“我想不要了！”

“妳不會這樣的，小事還能狠心，大事妳就不會了。”

TRUE enough, because I am still not cruel enough so I gonna suffer without any help..

YQ said, if one day I choose to leave everything alone that will be the day I become another DAPHNE but he guess no one will like this DAPHNE, because she is too heartless..

Really almost breakdown, while I choose to stay alone without any accompany despite I know all friends are worried over me, but still ignore them..

By the time I returned to them, I am the happy and crazy DAPHNE, but that is not real..

YQ told me before, if one day I really very tired over my life already can tell him, cause he will come and pick me up..

Nowadays, I must say I seriously thinking about this..

I thought my answer already very clear, NO means NO,

but really couldnt let the words take over my mind so early, cause there is always changes and now it happened on me..

It is so strange, how can I think of it so easily when the decision involved other more factors??

Please tell me that I am an evil woman, NO should be jinx!!!!

One day, when I harm everyone then I will realised how bad am I..

Even YQ didnt know that, I missed the chance to say the most important thing..

Lots and lots of things happened,

I felt lost, painful, tired..

But there is no one that can give me an answer, can I run away??

"GIVE UP" shouldnt belongs to me, because that dun fit my character,

however when my character brought me all such of troubles, why couldnt I defy it for once??

Human is selfish, I always said so but I couldnt do till such extent..

Because there is no way for me to do so, when I treat everything so important to me,

but others wont think the same as me, this must be the most hurting part,

when there is no balance in between..

Something might not need return, but just a slight appreciation will do..

People even stingy over giving an appreciation..

成熟的代價或許就是更多的煩惱吧？

即使擁有了高超的理智，到最後還是輸給了一個‘心’字。

蛻變成了大人，失去了任性的勇氣而獲得了成熟，那是否是件好事呢？

或許自己不該在那麽小時就懂那麽多事，

當同年的朋友都還是情竇初開時，已經知道什麽是‘放棄’的我，付出了慘痛的代價。

那段抹不去，躲不掉的記憶，造就了如此個性的我。

但是，讓我最不解的是爲什麽自己無法改掉這樣的‘性格’呢？

可能是我沒有勇氣吧。。。

*I cried, but soon to act again*