I am in my DEAD MEAT!!!

I started to regret of deciding to CONFESS!!!

*OMG*

What should I do??

Stop all the stupid actions NOW,

or still GO ahead??

Surprisingly, no one asked me before,

if I have 'his' blog url or ever read his blog before??

So easy to get, and ya..

I read it, also read 'his' ex too..

I found myself so 贼 lo..

=(

I read their past, those memories that only belongs to them..

I could feel that both of them still hold some feelings to each other,

what make them turned out to today's situation??

Does those feelings meant good or bad??

I am confused too..

I believe 'he' is a GOOD guy,

will be nice to girlfriend, will dote her, will love her..

That is why, I can expect my success rate turn lower than I set yesterday..

~>_<~

Seriously, who do not have past??

Since it isnt first love, that means all of us had past..

You leave someone because you LOVE him/her,

is that a RIGHT way or decision??

Just simply see him/her living happily, you will feel the same too??

I had done that for twice..

Using the same old reason,

"I LOVE you too much, therefore I let you go when I know you will be happier??"

Memories are something hard to be taken away,

unless you meet an accident and lost all memories..

Placing down doesnt mean forgotten..

I used to mention about 'you' often, till I even went to memorize every single sentence you said,

but now.. I am so confused!!

Shouldnt I never change??

Or should I step forward to grab someone, beside 'you'??

"Currently, I am not ready for a relationship.."

Will this turn out to be what 'he' will reply to me??

Therefore, does it means 'he' still couldnt get over 'his' previous relationship??

I am willing to step forward now, for 'him'..

However, if I will to expect 'his' answer in the beginning, shouldnt I put it a STOP??

Okiie..

I know I am just thinking about all the negative possibilities,

what if it turn out to be a "GOOD" wan??

Therefore, it should be enough for my grumbling, enough for my venting..

"Start anew" will be in my dictionary from now on..

就算害怕，我还是不能放弃。

因为放弃，就表示我不再相信了。

我还没输，还是有机会的。