SORRY~~~~

I know you wont blame me, but please accept my apology, I beg you..

I really made a grave mistake today, I cant even forgive myself thus it wont be forgotten too..

I dunno if it will still continue, but I hope whatever I did will not hurt anyone again..

When the clock strike 12 yesterday, I am on my way down to YQ's house,

watching the digital clock going minute by minute, my heart went up and down till it hits 12 I finally realised the time was here..

YQ looked at me and smiled, but I took out my handphone and looking at the pictures,

it was tough and I had been through for so long..

What should I do??

Till 3plus then I finally able to sleep down but woke up at 5.45am this morning, naturally just wake up, YQ didnt disturb me and no alarm clock ringing..

I sat at the living room for more than an hour before YQ woke up too and off we go for breakfast, the most crucial part came..

This was also the thing I had been planning and keep silent, I dunno how to tell too..

I was at Changi Airport at the time of 9.30am this morning, the first flight that came was at 10.15am and was going over to Taiwan..

I spent my time sitting at T3, heard the announcements, watched the flights time, and think about my decision..

In total, I had missed 7 flights..

To Taiwan, to Japan, to Korea, to Australia..

YEAH, I planned to leave without a word..

I know this thought is bad, therefore I am here to apologise despite I knew hurt had already formed..

YQ was happy when he first heard this plan, but deep in heart he knew, I could never get over my heart, he just followed whatever I said..

SORRY, please forgive me~~~~

He didnt blame me, just simply accompanied me and keep asking me to relax..

I wanted to call my sisters and friends, he said better not since I haven make any decisions yet, what if at last I didnt want to do anything??

YEAH, he spotted on!!!!

I really didnt do anything..

WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I DONE??

I HURT SOMEONE THAT I CHERISHED THE MOST!!!!

PLEASE SENT ME DOWN TO HELL OR SOMEWHERE EXCEPT HERE..

I DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHTS TO DO SUCH THINGS ON ANYONE!!!

PLEASE PUNISH ME!!!!!

‘离开’不属于我们。

‘相守’太遥不可及。

八年前，你的出现变成了我人生中第三个男人。

三年前，你的告白让我明白原来‘爱’可以感动一切。

现在，我们应该找回失去的勇气来面对这一切，

当初我能放手让你走，现在就不该摇摆不定。

就让彼此冷静地想想，未来的路是不是非得要对方才是完成的。

*no promise but not now*