If you knows the outcome of that scenario, will you still hold hopes for it to change??

At least for me, I give up the last opportunity, all because..

I am too tired..

Shouldnt be me the one that feels tired,

because he must be more tired than me..

I just dun want to see things keep repeating again and again!!

I hate it!!!!

Also dunno why suddenly all those bad thoughts came to my mind,

I also hope can forget all these and make my life better,

is it really too hard for me or I just didnt work hard for it??

I guess I am just pushing the blames to him,

in order make myself free and enable the hurt to be minimized..

No one can tolerate lonely, is just that they are afraid of getting hurt,

so putting up a protective mask, to show that they dun care..

Am I doing the same too??

YES, I do..

I was reading all my older posts, in one shot..

How I fall in love, what happen to me and him, me and my eye candy,

at last he leaving me again and again, how deep the love had actually grew in our heart,

till the end, we still not fated to be together and even end up with me decided to fall in love on another guy..

Maybe he was the one that betrayed our promise first,

but I am the master-mind that plotted the whole trap..

Now then I realized, not he dun bear to blame me,

it was the fear he afraid to receive that dun allow him to scold or blame me..

That is why he treated me so good, without holding any grumbles..

Everything came from the fear..

当你用尽全力，还是感觉无能为力时，这是不是也在意味着，是时候放弃了？

When you used all effort but still feel useless, does it means it is time to give up?

YEAH, he will be staying here till our two year anniversary,

however, at least for now I wont expect much..

Sometime, I even think that his fiancee is not even here,

he is just trying to force me, see if I will be provoked and leave with him..

But I know, he never will crack a joke like this,

because he dun benefit from it either..

There was once, I finally realized the feelings I fall for him is called "LOVE",

and that was my first time treated the relationship as a long term and everlasting,

the first guy I ever think will be mine for the rest of my life, so I committed..

But fairy tale is never going to happen in reality..

It vanished at the moment both of us left..

童话故事就算存在，也并没有全然地发生在我们身上。

也许这也证明了，我不是公主，没法享受这种待遇。

如果你是王子，那就找个适合你的王妃吧！

至少，我知道自己不是公主。。。

If you really feel apologetic, then grant my wish..

If not, let me put the stop after the day..

*cold-hearted*