today is sunday...
wake up at 2 plus and need to see wat happen to my desktop...
haiix... virus... den need buy the stupid anti virus software!!!!
damn expensive de la...
den my brother sae his friend comin on tuesday and repair... free...

ytd sat... such a good day!!!! =)
went out wif jordan, jessica, manyu and anson...
meet out jessica and jordan first go eat vegetarian food first...
after tat go take bus 55 where manyu and anson oso on their way to east coast...
den play cheat on the bus... ;P
but when we reached the bus stop, manyu and anson still haven reach...
so we play uno lo... =P
play until halfway they came...

den walked to east coast park....
the bicycle shop closed so cannot cycle...
so we play arcarde lo....
den spilt lo... anson and manyu play their own, ii accompany jordan and jessica lo...
play until around 11 plus den we walked to the beach and sit...
actually can mood swing tat time being de...
but ii noe jordan sure will feel weird and pissed off...
so ii try to control my emotion lo...
play along joke around...
den ii suddenly asked anson...
"u dun like us arhx??"
den anson was like stunted and sae "no, how could it possible??"
den ii sae why cant it be possible??
he reply mii why is it possible??
cos he had a sore throat so he dun feel like talkin...

den we thought at least can rush the last bus...
but too bad... we missed it...
so took cab back lo...
a family cab which able to sit 6 people...
and the fare was onlii $13 plus...
less than we expected... =DD
den go hougang chit chat and play poker lo....

ii and jordan bought a bottle of blackcurrant vodka...
it taste gasey but nice... =PPPP
love it so much!!!!
den ii feel my head verii heavy and numb....
den jessica they all sae ii haf drunk....
but actually ii m not!!!
ii can walk straight and answer all the question...
den jordan play uno halfway suddenly sae anson is a jerk...
hahahahax... den ii followed lo....
but they treat mii as invisible de la....
skip my turn so manii time...
den ii called jing see and ask him out to accompany continue drink...
he scold mii crazy... and he didnt even ask mii wat happen...
so ii pek cek and sae okiie la, u go sleep lo... bye bye!!!!

tis few days...
ii juv feel tat ii m not mii...
ii suddenly lost all my patient la...
will get frustrated easily, get mood swing easily...
ii started to hate stayin at home...
becos ii will always quarrel, which ii will not win!!!
ii dun feel ii m neglected, is juv tat they haf a habit of puttin the blame on mii...
but ii unable to push all the blame on them...
becos ii noe is wrong....

老天，
你赋予我敏锐的神经，
但。。却没有赋予我遗忘的能力。。。
daphne!!! 你是傻瓜吗？？
你的人生，只为别人吗？？

juv becos ii haf the ability to differentiate the problems clearly...
does it mean ii need to face it all???
happiness seem so far apart from mii...
my mother told mii...
ii will look at others, others will oso look at mii....
so does it mean ii cant get it???
ii tried to believe tat ii m able to get things when ii work hard...
however... the onlii trust ii put on didnt return...

yi qiang is comin back tis wednesday....
but ii haven jump into anii conclusion!!!!!
time is so precious....
wat should ii do??? how should ii decide??
haiix....
ii tink ii can foresee my decision le...
ii hope to get out of here...
but ii cant be so selfish...

我只会埋怨别人没有给我机会，
但是说穿了，是我自己不想要把握。。
就算幸福离我很遥远，
可是不放弃，终究会来的。。
我不愿意痛苦地生活，
但也不想白痴地结束。。。

*pls forgive mii for all my decisions... 因为想爱，却不能爱。。*