I guess if the time is correct, in a few hours time it will marked a first year in this date..

I am still wide awake, not sure waiting for what but I know not waiting for the time to strike, because I also just realized it not long ago,

that is why I came blogging instead of watching my shows..

I didnt brought out my diary, just rely on my weak memory to recall the scene one year ago,

really March became to the month that I recorded so much stuff, silly stuff..

Jessica taught me something very long ago, dun need to write every single thing on blog because the outcome will not be what you want..

YEAH, I know..

I tried it once and the result really hurt me like hell..

Actually, I am not the one that let it go, it was I have no other choice but stop thinking of it..

Get over??

I guess I did it, but it marked a symbol in my heart,

get rid of it??

How I hope it can be done without a single word said, but too bad it is not granted..

=DDDDDD

I am still sober enough to know I shouldnt be thinking all these,

it is freaking true that when you determined to do something, it must be done in silent,

I guess I am right now in such situation..

Because I decided to shut my mouth up before everything is finalized..

Not going to talk or hint anything about it..

I am being asked not just once, but times that even I will think it had become part of me,

"is there any possibility that you going to restart your life?"

I guess so, NO should be I am looking for one..

When will it be found, not sure yet..

=DDDD

I must forget first before stepping forward, though I feel reluctant in moving on but I feel even more tired or holding on..

No ending point till I meet the worst, but ending point is looking for when I released all my troubles..

It might just hurt a little comparing to the deeper pain after all, therefore endure through this little hurt, future might be better..

女孩已经不会再把男孩挂在嘴边了，

因为那并不会改变任何实事。

她只希望老天赋予她再说一次的勇气，

最后一次，女孩好想不顾旁人，好好地再爱一次。

I couldnt find it, I lost it..

Just like how I lost to destiny, bow to my destiny, plead for a tiny little wish..

Devil didnt grant me, because I still wandering around aimlessly..

Please, let it belongs to me and I promise to do whatever you said..

It is just a minor wish I hoped for more than six years, but miracle didnt happen, not even once..