06/03/2009 ~~~~~ 06/03/2010

One year passed, nothing change still remain the same like the first time we interacted..

I gave my best, no matter was it my confession or to act as though I dun care and no longer liking you, whatever should said or not to say, I didnt kept it in heart..

Does it hurt you??
I guess the answer must be YES, because I am just too stubborn..

SORRY~~~

I hate to apologize over something I did wrong, in the first place everything can choose not to be happened, but I didnt prevent it..

So, SORRY~~~

How many one year could I still record??

I am so curious over things that I couldnt get an answer either, I will rather stay silent than speaking aloud, maybe this is not my character but I know it is better for us..

Misunderstanding, arguments, hatred, guilty, sorrows, memories,

what have still left for us??

The sentence I said before really impacted me till now,

I guess you didnt forget too, or you choose not to remember??

Will be there be once, you can face me by your real heart, tell me what your heart really feels??

女孩擁有一切的勇氣，唯獨沒有能等待著男孩回頭的勇氣。她甚至在想，當所有的勇氣都被男孩搾干的時候，自己是不是才會對男孩死心？

因爲一次又一次的失敗，讓女孩一點一滴地了解到，自己的愛對男孩而言其實是种負擔。
可能沒有了她，男孩才能更放心地去追求自己想要的，毫不猶豫的。

當女孩抛棄了疼痛的真心，而換上了虛榮的面具時，她也已經決定了，不當個處處為別人着想的天使，而是躲在黑暗裏的惡魔，隨時隨地傷害別人。

這個時候，反倒是男孩開始尋找女孩的蹤影，因爲他思念著那個一路陪著他的傻瓜，可是他卻完全忘了，自己是怎麽一點點地把女孩逼上了絕路，讓女孩出賣了自己的真心換取顆冰凍的心。

曾經女孩是個傻瓜，一個爲了捍衛自己的愛情而賠上一切的傻瓜，如今眼前的女孩，她埋葬了自己的記憶，只留下惡毒的心，傷害所有對她不好的人。

If one day I choose to put down everything and leave this place, will you then realised how much this relationship hurt us??

It hurts till I am willing to give up what I most cherish to exchange a peaceful life..

What I want, is just a simple request.....

或許我應該想想這一份追逐已久的愛情，真的是我要的嗎？

一廂情願的愛情，真的能開花結果嗎？

當我自己都開始懷疑當初的判斷時，或許這就是終結了吧？

一直握著相信的我，可能真的已經走到盡頭了，

在那盡頭，我看見了我們的身影，

它正在告誡我，一切都是我捏造出來的假象，真的可以結束了。

In that cold and quiet night, a decision was made..

I vowed not to give up, but "up to you" was your reply, therefore no other choice I had to respect your decision..

We are best actors after all, we kept our true feelings and fake another 'us' in front of each other, just to maintain everything not to cross over the line anymore..

So I dislike of being someone who is defying own true heart, but no choice I must do it if not it will be another strange-like situation again..

It is hurtful, till now..

But I had to endure it, because there is no way for me to escape..

Harsh reality came after fantasy dream,

I had a great dream, and I am contented..