I AM FEAR OF "LOVE"

&

"MARRIAGE"

even though my parents werent a failure marriage,

even though ii isnt married now,

even though ii am still young....

however, ii seen too much till myself hold "PHOBIA" on it....

ii always can see people falling into the trap of "LOVE",

they are able to get it at that moment, but not further on....

"追不到，永远最吸引人"

in a relationship, regardless guy or girl,

they get attracted by those not beside them....

"外面的，永远比家里的好"

in a marriage, man normally get attracted by those outside women,

therefore, men tat married will stay outside rather than at home....

however....

there is always an exception!!!!!

"但是，却是‘可遇不可求’的"

seen through too much thing tat made mii feel in this way.....

at the past, ii always thought ii wont have anii changes....

however, when there are too manii things happened out of a sudden,

ii think ii should change in order to follow up the steps....

but, if ii change, ii wont be "DAPHNE" anii more!!!!

isnt happiness need to pursue by ourselves??

so when ii find someone ii like,

ii will intend to confess and ask if he feel the same way to mii...

but wat do ii get in the end???

despise, rejection, criticize, tears, sadness!!!!

whatever ii believe, end up to be those tat hurt mii so deeply....

therefore make myself so terrible now???

you are afraid of how people think of us,

but why dun you afraid how people think of you and her??

you told mii tat you treat "" as sister???

but you didnt mean wat you sae!!!!

ii shouldnt be venting my anger over here,

cos it wasnt my business anii more....

ii wont blame anii one,

as ii know when people come to the situations,

they will react in this way....

jus becos ii understand,

so ii am able to pull myself out tat situation....

but pls dun overboard it....

SHAWN was in hospital....

酒精中毒....

he realii drank alot tat suddenly fainted and face turn purple....

okiie, ii wasnt with him yesterday,

so this were wat his friends told mii.....

den went to visit him yesterday,

but go there was like ii am a maid lo....

need help him take this and that,

went to his house and took his laptop for him,

as he will be there for 4 days....

he was screaming for the whole day,

today is his second day of him staying there....

ii didnt shed a single tear,

ii am puzzled too....

finally ii know crying couldnt solve problems.....

it will onlii increase sorrows....

so ii wont cry for it anii more,

becos it onlii show how weak ii am,

and receive sympathy from people who doesnt mean it....

there are alot of FAKER and HYPOCRITES in this world,

onlii ownself could determine own....

regardless how bad others speak,

if you dun tink it in that way,

you will feel better....=DD

optimistic or pessimistic,

it depend to how you wan to lead your life as...

*ii will STOP placing hopes and thoughts on YOU, becos YOU had HURT mii badly AGAIN*

你能找到理由伤心，

也一定能找到理由快乐。。。

不看会让你落泪的东西，

你也就不会落泪。。。

转过身，闭上眼，

也就拒绝了伤心。。。