Firstly, my music corner have some problems, and it is not working made me super duper fed up now!!!

Even YQ also dunno what to do, so I gave up, and those stupid videos encounter problems too, so I couldnt watch shows from the website must search from YOUTUBE..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~

Secondly, all thanks to YQ because he didnt want to drive down to VIVO city due to the heavy traffic and long waiting time for carpark lots, so I couldnt bought the vinegar I want from DAISO and then I am angry too..

Therefore, in YQ's opinion I am going to look older before my birthday comes..

YEAH, because I had been throwing temper this few days, alot alot of times..

=DDDDDDD

Universal Studio in Singapore..

I wanna go but the entrance fee is so "attractive", even though YQ said going to treat me on my birthday, but doubt I will go cause most of the facilities not suitable for me..

Over exciting, over scary, over childish, over attractive..

Everything all OVER, therefore I am not suppose to be there..

=DDDDDD

"This is not the way it should be, there sure be other ways for us to choose.."

When I breakdown in front of YQ few days back, he told me this and console me throughout, super complicated feelings that day..

At his house, friends outside going crazy I alone in his room,

reading our story that I sent him, nevertheless the flashbacks appeared..

Look look look, read read read,

maybe this was why I cried, unconsciously but truly..

April Fool around the corner, means my birthday coming too, grow older

I guess I have alternate feelings, meaning??

Last year I still didnt feel much about that incident, but why this year the feelings come closer and closer, deeper and deeper??

Dun wish to see myself trap in the past so much, so after crying feel alot better..

=DDDDDD

This few days often reach home pretty late or even didnt go home, stay overnight at YQ's house because he seems to be very free now, so I keep him accompany, dunno why but I just do it..

Maybe I just afraid our time is not enough, therefore I turned so emotional too..

He treated me very well, just to secure my heart which I desire for long, but I also know this wont last any longer..

Anyway, just wanna blog..

Cause today is the 22nd, YEAH so fast till in the afternoon after calling him then I realised today is the 22nd..

As usual, he do remember but didnt want to remind me just asked me to fork time out,

no wonder he cooked today and there is no one at home when I reached..

32nd month, I didnt know it can be so long till I counted it,

how many more 32 months can we been through??

So, HAPPY 32nd month~~~ ^_^

我的残忍，永远都输给你的痴心。

你的不忍，永远都输给我的执著。

但是我们，永远都输给现实、命运。