I FORCE HIM TO PROMISE ME,
AND HE DID.. =DDDD

RP seriously pissed me off!!!!!
I know it is all for precautions, but $6 for the entrance to school,
NO thermometer = NO entrance to school = ABSENT!!!!!
Confirmed cases are 91 now in RP,
but I cant see why we pay the school fees just to get sick,
even though my immune system didnt reduce any,
that doesnt means people surrounding are same too..
*argh*
Totally freak me up, man!!!!

Every, every day, I made him promise me that he will NOT leave without a word,
I still made him said a curse, if he ever break the promise,
he will.................................................
HEHEHEHEHE.. =DDDD
However, till now he haven even go to book his air tickets,
I dunno if he is waiting for me to ask or he had his other plans..

Actually, I didnt think about what will happen to our relationship after he leave,
will he fall in love to his fiancee and left me alone here??
Or both of us will like need time to forget each other??
I always want to know, how much time do we need??
Whenever I thought it is time for me to put down,
I couldnt find enough reasons to do so,
so end up, what am I looking for??

Sometime, I might be just forcing myself to accept the facts that we are not destined,
but I also know, not that we are not destined,
is my decision changed the entire situation..
If I am willing to put down all my considerations,
both of us will not like suffering here..
And I seriously hope that my rational can stop here,
but never will it happen, because I forbid it to happen..

Rushing rushing rushing..
I am rushing out our story,
please at least enough time for me to give it as a present to him..
Please please please..

Lastly, I didnt pin too high hopes on the other 'him',
because I know he will not act like what I think..