APRIL FOOL DAY~~~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to CALVIN AND DAVID~~~


I should be feeling upset like how it happened the past few years,
despite I felt emo frequently this few days, but I had just learn to resist this sadness..
Of course the piercing pain still exist, but surprisingly it isnt hurting that deep now..
I had improved??
=DDDDDD

I made a promise to him before,
whenever I have any problems, whenever I feel like crying,
must think of him and all such of funny pattern he came out just to make me smile,
so now, I can smile because the memories are with me..
=DDDDDD

I had tried for six years,
carrying the belief and live in guilt for six years,
this will be the last year I gonna have with this belief, after that I will only treat it as my best memories ever after..
Please, dun blame me, forgive me of being so selfish..
I didnt forget, just choose to bury it deep into my heart..
So dun feel upset seeing me not mentioning you anymore, I am bleeding inside my heart..

I will stop thinking that I am JINX whom caused your death,
wont blame myself of being so childish crying over a pooh bear that couldnt be found anymore,
will stop whatever bad comments I told myself in these six years,
if it will make you happier, I will do it..

Make a bet with you??
If I am able to get the pooh bear as my present this year, I mention you everytime and visit you every month,
so if you want to see me often, grant my wish..
=DDDDDD

每个女孩身边，都会有个男孩守护着她。

男孩不习惯把话说出口，只要能静静地看着女孩、陪着女孩，

他就心满意足了。

可是，女孩一直都在寻找那遥不可及的恋爱，

却忘记看看身边的人，

所以，她失去了最宝贵的人。