this few days realii didnt had much things to talk about....

ii am still leading my life greatly,

with my accompany of friends and "him"????

[28th Dec 2008]

everii moment ii couldnt stop myself to tink of 'Tan YiQiang'.....

especially after he told mii the news,

January, 17.....

ii thought everii thing will come to the end,

but human are always selfish,

ii desire more than before.....

how ii hope he wasnt in overseas and is with mii???

however....timeless love wont turn back....

regardless how much regrets ii hold,

reality is still cruel....

shouldnt come here and grumble too much,

cos Shawn is worrying about mii....

however, the more he care,

the more ii hope he will stay by my side....

but he couldnt make it....

so no point pestering him....

Shawn drunk himself again....

and this time round,

he realii told mii a verii SHOCK news....

it realii shocked mii,

but ii believe, ii wont ask him anii thing much....

wait till the day he will tell mii in sober....

Shawn, saw this post go recall yourself ba...=DD

dun need rush yourself,

ii can wait, ii oso believe you can wait....

this kind of things, even if it was mii,

ii oso dunno how to put it in words.....

too complicated for mii to understand,

you must be thinking this right???

so take your time....

Shawn Tan...

爱情到底给了我什么？？

是你对我的疼爱，

你对我的关心，

你为我付出的，

你给我的爱？？？

不明不白，就这样陷入爱情里，

却因为害怕爱情带来的伤害。。。

*想太多了*

woke up early at 10am,

where Shawn was not beside,

as he went to buy breakfast for mii....=PPP

okiie...

today going cordelia house for christmas party??

belated de lo....

went home to bath den go buy present....

for the first time ii persuade Shawn for long,

and he agreed to go with mii!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAH!!!!

he agreed to accompany down to meet xiujing and dears,

den later meet jessica....

so we went to search for present....

Shawn bought mii 'twilight' and 'new moon' for my christmas present,

where the other two series not in stock....

so not sincere,

juv told mii wanna go toilet actually went to buy,

somemore price tag oso not torn yet....

okiie...

is the thought tat counts....

thanks, Shawn...

SING NING dear,

dun angrii lo..... =)

ii give you as belated present???

sorrii sorrii.....

the verii first time ii made myself embarrassed at the bus stop....

SHAWN TAN!!!!!

BIG FAT LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!!

just a call and a 'sorrii',

ii realii is being deceived from young de lo....

shouldnt believe you in the first place....

told xiujing and her boi,

they also dun believe so early will got 'problems'???

FAKER....

and somemore you didnt give mii a single call???

ahhhhhhhhhhhh.... >_<

took train back home,

alight at yio chu kang,

received my mother's call, told mii tat my friend is waiting at my house downstairs....

Shawn had been there for few hours.....

saw him finish drinking 3bottle of 'BECKS",

ii am verii angrii, somemore after he explained...

it wasnt his 'brothers' tat got problem,

was tat girl... JENNIFER...

she drunk herself at home and called her friend,

den her friend called Shawn...

long old grandmother stories....

should sae ii believe wat Shawn said,

or ii believe in my instincts???

regardless this explanation is too ridiculous,

ii still willing to believe???

this will be wat ii told Shawn,

dun even give mii empty promises,

and ii will not ask you to join mii for anii of my friends activites....

我相信并不代表我不会怀疑，

相对的，如果你要说谎骗我，

那我请你现在可以离开了。。。

因为我可能被你骗第一次，

却不可能被骗第二次。。。

*he know his mistakes*

*do you tink is important to hold trust on someone??*

[26th Dec 2008]

despite ii slept early yesterday night,

ii still miss the time of meetin Shawn... =PP

it was said by Shawn: "4am wasnt early if you wan to wake up at 9am the next morning"

=PPPP

at least ii wasnt late till too much,

Shawn juv waited for mii about, 1hour????

ii knew he verii tired, still need come over to fetch mii,

so ii treat him eat breakfast,

but he paid!!!!

hahahahhahax.....=DDD

he verii 'da nan ren' wan,

everii thing muz paid by him,

even if the gift is meant to give my friend,

he will oso wan to pay.....

*siiao*

thought he verii rich??!!

(Shawn said:YUP, ii realii quite wealthy..)

back to chalet,

reached there at around 1 plus,

but no one inside the room,

as they go out to the beach.....

which left the bungalow room empty onlii the two of us.....

Shawn is sleeping on a bed upstairs,

so my bags are placed upstairs....

when two persons,

look into each other eyes,

and ii could even see myself in his brown eyes....

okiie...

too overboard le!!!!

at last, one of his friend came in,

therefore, as usual....

we didnt do anii thing over!!!!

lol....

Shawn was too 'angrii',

and keep hit his friend....

stay in the room till everii one came back,

den played mahjong....

ii won around $20plus for Shawn,

ii sat to play but was Shawn the one who guide mii.....

another to sae was,

there is a couple kept themselve in the toilet for more than 1hour.....

okiie....

ii dunno wat they are doing,

but luckily upstairs still got toilet,

if not, my bladder might burst!!!!! =PPP

at night, bbq started....

until around 12plus,

manii people went in to the room le....

but ii dun feel like going back,

so asked Shawn bring mii to the beach....

took a stroll on the beach,

and it realii feels good!!!!

settled down after a 5mins stroll.......

ii asked Shawn a verii stupid question,

"will you ever leave for mii?"

however.... his answer was still the same....

it made mii thought of how YiQiang asked mii,

the same question, different venue.....

history repeat itself....

no matter how hard ii tried to stop it,

it is still useless....

went back to the room,

ii wasnt exhausted, so read my novel....

when Shawn playing play station with his friends....

finish reading my novel,

juv the right time Shawn came up....

YUP...

both of us sleeping in the 'same bed'.....

with his arms as my pillow,

with his voice as my lullaby,

with his warm as my blanket....

ii juv hope to cherish tat moment,

becos ii am afraid,

things will not be going on my way.....

*at least, ii am willing to be with you for this moment..*

Christmas Eve....
went to jason's house,
played mahjong, drink, eat....
and ii indirectly 'sabo' jessica and her boi quarrel....
totally feel so uneasy tat day after mii finish drinking,
around 10 glasses of chivas and vodka???
hahahhaahax....
till the next day,
meet out with jordan,
my stomach oso damn uneasy de....

Christmas Day....
while Shawn was in the chalet,
ii am waiting for jordan alone in hub....
he was extremely LATE,
somemore my stomach feel so uneasy,
almost called him and scold him lo....
went to watch Twilight, a verii nice movie!!!!!!!!!!
might be watching it another time with Shawn???
as ii promised him to watch with him....=P

ii cant upload photos,
so this post will be all words....
haiix.....
jordan bought mii Christmas present,
but ii didnt bought his...=PP
somemore, ii oso haven bought xiujing dears, de present....
OMG!!!!
too packed at orchard,
den tml goin chalet.....
will pass them as Belated present....=(

went to eat steamboat with jordan,
den walked him to my house de bus stop...
we missed around 5 buses,
but photos couldnt upload.... =.=
lousy blogger!!!!!

need to go sleep le...
if not tml Shawn will wait for mii till hell....
(even though he used to it)
xiujing dear, Shawn knew you asked mii to wait for happiness,
he thought tat person is him....
so made him verii happii,
knowing tat someone around mii supporting him....
*BHB* ba????=DD

*thanks everii one tat stood by my side....
always remember you guys...=DDD*

HAPPII CHRISTMAS EVE.....=DDD

wat did ii receive from this early morning???

a "surprise" from Shawn......

should be goin home to take a nap before heading down to changi for his next chalet,

he came over to my house.....

reason is.....just to greet mii christmas eve......

OMG!!!!!

even though ii know he meant good and this is 'sweet'????

ii dunno how to explain the relationship between the two of us...

is it 'couple' or just basically 'hidden love'????

Shawn is now bathing in my house,

trying to persuade him accompany mii and jessica down marina square,

but his attitude was too firm......

ii got his meaning of socializing with my friends and his friends,

both are different as if he will to choose,

he will rather socialize with my poly friends......

why????

ii oso not sure.....

he didnt sae much, ii oso lazy to ask....

anii way, ii know he wont socialize with both side of my friends.....

Shawn is so duper happii to see,

xiujing dear talking about him.....

*vomit*

is becos of mii, so my dear den will talk about you lo.....

if not, who know "who are you"?????

*BHB*

should be thankful to mii.....

heard it, Shawn Tan??? =DDD

how fool a person could be????

OMG!!!!

ii couldnt image tat she actually act so close with this guy,

and still got the face to sae mii???

haiix.....

even though she know this guy like her since long ago,

she still act so close but without giving him a name???

Shawn, ii doubt you dunno who am ii talking!!!!

if she happen to ask you anii thing,

just tell her, "NONE OF HER BUSINESS"

why our relationship, need to report to her????

watching 'Twilight' tml....

with jordan!!!!!

he is booking out today, maybe after a few hours from now....

the time now is 12.52pm,

and ii am blogging....

meeting jessica at 2pm....=PP

ii tink she oso will late de.....

Shawn shows his jealousy against jordan,

hahahhahax.....=DDD

he thought mii and jordan had affair during our secondary school life,

which was "TRUE"....

hahahahahhahax...=DD

jordan was once my husband, if my secondary school friends will to remember....

a verii verii close friend,

who everii one will question our relationship.....

ii LOVE using this align center this few days....

put all the words on the center....

lots and lots of people told mii tat, Shawn "not bad"....

even his friends oso promote him to mii.....

ii used to told others tat,

going a relationship is not to call you get married soon,

so wat for care about parents view???

but, even though ii dun care my parents,

ii still able to sense a insecure whenever he leave mii alone,

and go off with his friends....

so STUPID of him,

join this kind of things.....

recently den ii got to know from him,

his 'god-father' was one of his father's friend,

which means, Shawn's father oso know he join this kind of thing????

OMG!!!!

wat kind of relationship it this???

*puzzled*

陈毅镪。。。

陈伟浩。。。

两个都姓‘陈’，

两个都走进了我的心。。。

其实，一段新的恋情真的能让你快乐，

不过却不能让你忘记。。。

可是，我害怕你快忘记了。。。

忘记了，一直在你心里的人，

忘记了，你还有更重要的事没做。。。

*理智永远都战胜了感情*

*your hard work will be seen*

W980......

my dream phone......

with 3.2 mega pixels camera,

8GB internal memory,

and is a flip phone......

so nice phone,

of cos the price oso verii 'NICE"......

C905.....

cyber-shot haandphone,

with 8.1 mega pixels camera.....

but jessica de boy said verii lag,

so not considering....

anii way ii got camera,

no need so good de camera phone.... =PP

Shawn was now in chalet,

ii not going along with him,

and make him so 'pissed off'....

but wat to do???

ii dun feel like goin....

cos he dun wan socialize with my friends,

why should ii did the same to his friends???

despite ii know lots of his friends too....

just a small action, to coax mii,

but he is so petty to do it.....

SHAWN TAN, 我生气了！！

TAN YIQIANG....

ii received your letter,

even though was pass through calvin....

you wrote verii sweet in the letter,

despite ii know whatever you said will not come true....

"choosing not to love you, is my way of loving you"

you said this sentence in the letter,

but do you know,

"staying alive, is my way of remembering you"

can ii still sae, you will heart broke when you know ii am with another guy???

时间能冲淡一切，

但是记忆却不可能被冲淡。。

我只是把你放在心里的最深处，

现在的我，只会在夜深人静时，

回忆起和你一起的种种。。。

也只有在自己一个人时，

我才敢想起你。。

realii learn how to tink positively now...

becos, must learn to grow up....

couldnt depend on others except ownself....

and YEAH!!!!!!!

finally bought my shoes and necklaces....

buying chocolates with jessica on christmas eve itself....

den head down to jason's house....

meeting jordan on christmas day,

two more days left....

looking forward!!!!!! =DDD

SUNDAY....
went to visit Shawn, den drew on his bandage,
"take care..."
den tat girl wrote,
"you are mine!!!"
hahahhahax....
Shawn keep explain but ii got no much reaction,
maybe cos ii believe Shawn??
hahahhahahahx..........(BHB)

ii always thought your world is hard to walk in,
but actually you open the door for mii,
is it mii the one who refuse to walk in,
or you hang a board and said,
"stranger, pls LEAVE..."???
ii seen those things too much,
so ii am fear of it???
if you are belong to mii,
regardless how much time ii need to wait,
you will still be by my side at the end???

应该是我害怕你会不告而别吧？？
对你真的是爱情还是因为寂寞？？
为了弥补上一段恋情的失败，
所以才想和你在一起？？？
毅镪，
可能我是在和你赌气吧？？
一直希望你是个普通人，
却不知道，其实平凡的我，要的却不普通！！

"dun tink your ex hurt you deeply den anii how find a guy??"
ii dislike people treat mii as substitute but ii did it to others???
sometime just hate how ii contradict myself.....
ii act as if my heart was dead,
but ii forgot how cruel life is.....
waiting could get wat ii wan,
but this kind of fate is meant to meet but not to pursue....

why suddenly so emo,
cos ii heard a love story from my friend....
there was this girl find no secure from her boyfriend,
but she didnt know how much her boyfriend actually sacrifice for her....
one day, when this girl two-timer her boyfriend,
her boyfriend told her tat "ii dun mind if you got another one, ii just like who you are"
even though this guy is foolish,
but his sacrifices realii made this girl turn back.....
however, not long later....
this guy changed his heart,
he will together with another girl....
when they broke off, he actually told the girl,
"ii dislike to lose!! you made mii lose my face, ii am just wanting back my face!!"

a guy could said lots of sweet talk to a girl,
even though this is onlii one of the failure example,
and ii not sure if ii will meet the same too....
but when more and more failure examples appear in front,
it will make mii too much and much.....
so Shawn expected ii will tink too much,
pulled mii off the table and stop mii of listening.....
but Shawn, you will never know how much ii fear of 'LOVE'!!!!

SAT....
just like wat ii expected,
from the moment you sent mii in a rush,
ii realii received your call at the midnight.....
right hand got bandage, need around 2weeks to recover.....
stay over at your house, since tml heading towards green line train....

Steamboat....
went to geylang with W25F....
of cos xiujing and sing ning boys too....
the 'ma la' steamboat, wasnt tat spicy,
just tat finish eating, stomach 'hot hot' de...=P
den head down to dhoby ghaut,
play pool....
oh, ii drank a glass of Tiger and the 'Q' vodka....
nothing happen,
of cos lo....so low percent of alcohol onlii....

accompany sikai go play acarde,
den took the last train back to amk....
so lucky, still got last bus....
if not ii will need to walk home, alone....;'(
reach home, not yet 1am....
blogging after my bath,
den msg with sikai......

never receive anii calls from Shawn,
even though ii know he got his accompany of friends....
but no matter, just hope he know how to take care of himself....
anii way, we oso not couple,
xiujing ask when will ii and Shawn be together,
ii am afraid, tat day will be delayed,
till verii late......

concert on TODAY......
how do ii keep myself not to think about it????
it was, SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!
haiix.....=(
and the accompany of Shawn....

MISSION 1.....
wake Shawn up at 9am, this morning.....
whereas, ii continue sleeping till 10am...=PP
cos Shawn need take more than 1 hour to prepare and reach my house....
where we go after tat???
AMK.....
buying clothes there.....

MISSION 2.....
now at Shawn's hse blogging.....
and ii met the same problem as my dear, jessica.....
his mother came in and saw mii in his room,
the first thing his mother said was "sorry, ii dunno you are inside..."
hahahahahhax.......
like wat jessica said,
shouldnt ii am the one who apologize tat didnt address her when ii am in their house???
hahahhahahhax.........
den Shawn said his mother abit 'shy'....=PP

MISSION 3....
playing basketball later.....
haiix....
cos tat stupid Shawn wan go play,
den wat more can ii do????
accompany him lo.....
but at most, ii oso sit down watch he play with others....

tml goin eat steamboat,
while Shawn need buy foods for chalet bbq....
not joining him for the chalet le.....
cos all the days packed fully.....
SORRY, Shawn.....(this was typed by Shawn)

MIT uploading today....
epsiode 7, aaron kiss on gui gui's forehead.....
hahahahahhaahax.....=DDDDD
muz watch!!!!!!!!!!
now loading Naruto,
so watching later.....
Twilight oso uploaded in youtube le,
but ii watching with jordan.....
looking forward to tml steamboat,
and christmas day.....

一个人的世界容易寂寞，
三个人的世界绝对拥挤。。。
我害怕在三个人的世界里，
找不到呼吸的空间，
所以我选择在一个人的世界里。。。
至少，我还能呼吸、说话。。。

going play basketball le....
SHAWN TAN,
better dun throw temper on others!!!!!!!!!
ii dun wan see injuries AGAIN!!!!!!!!
okiie.....
bye bye lo...=)

*RAINBOW after the RAIN*

maybe ii realii afraid to lost a friend,
or even beyond the limit of a friend....
to Shawn, ii have nothing much to sae,
except accompanying him....
his explanations might be excuses,
but ii still trust him.....
ii am oso HOPELESS, so compatible with him.....
those things will not disappear becos of mii,
cos Shawn couldnt change for mii.....
even though these are rubbish and excuses,
but becos ii know him well,
so ii trust him....

Shawn, you should be happii tat you meet someone like mii...=PP
cos ii understand thus able to forgive you,
but at least, whenever you did something,
think of someone like mii will feel sad for you.....
ii dun wish to see anii thing happen on you,
so do you, isnt it???
your words are sweet and nice,
so pls mean wat you sae......

*when you can live forever, what will you live for*
a quote from Twilight....
watching it with jordan on christmas day....=PP
ii might be pestering jordan to buy the story books for mii,
as christmas present....=DDD
and ii forgot tat ii should be watching Twilight with Shawn,
but when jordan called mii, ii asked him to watch with mii....=PP
ask Shawn along???
hahahahahhax.......
impossible!!!!!!!!!
cos jordan dunno him, thus wont clique with him.....

poor little Shawn,
accompany mii down marina square with my mother and sister,
SHOPPING!!!!!!
den help mii carry packs of things....
another thing tat Shawn grumble from the start of day,
it was, ii OFF his handphone....=PPP
den he keep grumble, keep nag for the whole day.....
Shawn, ii meant good lo....
dun grumble le....=PP

mummy sae both of us like couple,
but ii tink both of us are like how mii and jordan....
except both of us got "chemistry" la....=PP
at least be with him ii got "feel",
but with jordan dun have le.....
Shawn, dun too happii.....
you should know verii well,
together with mii,
couldnt do something, and you need to CHANGE.....
no need force yourself, cos ii oso dun bear.....

当年calvin和yiqiang 也说过同样的话，
他们都说不能改，
可是时间久了，还不是能改？？
可能我是期待你能改吧？？
所以才会原谅你。。。
你会舍不得我，
我也会舍不得你。。。

*tink too much*

holiday....=DD
how do ii spent my holiday???
erm......
not verii happii!!!!!
except receiving jordan's call and message,
the rest..... not verii happii!!!!

friday, last day of school.....
received jordan's msg at the morning told mii tat 'hui kang' oso same camp as him,
den Shawn called and said he goin to sleep,
asked mii to call him when ii reached home....
by the time ii reached home, he called mii le....
after having my dinner at home,
den meet Shawn....
until 10plus received jordan's call...=DDD
so nice of him to call....
den called back to jessica and told her tat jordan called mii....
and jordan is coming on christmas eve 24, till 28 sunday den book in....
YEAH!!!!!
can go out with him lo.....

Shawn Tan, you leave mii behind and go with them....
do you know how long ii take to reach home???
okiie, fine.....
first time ii dun mind,
but you did it the second time and third time?????
you dun care about yourself, den wat for ask mii to care of myself????
ii dun need someone who dunno how to care of himself to come and tell mii wat to do!!!!
you break our promise earlier than wat we promised each other....
ii can forgive you becos tat was realii no choice,
den wat about leaving mii alone????

sat and sunday,
history repeated.....
asked mii out den leave mii alone again!!!!
you tink ii verii good terms with your friends meh???
FUCK!!!!
somemore tat girl oso there,
even though she didnt came to touch mii or wat,
but do you know even her pressence made mii feel uneasy???
and you said will come back and drive mii home,
in the end le???
FUCK!!!!!
dun give mii anii deals or promises when you cant fulfil them.....
ii had enough of it!!!!!!

SHAWN TAN,

IF YOU TINK I AM ANGRII COS YOU LEAVE MII BEHIND,

DEN YOU ARE WRONG.....

YOU DIDNT UNDERSTAND MII WELL,

WAIT TILL YOU KNOW WHY AM I ANGRII OF,

DEN COME AND TELL MII BA.....

ii might realii fall into the love trap again,

tat is why ii will be so agitated.....

ii am afraid tat when the moment ii pick up the phone,

it wasnt you the one who talk to mii,

it is someone whom ii dunno....

both of us said,

"give each of us a chance"

so tat we could put down our past, and move forward....

but if the outcome will be,

mii staying a side and see you risking,

den ii do not have much courage to take it....

我经历过了，生离死别。。

看过了，朋友为死去的男朋友痛哭。。。

我不愿看见自己也和他们一样。。。

我没有勇气再承担多一次！！

ii didnt stop you,

was the most ii could go....

if you wan ask for more,

than bring mii along.....

ii have the confident to accompany you along,

but do not have the courage to see bad things happen....

*if you realii put mii in heart, you will know wat ii am asking for..*

two more pictures in my camera,

will take it out when ii free.....

we took the bus 73 three times a day,

den take train,

today take bus to school oso bus 73,

somemore is the same as we took to amk yesterday.....

went to marina square, shop here and there....

den jordan keep ask mii iziit wan go watch Fahrenheit concert,

ii thought he wan buy for mii....=PP

but now even if ii sae ii wan,

he oso no time go buy le....

ii planning to spend $50 on "Hush Puppies" to get him the cap....

hope by the time ii go buy,

the cap is still available...=DD

so damn sad from yesterday till now.....

just like how ii send yiqiang and calvin to army,

but mii and jordan just pure friends le....

why will ii so xin tong to see him in???

haiix....=(

just hope he inside, wont suffer.....

chalet dates on this month....

21st, 22nd, 23rd - pasir ris

24th, 25th, 26th, 27th - changi

is like a relay of chalet siia....

and my friends all booked the dates from the beginning of year,

but of cos ii wont be goin and stayin for everii day....

pasir ris wan might onlii go 22nd,

as for changi wan, will be 26th stay till next day....

Shawn, brought tim sum for mii this morning....

he realii like 'immortal', no need to sleep de lo...

den he console mii throughout the whole journey to school,

but he alighting at Admiralty,

just another stop dun accompany mii....

Shawn Tan!!!!

remember it.... (ii angrii le!!!!!)

陈毅镪，我们放下了吗？？

你一定很心痛，看见我和另个男生那么好！

我并不是寂寞才接受他的好，

也可以说，我想看他能给我，你一直给我的感觉吗？？

但是证明了，你好像永远都最好似的！！

不管他多努力，好像我都没法从他身上找到和你一起的感觉。。

我也会一起努力，把对你的假象给忘了！！

因为，你已经不属于我了！！！

没有爱过，怎么会知道放下原来如此痛苦？？

in a relationship, wat is the most important issues to consider??

1.) how much ii love you??

2.) how rich you are??

3.) how gentle are you??

4.) are you presentable??

5.) are you compatible??

ii will choose the second wan,

at least for the time being now....

ii had enough of being poor!!!!

so ii hope to put a STOP on it.....

ii received your true words....

it was all kept deeply in my heart....

this year is going to end soon,

with yiqiang not beside mii anii more,

with jordan went in to army,

with jessica got boi boi,

den mii here alone.....

of cos jessica still will tink of mii la,

some more christmas eve oso goin jason's house,

another person tat can accompany mii will be SHAWN lo...

of cos my poly friends too.... dears and darlings....=DD

*ii believe ii will be able to find something tat make mii happii...*

good things realii start to happen on mii...=)
at least for these few days....
yesterday, didnt went to school,
cos couldnt wake up as the previous day,
was chatting on phone with Shawn.....=PP
den yesterday, didnt go school so where ii go??
so sweet of Shawn actually brought foods to my house,
den my mummy and sister actually benefited from it.....
after tat, accompany him down to orchard, he need sent his hp go service....
his words realii made mii touched!!!!!
ii dunno was tat real,
but at least ii feel his 'heart'.....=PP


"perfect moments brighten my day"....=)
ii love the time being with Shawn,
at least a sense of secure existed.....
he actually came to look for mii early morning,
just to accompany take train down to my school.....
den he took train back to clementi himself!!!!
he realii got nothing better to do,
even though ii know he meant good....=PP

there are always something no need to speak out,
if tat person know you well,
an eye or an action will make him understand wat you are thinking....
this are something that hardly to explain,
neither do we want to explain....=PP
just treat it as the best moments we had together,
so even if we are to leave each other,
there are no regrets too....


goin off early later,
cos meeting jordan as he goin army tml....
ii will miss him like hell la!!!!!!!!!!!!
but later muz take photos,
when he goin to CUT his HAIR.....
hahahahhahahax...........=DDDD
he will miss his hair alot.....

bye bye....
goin off lo.....=DD

seems verii long didnt update le....
this few days enjoy alot....=DD
so update now lo.....
dear xiujing, shared a super duper good news to mii...
and ii feel verii happii for her...=DDD

{8 Dec 2008}
reached home around 7.30am....
cos yesterday stayed at jordan's house,
but he slept so early left mii, yilik, jessica and her boi boi....
den jessica oso damn tired, keep fell asleep while three of us playing mahjong....
till around 6plus, three of us play uno on the floor,
after tat everii one find one corner and take a nap....
but ii didnt sleep same to yilik,
cos ii readin novel den yilik playing his laptop....
saw the sky turned from dark grey sky to blue sky,
and becos previous day, it was raining so the weather is cosy and windy....

went home and had breakfast with mummy,
den went home sleep.....=DDD
okiie....
woke up in 5pm and my handphone got 27 missed calls....
goin to bomb my hp siia,
just to ask mii wan to go makan ma....
tat Shawn so 'hardworking' oh.....
but ii need guai guai,
cos stay overnight yesterday,
so muz be obedient for today....

Shawn, ii thanks for you accompany and the words you told mii....
even though ii dunno will we have anii outcome,
but please, dun at last told mii you are just 'flinging' with mii....
ii could onlii sae, at tat moment the feeling is RIGHT.....
hurts and scars are something ii couldnt afford to have now,
dun break anii promises or give anii promises tat you unable to fulfil....
at least ii dun need promises for the time being,
no need force yourself just like ii didnt force myself.....

{7 Dec 2008}
goin out with jordan, yilik, jessica and her boi boi....
went to hougang plaza for our sushi buffet,
den play pool....
saw my brother there too,
and ii didnt touch the pool stick lo!!!!
hahahahhaha.....=DDD
cos play pool, den need spend money,
ii dun wan spend money....=PP
den head down to jordan house to play mahjong.....

{6 Dec 2008}
just came back from Shawn's house,
he met mii at amk yesterday after my school....
ii dun care if you know it is you,
so wat if you know???
friends, no need to sae this is onlii my assumption,
ii believe my assumptions, my instincts, my sense.....
okiie....
Shawn listened to my grumbles for more than 2hours,
whenever my mouth got space,
ii will grumble....
so Shawn kept feed mii with foods,
he tried to occupy my poor mouth, so tat ii wont grumble....=PP

both of us did not touch anii vodka!!!!
cos he promised mii not to touch alcohol for 2 weeks,
den ii 'somehow' accompany him, anii way oso muz take care of my gastric lo....
so we drank green tea throughout the night,
and we played mahjong, black hack and 'dai dee', with money!!!!! $$$$
ii helped Shawn won around $30plus in mahjong and $20plus in cards....
whatever cards or tiles ii drew, Shawn oso can take....
thus able him to win....=DDD
ii am his "LUCKY STAR"!!!!!!=PP
accompany my mummy down to collect textbooks for my sister,
Shawn couldnt accompany mii down,
but he drive mii to meet my mummy.....
went home and head down to qiuling's hse,
return her disc.....
den go home, SLEEP!!!!!