tahan, so manyu on loudspeaker, and let mii ask....
ii asked anson:
'iziit he dislike mii and jessica?'
'do he tink mii and jessica verii irritating?'
'do he tink ii am verii shameless?'
of cos!!!!
get an expected answer....
'NO'
at last, ii dunno wat to sae and ii tink tat ii am like a 'ah lian',
so jessica helped mii finish it....
we wanted anson to speak out openly if he haf anii thoughts....

我知道明明你在说实话，
却别人都认为你在骗他们！！！
所以，现在如果没人打算说出心里话，
我也不会多问！！！
因为，这真的会让我变得很不要脸！！！
我想一切老老实实地说出来，
不想伪装自己，
可是。。。面具一旦戴上了，
就脱不下来了！！！

TAN YIQIANG.....
manyu finally said somethin right today,
she said, ii turned weird after ur leave....
YUP!!!!!
ii agreed....
started to tink of negative things again.....
tink of why dun ii haf a suitable shoulder for mii to lean on???
tink of why ii am always giving in to others???
tink of why do ii so rational but emotional????
without you, it seems like a miserable and cruel world to mii.....

okiie....
dun hope to see myself start grumbling again....
if not, ii dunno will ii haf the strength or courage to stand on feet again.....